Hey! Okay, this is my first songfic so tell me what you think, ok? This fic is about Kaoru's dwelling thoughts on a dead Kenshin. The story is in first person so this is Kaoru's direct thoughts. The thoughts a more like as if Kaoru was actually taking to Kenshin. If you haven't seen Samurai X: Reflection, then you might be lost. So, please read, enjoy, and reveiw.

Song: Evanescence- My Immortal

You know where I am? I'm sitting under the tree you had laid under when you finally left. I had turned to see your reaction of what I predicted would happen in the future, but you just had your eyes closed and smiled. I touched your beautiful face to feel it cold. It had lost the warmth that you had given it. I had longed to feel that warmth again only to feel it disappear the moment I touched it. You finished it, my love. You completed everything that you wanted to complete, leaving me to complete mine on my own without you there to help me.

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

But no matter what I do, I can't seem to move on. You're always there, my love. You always seem to be watching me complete my tasks. However, my tasks are getting harder to complete everyday. Yuri Shiratori is beginning to take over my chores now because I can't do them anymore. I won't blame you for it. I asked you to share with me some of your pain. I did and I received some of it in the shape of a disease. The disease is all over my body now, like it was when I saw your's.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

I remember when you would fight to protect me. You saved me so many times. And what did I do for you? All I could do was thank you for saving me and blessing me with the many gifts you gave me. I remember when I first met you. Your face showed the hard times that you had faced throughout your life, but they showed the happiness you had for finally throwing away those memories and starting a new life. Of all the people I know you killed in life, there was one that always stayed with you. Her name was Tomoe. She was your first love, I know. I tried to find ways on making you forget about her, but I realize now that I was being selfish. I know now, that I was supposed to let her stay with you. I was supposed to let your memory of me sit next to the memory you have of her. How selfish I was! I wanted you for myself, but others needed you, too. And now, I know why I did such a thing.

You used to captivate me

By your resonating life

Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

Your memory still lingers here with me. Your memory lingers with many people. So many people remember you as the Battousai, but others will remember you as the Ruroni you became. I will always remember you as Shinta because that is how I believe that you wanted me to call you, by that name.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

There was that point of my life where you were no longer near me. You were away on a mission for the army. Before you left, I saw the scars...the marks on your arms that told me that something terrible had happened to you. When I asked, you didn't answer. When I told you to share it with me, you gave it to me.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

Now I am ready to move on. I can do it now because I have realized all the selfish things I have done. I don't know how I will finish my days, but I know when they are done I will see you again, my love...Shinta.

Okay. So what did you think? I had watched the Samurai X movies and thought that a nice songfic would work for a oneshot fan fiction about the movies, mainly Samurai X: Reflection. I hope you enjoyed it. Please reveiw and tell me what you thought of it. Thank you.

-Eissalande