A/N Sorry it took me so long to update. I had a very busy week and even last weekend was spent with school stuff. I've just finished watching the latest Gilmore Girls episode. That's when I decided it was time to sit down on the couch with my laptop and start writing.
Thanks so much for all the reviews and hope you like my new chapter.

Chapter 11: Midnight walk

It was an early December night. Luke woke up, sleeping on his left side. He slowly opened his eyes. Moonlight filled the room. He stared at the window for a while and noticed it was snowing. The first snow of the season. Normally he probably hadn't even noticed, but he knew how much she loved that. That it was very special for her. He turned to his other side and saw Lorelai was sleeping peacefully. He couldn't help but smiled. After a while he moved closer to her, kissing her softly. She shifted. After he kissed her again she opened her eyes.

"Hi."

"Hi."

'What's wrong?"

"Notting's wrong."

"Then why do you wake me?"

"I want to take you outside."

"Why?"

"Come on."

"No, let me sleep."

"It's snowing."

"So?"

"You love snow."

She was fully awake now. "Not this year."

"Why not?"

"Because."

"Lorelai?"

"It's just... It's something I share with Rory. We take a walk during the first snow of the season. At least we try it to be the first time of the season. It means nothing without her."

"Don't say that. You love the snow."

"No I don't."

Luke thought for a while. Maybe he was wrong to wake her up. But he knew that she'd been acting weird since Rory left. She was grumpy while he was the one that was supposed to be the grumpy one. He wanted her to know that things could be fun even without Rory. Things could be special without Rory. He wanted the real Lorelai back. He loved her no matter what. In good moods and in bad once. But he saw way to much bad moods these days. That just wasn't her.

"Please, it means a lot to me if you'll come with me."

"But I want to sleep."

"Please?" He looked at her. His eyes where begging her. "Please?"

"Fine." She stood up and changed into some warms clothes. Luke did the same thing. After that Lorelai followed Luke downstairs. She wished that he hadn't woken her up. It didn't meant anything without Rory. Nothing was as much fun these days. She loved Luke and she loved living with him but she missed her daughter so badly. She couldn't believe it would be 6 more months before she saw her again. She knew Luke meant it well. The only reason she came was because of him. She didn't wanted to let him down.

Luke opened the door. She doubted a few seconds before stepping out side, closing the door behind her. He reached for her hand. She took his and they started walking in silence.
He watched her. She still wasn't smiling. What did he had to do to make her smile again? He felt the little box in the pocket of his coat. He thought that maybe it was time. But on the other hand he knew wanted to stick with the original plan. After a while he realized how cold it was. He knew that he didn't loved the winter the way she did. The only part about winter that he loved was the fact that she loved it. He loved the way it made her feel. How her smile usually grew bigger when it snowed. He missed that so much now. He missed her smile.
He put his arms around her shoulder, pulling her close. She rested her head on his shoulder. She had to admit that it felt nice. Maybe even more than nice. She smiled. Just a small one, but it was a smile. He looked down and saw it. He started smiling to. Maybe it wasn't a bad idea. Maybe this walk could have the effect he wanted it to have.

"Luke?"

"Mm...."

"This feels good."

"I know." His smile went bigger.

After that they just kept walking in silence. Lorelai started to enjoy the walk more every second. For the first time within months she realised that she could have fun without Rory. She decided that it was time to go on with her life. She knew missing Rory was okay but she knew something had to change. She thought about the things she had at the moment and knew that it was a lot. Luke had been so patient with her the past few moths.
They walked towards the lake, stopping in front of it. They watched the snow fall on the water. The reflection of the moon made it very romantic.

"Luke?"

"Yeah."

"Thank you."

"For what?"

"For taking me here."

He looked at her. "It's nice isn't it?"

"Yes it is." She paused for a few seconds before she said: "I'm sorry."

He looked confused "For what?"

"For the way I've been acting lately."

"You don't have to apologize about that. I understand how you feel."

"But Luke, I have to apologize. I've been acting cranky since the day Rory left. You're trying so hard but all I do is giving you a hard time about it. Inside me I was even angry that you asked me to come out here. It was something she and I shared every year since she was born. I was absolutely sure that it couldn't be special without her. But you know what? I was wrong Luke. It is special. Maybe even more special than the previous years because this year I'm sharing it with you..."

"It's..."

"Wait, let me finish. I have to get this out."

He just nodded.

"The day I found out I was pregnant I was scarred to tell everyone but I was so happy. Just the thought of carrying your child was so amazing. I can carry a part of you inside me for 9 months and it will grow into a little human. I can't even think what it will be like to hold our child for the first time. And the summer was great. We spend it as a family and I loved it. I just, I forgot that after the summer Rory had to go away. A part of our family. A part of me. I've never been without her for so long. I was so sad and even angry that I forgot about all the good things in my life. I know it is stupid because I have so many good things. Us living together. We getting a baby together. There is so much to be grateful for. I just, well I'm just sorry for the way I've been acting."

"Lorelai, don't be sorry. I know how much you love Rory. You've always been close. It was just the two of you for a very long time. I know how you felt when she went to college. It was the first time you had to let her go. She wasn't around all the time anymore. But you saw her at least once a week. And you don't have that now. And with Christmas and all, I understand."

"I'm glad you understand but you know, don't you think I overreacted?"

He thought to long before he replied. "LUKE!"

"I know you've been acting different lately. And I have to admit that sometimes I miss the happy Lorelai. The woman who walks into my diner and lightens the place up. Some of my customers accused me of giving my bad mood to you, or from switching body's with you."

It was supposed to be a joke but she didn't thought it was funny. She turned her face away, staring at the floor."

"Lorelai, it was a joke."

She looked back up. There where a few tears in her eyes. She whispered: "I don't think it was funny."

He stepped forwards, pulling her into his arms. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to make you feel better. Look, I know you're not yourself lately. But I..." He stopped as he suddenly felt very embarrassed.

"What?" She pulled back so she could look at him.

"I've been reading some books lately. About babies and about pregnancy and the books say that you react different with hormones and all."

She rolled her eyes. "Oh Luke, come on."

"I didn't meant it in a bad way. I just want you to be happy, that's all I ever wanted."

"I am happy now."

"Really?"

"Yes. I'm here with the man I love. I'm carrying his child. What's not to be happy?"

"I can't think of something, really."

"Neither can I."

He leaned in to kiss her. After the kiss ended he whispered "I love you too."

They walked home. Not in silence this time. After the midnight walk in the first snow of the season everything changed. Lorelai went back to being herself. She was happy again. She started to enjoy her life as it was right now, even without Rory. She knew that this winter would be very special. She was even looking forward to Christmas, unaware of the plans Luke made.