September 30th, 2003

Week 32

They were getting down to the wire and Alex and DK were getting even closer. Why couldn't either of them admit to each other that they were in love? Probably because both of them had never experienced love before and they were both extremely terrified.

Alex slowly hauled herself out of the car. She wouldn't be able to drive the car for much longer. Maybe if she pushed the seat further back she would be able to. Today Alex was visiting the graveyard. She missed her father, especially now that she was pregnant.

"Let's go see grandpa, Lilah." She said walking down one of the pathways. She saw her fathers gravestone. There were a lot of flowers on it already. The men at his fire station tended to keep his grave up. It was nice for Alex because she was busy a lot.

"Hey, Daddy. How are you doing? Stupid question. you're dead." Alex smiled weakly, "I um, I wanted to tell you that I'm pregnant just in case you didn't notice from heaven."

Alex pressed her lips to the cold stone. It wasn't as good as kissing her father, or smelling the smoke on him, or feeling his muscular arms around her, but it'll do.

"Her name will be Lilah. Her father is Derek Kelly. I'm not sure if you knew him or his father. He's a firefighter too." She said with a soft smile, "I never thought I'd get involved with a firefighter. Well, we're not involved really. dad, you would totally kick me if you saw this going on."

Alex sighed softly.

She was trying so hard not to cry. She couldn't cry. Her hormones were starting to take over though and tears soon began to flow. She covered her face with her hand and began to sob into them.

"Oh g-god." he sobbed. it was so much harder to have her father gone, now that she was pregnant. She wanted him to have grandchildren so badly and now here was one and he was gone.

"Taylor?" A familiar voice said. Alex looked up and saw Ty Davis standing near her. She wiped her eyes and gave him a soft smile.

"Hey." She said.

"Are you all right?" He asked her. She nodded.

"I will be." Alex said, "Why are you here?"

"I was seeing my father." He looked at the stone in front of her, "And I see that's what you were doing too."

"Yeah." Alex said miserably. She looked at Ty, "Does it get any easier?" Ty sighed as she scrubbed his hands over his face.

"No. Honestly it dosent. The pain never goes away, but you learn to move on." Alex shook her head. Ty watched the tears slid down her cheek.

"I can't move on." She whispered. "I want him here, Ty! I want him to see me and Derek happy! want him to be able to hold Lilah!" Alex was full-fledged crying now. It was breaking Ty's heart, "Why, Ty? Why did he have to die? Why did he have to fucking die?? It's not fair!!" Ty shook his head.

"No, it isn't fair, Alex. It's not fair, Sully made my father go to that park and he got shot either." Ty said, "But life isn't fair. You can't get this upset, Alex. You're pregnant. You need to focus on your future. You need to move on for the baby's sake."

"I don't know if I can." Alex whispered.

"That's not the Taylor I know." Ty said. "you are a head strong woman and You can't let this bring you down again."

"I'm not that strong." Alex said.

"Come on. I've had sex with you. I know how much you can handle." Ty said. A small smile came across Alex's face. that was what Ty had been going for, "Go home, Taylor. Talk to DK. he lost his father too. tell him how you feel. You can't bottle this up for you health and the baby's health."

Alex nodded. She knew Ty was right. But she didn't see why this had happened. Okay, so he died doing what he loved and he died trying to save people, but it still didn't seem fair to her.

October 13th, 2003

Week 34

Alex sat at the kitchen table brushing her hair. She felt so scummy lately. Of course she would. She was the size of the house and didn't feel like showering every single day. DK teased her. Alex heard the front door open up.

"DK, could you make me a roast beef sandwich?" She asked, "I'm hungry."

"Sure, but I have a surprise for you first." DK walked into the kitchen with a large box.

"What's in there?" She smiled.

"Well, try to guess." DK said. Alex bit her lip when she heard a small meow. Alex's eyes widened.

"Is it a kitten?" She hauled herself up and looked into the box. Sure enough it was a tiny kitten. "Oh, DK." Alex picked up the kitten and cradled it

"It's a girl and she's about six weeks old." DK said, "Some one dropped a whole box of kittens off at the station and I saw her and fell in love with her."

"She's perfect." Alex nuzzled the kitten. "What's her name?"

"I don't know. It's up to you." DK said smiling as he saw the excitement in her eyes.

"Okay, let's see." Alex went into the living room and sat down on the couch. The black kitten crawled across Alex's belly.

"Here we go. The name game again." DK chuckled as he sat next to her.

"How about Flame or ah...Something firefightery." Alex said.

"How about Blaze?" DK smiled rubbing the kitten's head.

"I like Blaze." Alex smiled looking at DK, "Thank you for the kitten." She pressed her lips to his, "Thank you a lot. I've always wanted a kitten."

"It was my pleasure." He said pushing her blond hair off of her cheek. "Are you feeling okay?"

"Perfect now.' She said kissing him again. Blaze jumped up and hugged their cheeks. Alex laughed. "Someone is jealous."

"Someone is probably hungry. I bought some kitten chow." DK picked the black kitten up. He walked into the kitchen. Alex smiled softly.

"I'm going to take a nap." Alex announced. DK nodded as he fed Blaze."

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DK stood in the doorway watching Alex sleep. He smiled softly. She was so gorgeous. DK walked into the room and sat on the bed. Alex stirred slightly. Her bright blue eyes opened up. She smiled softly.

"Hey." She said.

"Hey." DK said.

"Come join me." Alex said. DK nodded and crawled into bed next to her. he wrapped his arms around her large belly. He pressed his lips to her shoulder blade.

"What do you want to do for Halloween?" DK asked. Alex chuckled.

"Have a lot of unbridle sex." She smiled. DK laughed.

"We can do that." DK, "But what are you going to dress up as. We do have that party at work." Alex rolled her eyes.

"Well, maybe a pumpkin." Alex said, "I feel like one."

"A pumpkin would be cute." DK replied, "I'm gonna go as a pirate." Alex laughed loudly.

"Can I be your wench?" She asked. He nodded.

"Aye. Aye. Matey." He winked. Blaze then jumped up onto the bed and jumped onto Alex's face. She giggled wildly, pulling the kitten off.

"You're nuts, Blaze." She said, "Thank you for the spaz kitten." DK chuckled.

"No problem." he said with a smile. He watched Alex play with the kitten. She was clearly happy and that made him happy.

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