A/N Again, thanks for reviewing my story. I'm sorry it's been over a week since I updated. I planned to have someone spell check my new chapters but I thing something went wrong there. Anyway, I was impatient and couldn't wait any longer so here they are (not checked yet) I read them a few times and changed weird sentences and all but this is the best I can do for now. I hope you like these chapters and I'll just keep writing!!

Chapter 6: Dealing with the consequences

Emily watched Lorelai leave. She had no idea what just happened. Why did she always screwed up things with her daughter. Why couldn't they just have a normal relationship. She actually had the feeling that things went better the past few months. Honestly she was trilled about Luke and Lorelai getting a baby. Why couldn't she just say that? Why was it so hard? She knew Lorelai was a lot like her, even though she hated to admit that, she knew Lorelai knew it too. Maybe that was the problem? Rory was a lot like Lorelai to, but in other ways. Thinking about Rory, she looked at her. Rory was staring at her. She didn't seemed angry anymore, just worried. Emily knew that she had to say anything, but was afraid to say the wrong thing again. Why would it matter if Lorelai got married. Of course, it was her dream to see her get married one day but it wasn't a must right? The only thing that really mattered is that see is happy. That's really the only thing important.

"Maybe I should call your mother."

"I don't think that would do any good right now grandma. Just let her cool down for a couple of days and try talking to her than."

"You think?"

"She won't be reasonable now. Just give her some times."

"I screwed up big."

"Yeah you did, but it wasn't just your fault I guess."

"Really?"

"This goes back way long. It will take some time to fix this, but I think it will."

"Really?"

"Yeah. You know, maybe you should write her a letter. That way you don't force her and you can think about it clearly, so you don't say the wrong things."

"I didn't meant what I said. I am happy for her. It's just... I couldn't say it, somehow."

"I know, I really do."

Lorelai kept silent the entire way home. She wanted to say something but she just couldn't. She still felt angry although it wasn't just at her mother, but at herself too. She was thinking about what happened. Was there any way she could have prevented this? Why hadn't she just kept quiet like she always does. In a way, she knows that her mother probably hadn't meant it this way. Maybe it was even partially her fault. But she was angry with her mother.

Luke watched her on occasion, but she didn't even noticed. She was staring out of the window, lost in her thoughts. He knew she needed this time for herself, and he knew that she would talk to him when she was ready. All he could do right now was take her home and be there for her.

Lorelai was about to put the key in the lock when she stopped. All the sudden she was scared. What if her mother left a message on her answering machine. She couldn't handle that right now. Luke looked at her.

"You okay?"

"I don't think I can go in here Luke."

He took the keys from her and opened the door. After that he took her hand in his. "Come on. You don't have to go in alone"

She doubted for a second but followed him in after that. She walked over to the kitchen, avoiding the answering machine. Luke followed her. After she let go of his hand she walked to the cabinet where the coffee is. Taking it out, she started filling the coffeemaker. Luke noticed this and said: "Lorelai, stop."

"What?"

"You can't drink that."

"It's just coffee Luke."

"I know that, but you took the regular stuff. You can't have that now and you know it." Inwardly he cursed himself for not having it thrown away already."

"Oh come on Luke. I need coffee."

"There's de-café."

"I don't want that. I just want one cup of coffee, that's all I'm asking for."

"No." With that, he took the coffee back she just filled out of the coffeemaker and dropped it in the trash can."

"Luke, stop it." She took another one from the cabinet and started filling it again, but he stopped her.

"No." He pulled the coffee out of her hand and threw it in de trash can.

"Luke." She was really angry now. "Don't do this to me, come on."

"You want de-café?" He took the de-café out of the cabinet and started filling the coffeemaker. Lorelai didn't liked this, and started pushing him away.

"Don't do this Lorelai."

"Why don't you just leave me alone?" He walked closer to her but she pushed him away again.

