Open Or Closed

by ladyjedinovember11

November Rose Lee is a complex girl. She runs from a past and wishes for something more than her tortured life. She gets that wish and is trasferred into the world of Star Wars. She discovers that she is not who she thinks she is, but rather much better t

1. Prologue

Open or Closed

Allie Helms

Prologue

Absence is to love what wind is to fire. It extinguishes the small and enkindles the great.

It's a funny thing, fate. Nobody can try to stop it or even be successful at doing so. But fate has its own plans for us. We just never expected them to hurt so much. This is the beginning of the end of my life. I have traveled through it all. So, read the my tale, and cry the tears I did, live the pain I felt, feel the betrayal I witness, and find the love I found in the man they now call Lord Vader.

The day was November 11th of 2004. It was my 20th birthday, and I was moving in with my best friend, Colleen, in her New York apartment, and I was just out of college. I had spent four years in Oxford, and I missed home. Don't get my wrong, I loved England, but I always needed to have that comfort of home. As we shoveled in boxes and furniture my friend informed me of some very bad news, "Brennan's coming over." Silence. "He wants to talk to you."

Brennan and I went way back. For seven years we had this feud going, and it was still going. To make a long story short I used to like him, and he thinks I still do. He is just mad because I told him off, and being the man he is couldn't handle that. Just then he walked in, and I ignored him and kept unpacking. "November. November, I want to talk to you. Please listen to me," he pleaded.

"Oh! Colleen, do you hear something?" I asked cupping my ear. Colleen chuckled a bit, and I kept packing.

"I don't know why I bother!" Brennan yelled and walked out of my bedroom.

I got up and followed him. "Why? Why do you come back here and insist on breaking my heart?" I yelled.

He turned around, "I thought you changed! I thought that while you were away at college you found yourself, but I guess not. I thought we could be friends again!" His blue eyes burning with anger. My dull gray ones were as calm as the ocean.

"What? No, I have no idea who I am, or what I'm supposed to do. Do you know how hard that is, Brennan? You know who you are, and I don't. I'm lost, and I wouldn't be friends with you if you were the last friend on earth!" I yelled. He didn't know. He could never know.

"Yeah, I bet it is pure hell? So what? Get over it already!" he yelled.

That struck my heart. Tears began to fall from my eyes, and I looked at him to make sure he saw them, "You have no idea what I went through. You know nothing of what I speak!"

"Whatever," he shouted.

"Fine!" I shouted back. I began to turn around and he pulled my arm. He embraced me in a kiss, and for a second I welcomed it. Then I pushed and pulled away, "How dare you!" With that I walked away. Then before turning into my room I turned around I looked him in the eyes and said coldly, "I believe you know where the door is. You've seen it enough times."

That was the last time ever that I saw him, and I regretted it so much now. I entered my bedroom, and we spent the rest of the day unpacking, listening to music, and eating ice cream.

That night I made a wish. A wish I do not regret even now. I looked through the skylight in my room to the stars and harvest moon and whispered, "I wish I could leave this place. Be more than I am. I want to be different." With that I closed my eyes not knowing where I would wake up.

A/N: Well there you go I'll try to get the next chapter up by the end of this week. But for now enjoy.