A/N: YEY! I like this chapter, this is when I get more into the writing! The story really hasn't stared up yet though, so give me time!

Chapter 4

Why I still love you

"I WHAT! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!" Tsukiaye stood up from her chair letting the fire that was growing in her eyes get bigger.

"Now listen my princess, by order of the empress you are not to leave for it without him. Apparently this is going to be a group effort. Iroh has agreed that it might be good for the both of you. What doesn't destroy us only makes us stronger."

"Oh I'll destroy him alright." Tsukiaye pushed her chair out of the way and began to walk out the door, "If anyone wants me, I'll be wakening the prince."

Yumi stood up and grabbed Tsukiaye's wrist and spoke to her in a voice that almost sounded like she was speaking underwater, "Princess, calm yourself, otherwise you will be taken down by your own emotions. You're smarter than that. I know it."

Tsukiaye slightly tugged her arm away and nodded, "Then I'll go and tell him in the morning."

Tsukiaye woke up on a large pile of grass; she sat up and rubbed her head, "wha…"

"Wake up silly! It's time to play!"

Tsukiaye sat up to see a little girl with brown hair in the distance shaking someone who was asleep on the ground.

"Come on! Wake up!"

She thought to herself, 'wait that's me isn't it…?'

Tsukiaye's thoughts were confirmed when the little girl stood up from the person that she was shaking and was wearing a pink and red robe. "It's time to play."

Tsukiaye sighed when she saw the person that she had been shaking stand up.

'Zuko.'

"We're gonna go chase fireflies now!" Her younger self pulled little Zuko along while he stumbled sleepily. "Let's go and wish on them."

The two walked over the hill out of Tsukiaye's sight. 'Wait! I have to follow them!'

Tsukiaye followed them to the other side of the hill where there was a large Koi pond surrounded by a thousand flashing fireflies. The little Tsukiaye ran around catching them while little Zuko stood and watched her laughing happily.

'Am I supposed to be getting something out of this?'

Little Tsukiaye paused and squealed happily, "I got one!" She ran up to the smaller version of Zuko and showed it to him, "See! Make a wish!"

The firefly that was in her hand spread it's wings and floated to the stars that were just appearing.

Little Zuko grabbed her hands while she was looking at the sky and smiled at her, "Let's get married!"

'Wait I remember this…'

She looked back at him, "Yeah, I know we're getting married."

He raised one of his hands to the sky and firefly landed on it, "But I wanna get married now, that way we'll always be in love, Ok?"

Little Tsukiaye frowned, "You're weird."

He laughed at her and kissed her on the cheek, her reaction was to push him over.

"Don't touch me stupid boy." Little Tsukiaye put her hands on her hip and frowned.

"Look!" Zuko pointed to the firefly that had landed on her nose, she screamed and fell backwards. Zuko laughed at her misfortune until they heard a voice from a distance away.

"Tsukiko darling! Time to go!"

Little Tsukiaye stood up, "Mama called me by my first name, that means it's time to go." She helped pull Zuko up and hugged him, "I'll see you tomorrow Zuko."

He nodded and let her go when the figures of four adults appeared.

He whispered softy, "I wish that it will always be this way."

The two young children ran to their parents and hugged them tightly around the legs.

'We were so little… and both of our dads still loved us.'

Suddenly there was a strike of lightening and Tsukiaye looked around, everything around her was in flames. The ground that she was standing on began to crack and she shifted her weight, 'I'm dreaming! I'm dreaming!' The floor gave out and she fell into darkness.

She woke with a sharp gasp. Tsukiaye looked around her and then relaxed realizing that her thinking had been right, "Another nightmare?" She swung her feet over her bedside and then slipped her feet into her slippers. She slowly stood up and walked to her door letting the covers from the bed drop off of her to reveal a black and red robe. She opened her door and walked down the hall till she came to the stairs that lead her to the top of the ship. She slowly climbed them letting the metal stairs slightly prick her feet with the nails. As she came to the top of the ship she pulled the robe slightly over her head as the sound of rain pounded on the ships surface. She walked to edge of the railing and leaned slightly against it. 'Why do I keep having these dreams?' She fell to her knees and let the rain run down her face. "I'm going to die like this." She let the robe that she had on slide off of her shoulders and hit the ships surface. Her hair was slowly absorbing the water that was falling on her. She let out a heavy and sick sigh, "He's right. Nothing is ever going to change." She let her head fall and her hair fell around her face, "I'm so weak." She began sobbing heavily. A soft hand came down on her shoulder while she cried giving her slight comfort. Tsukiaye looked up at Zuko.

"Why are you out here?" He put a hand down for her to grab onto, "Come inside."

Tsukiaye grabbed his hand and he helped her up, "K."

Tsukiaye held tightly to his arm as they headed back to his ship.

"Are you going to stay with me tonight?" he asked quietly.

She nodded and they walked across the bridges that held the two ships together.

Zuko opened the door to his room that was clearly lit by the fire that seemed to have been going for a few hours. "You can sleep in front of the fire." He threw a few of his pillows down onto the floor and handed her a blanket and another robe. "You're going to be sick."

"No I wont, my body has given up on being sick. I stand out in the rain all the time in the winter." Tsukiaye put the robe on over her wet clothes. "Besides, what should I care?"

"Letting yourself be subject to sickness makes you weak." Zuko climbed under his covers and faced away from her. "Go to sleep, at least now neither of us can have nightmares."

Tsukiaye nodded, she had never had nightmares when her and Zuko were little, and maybe being around him was all that she needed to clear her mind.

"Goodnight Zuko." Tsukiaye lied in front of the fire with the blanket over her and slowly drifted to sleep with her face buried in Zuko's pillow.

A/N: coolies, I got nothing to say. You'll see more of my friends in the next chapter.