A/N: this is kind of a fluffy chapter and then you get to see Tsukiaye act a little mindless. She has some problems with her past. So get on with it right? Here!

Chapter 5

Songs of our childhood

Tsukiaye opened her eyes to see a glimmer of light breaking through the door that lead to the outside of the ship. The fire had gone out and Zuko was gone. Tsukiaye stood up and headed to the door. She tightly held the blanket to herself for warmth. The dock of the ship was covered in a slight layer of fog. Tsukiaye walked over to the front of the boat where Zuko was standing. She stood by him and sighed, "I don't like you."

"…I know." Zuko continued to focus on the coming sun.

She shook her head, "But I don't hate you. I just hate the way you make me act."

"I'm over it."

"Why do you have to be so quiet!" She barked at him.

"…Because, it's the sunrise."

She crossed her arms pouting, "What's so great about that?"

"It's another day. And everyone has another chance to make it better than the last. This way, I started off the morning calm. Maybe the rest of my day can be calm too."

Tsukiaye smirked, "You cant be calm for an entire day. It's just not in your nature."

Zuko smiled, "True. But I can keep trying and hoping."

Tsukiaye frowned sadly, "At the end of the day that's all we have isn't it?"

Zuko bowed his head and sighed, "That and our memories."

Tsukiaye sat down on the cold surface and sighed deeply.

"…what?" Zuko rolled his eyes at her and frowned.

"Nothing."

"When you sigh that means that there is something wrong. What is it?"

"I don't remember." Tsukiaye looked up at him with her mouth slightly open.

Zuko rubbed his eyes, "Then never mind."

Tsukiaye jumped to her feet and grabbed his hand, "NO! I mean, I cant remember! I forgot what happened when we we're kids! I don't remember my childhood."

Zuko looked at her slightly shocked, "That's why."

"…why what?"

"That's why you don't like me." Zuko lowered his head and covered his eyes, "I was right."

Tsukiaye leaned down and looked at Zuko's face, "Right about what?"

Zuko sat up and looked at Tsukiaye, "That's why…" Zuko's eyes suddenly focused on the snowflake that floated down in front of Tsukiaye's face and landed on her nose, "You hate me."

Tsukiaye sighed, "Your mother thinks that it's because of my fathers blast to my head."

Zuko looked up to the sky, "It's snowing."

Tsukiaye stepped closer to Zuko and hugged him, "I'm sorry."

Zuko jumped and looked down at her while she clang to him, "What are you…"

"I don't know… I think that the snow makes me happy. Something about the snow makes me like you."

Zuko calmed down slightly and sighed, "When we were little, we used to stand around when it snowed, because it was so rare to see snow on the fire nation."

Tsukiaye looked up at him but didn't let him go, "Someone was singing."

Zuko smiled, "My mother sang for us when it snowed, she always used to sit outside and paint us. My mother loved you so much. It was her decision for us to get married."

"Were we spoiled?" Tsukiaye asked.

Zuko nodded, "we had every toy that we wanted. A child's dream, and we got it all."

"…I think that I remember some of it." Tsukiaye leaned against him sadly, "I have a music box that my mother gave me. She said that it tells the story of our winters."

"One in specific." Zuko hugged her, "Once when the fire nation was stormed by a group of rebels."

Tsukiaye whispered a tune to herself, "Far away, long ago. Glowing dim as an ember. Things my heart, used to know. Things it longs to remember."

Zuko smiled down at her, "That night you and I were sitting in front of a fire. You had your teddy bear and phoenix, and I had my tiger. We were playing and laughing while my mother was painting the angels that she saw. She was singing to us because she believed that it protected us."

Tsukiaye moved away from Zuko and wrapped the blanket that she had brought out around her and Zuko while they sat and stared at the sun rise. "What happened?"

"A guard came in and told us that the castle was being stormed. My mother grabbed us both and took us into a hidden passage that was behind the fireplace. There was a window that you could see out. I watched at the solders rode way on the horses to go fight the oncoming army."

"They were fighting in the blizzard. The horses looked so pretty." Tsukiaye stared out at the water not even thinking about what she had said.

Zuko put his arm around her and nodded, "You had said that you wanted the horse that was riding through the storm like it was a king."

Tsukiaye smiled, "Yep."

"My mother calmed us by showing us the lines in the blizzard. She told us that the sheets of snow were dancing angels. And then you started to get sick. My mom set me down and she held you. You kept telling her that you we're a firefly. And that your light was going out. She told me that your body was shutting down from the cold. My mom didn't let you go. She held you and made you tell her what happened through the entire day. And you did. Soon enough you were ok. But the castle had been completely stormed. The three of us were all that was left."

Tsukiaye smiled, "and this is the part where you forgot what happened, isn't it?"

Zuko nodded, "Yeah."

Tsukiaye closed her eyes and unbuckled a necklace that she had been wearing. It was in the shape of the fire elemblem and it was rather thick. She opened it and it began to play a tune.

Dancing bears,
Painted wings
Things I almost remember
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Someone holds me safe and warm
Horses prance thorough a silver storm
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory

Far away, long ago
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart used to know,
Things it yearns to remember

And a song someone sings
Once upon a December

Tsukiaye leaned on Zuko while he kept his arm around her and the two drifted off to sleep on the top deck of the ship.

A/N: give me a little more time! I swear that I'll get to the main story soon, I just cant let you start with out knowing these things! ;; this one was short.