Important Note: It turns out FF dot net doesn't allow you to post lyrics in fanfics unless they're yours so I can't post the lyrics to the songs in these chapters.

Chapter 9

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Tyson stirred slowly from his dreamless sleep. He could feel Kai's warm arms wrapped securely around his frame. A small smile spread across Tyson's lips as he buried his face into Kai's chest. He felt at peace with himself for the first time in months, and to think it was all because of Kai. He didn't care what the others thought about him anymore.

The others! Tyson sat up with a jolt, but luckily he hadn't disturbed Kai. The others, what would they do to him? What did they think of him? Were they angry? Did they even care? Maybe Kai had been they only one to come and see him.

The bitter feeling of loneliness and rejection bit at him. He felt so hollow and his heart ached with an indescribable pain. He wanted to scream in frustration and hurt his so-called friends as much as they hurt him, but at the same time he wanted to curl up into a little ball and cry his eyes out.

Glancing down at Kai's sleeping figure Tyson smiled a bittersweet smile. He loved Kai and didn't want to disturb his peaceful sleep with his screaming or tears, which ever came first, so with what little strength he had Tyson pushed himself out of the hospital bed and walked down the hospital corridor.

The place was so white, and seemed so pure it made Tyson want to run away and hide. He was now imperfect and tainted. Had Kai even known these things when he had confessed his love to him? Maybe Tyson had been taking advantage him unknowingly. Now he was even a worse than he originally thought he was. How could he have done that to Kai? What was he thinking by not telling Kai? He didn't deserve someone as perfect as Kai.

Tyson's footing slipped and he fell to the cold ground. He didn't even bother to catch himself. How could he have been so selfish and not say anything to Kai? He deserved more than just falling, he deserved immeasurable pain. His figures twitched for a knife, but being in a hospital he had no access to one.

Not wanting to draw attention to himself Tyson pushed himself up from the ground. A groan of pain could be heard coming from him as he forced himself up from the ground. He clutched his lower abdomen as the pain seeped into his body. He wasn't sure what caused this sudden pain but it hurt and he welcomed it.

He continued to walk down the white halls of the hospital, but just as he was about to round a corner he stopped. Voices came from around the corner and he recognized them instantly.

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"Tyson has to what?" Max asked quietly. He couldn't believe what he just heard Hiro say. It was impossible. Tyson didn't need that kind of help. He was fine just a little depressed. So that meant all they needed to do was make sure Tyson was happy from now on, and that was it. They didn't need to do anything else.

"Tyson has to see a therapist." Hiro repeated sternly. "I know you don't like it but he tried to commit suicide, and because of that it is required of him to take counseling."

Sensing Max's distress Ray wrapped his arms around the blonde in a comforting way and tried to figure out if there was another way. "Are you sure he needs counseling? Maybe he was just really upset. It would be unfair to him if just because he got upset that he had to go through therapy."

"No there isn't any other way," Hiro answered. "The doctors say it is necessary. If he hadn't been trying to commit suicide he wouldn't have to go through it, but he did so now he has to take responsibility for his actions and go to counseling."

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A fake smile spread across Tyson's lips as he listened to the conversation. So now I have to go see some person who tells you why you feel the way you do and tries to tell you what to do because it will make your life better. Ha! Yeah right! Seeing a therapist isn't going to make things better. If anything it will make me go insane. I don't need someone telling how I feel and why I feel that way!

Without so much as a word he stomped off from where his friends and family had been talking. Maybe Kai knew all along and he was just being nice to me. What if he doesn't really love me but was taking pity on me. Tears formed in Tyson's eyes but he would not cry. I should have known it was too good to be true, but like an idiot I believed him. I'm so stupid I just want to… just want to… I just want to die.

Tyson's heart fell. Why hadn't he died? Why was he still here when no one loved him? Was he supposed to continue smiling and pretending to be happy, and act as if nothing were wrong? Was that what he was supposed to do? Live a lie?

For too long he hid to behind an illusion of himself. He never showed his real self and when he finally did they said he was wrong. They acted as if he were a broken doll that needed fixing just because he saw the world differently then they did. What was wrong with that? Why couldn't he be himself?

The pain in his stomach had grown now. It was so painful. It felt like it was tearing him apart like when those guys raped him. Fire seared in him and his breathing became ragged. The pain became too much for him so he tried to lean against the wall, but his legs grew weak and he slid down it into a fetal position. What was happening to him?

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Kai raced down through the hospital searching for Tyson. When he had woken up the blue haired boy was no longer next to him. Worry had consumed Kai, but he did his best to hide it when he asked the doctor if Tyson had been moved anywhere. When he received the answer no he immediately began to panic. Where would Tyson go in a hospital?

His new found love had to be somewhere around here. It wasn't like Tyson could very far with all those injures, but that's what worried Kai the most, the injures. Tyson was reckless and because of that he might not take proper care of his injures, which could lead to something fetal.

A groan caught Kai's attention and without a second thought he ran in the direction of the sound, only to panic more at the sight that lay before him. Tyson laid huddle against the wall in a fetal position. Without any hesitation Kai was at Tyson's side and holding him. "Tyson what's wrong?"

Tyson took deep shuddering breaths but smiled when he heard Kai's voice. It didn't matter if he didn't deserve Kai or if Kai didn't truly love him cause he loved Kai and it made him happy to see him there in his time of need.

He could feel the darkness of his mind calling him as his pain became numb, but he didn't want to pass out just yet. So with the last of his strength Tyson willed himself to look into Kai's eyes. The tears he had been holding back fell when he looked into Kai's eyes. He felt like he was dreaming, for in Kai's eyes shone what Tyson could only place as love.

Maybe it is all a dream. Maybe all of this isn't real and I'll wake up and realize all of my friends and family love me and Kai will still be my rival.

"Tyson?" Kai questioned as he looked at Tyson. The younger boy seemed so weak and helpless. He didn't like seeing this weak side of Tyson. Tyson was supposed to be strong, but now lying there in his arms crying made Kai see him as the most fragile thing in the world. He couldn't stop himself as he leaned in kissed away one of Tyson's tears.

Tyson stiffened. What Kai had done was so similar in his dream it had taken him by surprise. A small warmth settled over Tyson as the darkness consumed his mind. It wasn't all a dream Kai really did love him, but that also meant ever thing else that happened to him was real too. He had hurt himself and had been raped, but… but he still had Kai's affections.

Tyson's body went limp in Kai's arms. "Tyson?" Kai whispered but there was no response. "Tyson?"

"Tyson?"

"Tyson!"

"Tyson!"

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