"Lorelai." His voice was soft. While she stood just in front of him she started punching him on his chest. Luke didn't walked away. He let her punch him for a few seconds and when she started loosing her anger he pulled her towards him, holding her tight against his chest. With that she started crying. He didn't said a word, he just kept holding her.

When she finally calmed down she just remained in his arms, standing in her kitchen until her legs became sore from standing. She wanted to sit down and talk. She pulled back and looked at him. He used his thumbs to brush away her tears. After that she took his hands and started walking towards the living room. She was relieved to see that there where no messages on her answering machine. She sat down on the couch and he sat down next to her.

"Why did I do that?"

"Do what?" He asked gentle.

"Why didn't I just kept still like I always do. I know my mother. I know the way she reacts to stuff and I know her words don't come out the way she means them. It's just..., I was so angry. All I wanted was her to be happy for me. That's the only thing I wanted Luke. I know she said it but you heard the tone in her voice right. Like she didn't meant it. Just like she wasn't approving this. And the assumption that I didn't told her right away. She doesn't trust me Luke. Somehow she never does. I know I screwed up as a kid but I'm an adult know right? We have a stable relationship. You're the first guy I dated for this long and I'm not planning on leaving you any time soon, our ever for that matter. We're not married but so what? You love me, I love you, we're getting a baby what's the problem? Did I screwed up anything here? Did I screwed up because I got pregnant even though we haven't discussed this. Maybe, but I like this. I'm happy about this. Why can't she be happy about this? And what about Rory? Rory is the best kid in the world. She graduated best of her class from Chilton. She was admitted at the 3 best college's of the country. She's doing great at Yale. She's admitted in that study program in London. I'd say I did a pretty good job there, didn't I? Did I screwed up with my daughter? And the dragonfly. We're running for almost a year now and already we're in the top 25 list of inn's in the country. So did I screwed up there? Tell me Luke, did I screwed up everything in my life? Isn't there a single in my life where my mother can say "look that's my daughter." Isn't there something I did right?"

She looked at him, her eyes asking him to say something, anything.

"You haven't screwed up anything Lorelai. You've done many great things in your life. With Rory and the inn and all. You're the most amazing woman I ever met."

"Than why can't my mother see that?"

"I don't know Lorelai. Maybe she does see it but she's afraid to tell you. I don't know."

Lorelai thought about that for a while. "I think....." She doubted for a while. Could she say out loud what she was just thinking?

He noticed that. "You can tell me."

"I think that maybe my mother looks a lot like me."

He expected her to continue, to explain what she was thinking but she didn't. "What do you mean?"

"Do you know how long I've been in love with you before we finally kissed? I don't think I even remember the first time I realized that I was in love with you. It's such a long time ago. I never told you how I felt because I was afraid. Afraid to admit my feelings and afraid to loose you." While she explained this she couldn't look him in the eyes, so she turned her head down.

He lifted her head gently, so she faced him again. "I know that because I did the same thing."

Lorelai continued: "She kept me away when I was a child. It made me independent. I wasn't like her. She wanted the glamour and all. I didn't. I... I just wanted her to take me to bed and read me a story, like every mother did. I wanted her to take me shopping, buy me some ice cream. But she always had staff members who did the shopping. I wanted her to tell me that she loves me. I want her to tell me that."

"I think she does."

"I know that. But I just want to hear it. Lorelai I love you. And than I say, I love you to mom. How hard can that be? Why is this family so screwed up so we can't say that? I can tell you I love you and I can tell Rory, but why can't I tell my mother."

"Why don't you just tell her now?"

"How can I do that? I messed up tonight. She will never look at me again."

"Yes she will."

"Oh come on, she didn't even called me. She always calls."

"I think that she's just giving you some time."

"I don't know Luke. I don't know."

"It will be better. This will work out. I promise you that."

"You don't know that."

"Yes I do. She loves you, even though she can't say it, she loves you very much and she can't be without you. Not anymore. I know that for sure."

"Really?"

"Yes, I know. I really do."