Open or Closed
Allie Helms
Chapter Six
Of Demons and Dreams
It is the unknown we fear when looking upon death and darkness nothing else.
We were sitting down at dinner on the starfreighter when Padme pointed out something about Jedi that I had noticed but did not think of, "It must be difficult having sworn your life to the Jedi. Not being able to visit the places you like, or do the things you like.""Or love the way we want to," I interrupted.
Anakin nodded. "Are you allowed to love? I thought it was forbidden for a Jedi," she asked.
Anakin looked at me, "Attachment is forbidden. Possession is forbidden. Compassion which I would define as unconditional love is central to a Jedi's life, so you might say we're encouraged to love."
"Well," I began but thought not to say anything. "Never mind."
"No tell us please," Anakin begged.
I looked at my bowl of soup that Anakin had thought was too hot a moment ago, "When I had my testing done with the Council they told me five clues as to who the Lost Prophecy was."
"What were they?" asked Padme.
I started to play with my soup, "They will not be from this world, it will be a she, she will fall in love, she will have children, and she will die in about four years time." Just then something hit me. I would die in four years time. I was never really afraid of death, but that was when I knew when I wouldn't be dying until I was like eighty. Now I was scared. I didn't want to die, and if I were to die how would I die? Who would kill me? Was this apart of my dream? I was confused. "If you will excuse me Padme I suggest we go retire." She nodded, and got up. "Anakin, I will see you in our quarters once I get Padme situated," I smiled and went to follow Padme.
Just before Padme went to bed she asked me something, "Will you sing to me again?"
I smiled and I began with I song I thought that would fit the mood.
Love took me by the hand
Love took me by surprise
Love led me to you
And love opened up my eyes
And I was drifting away
Like a drop in the ocean
And now I realize that
Nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes
And everytime I drift away
I lose myself in you
And now I see I can be me
In everything I do
Cause I was feeling as small
And now I realize that
Nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes
Love took me by the hand
Love took me by surprise
And I was drifting away
Like a drop in the ocean
And no I've realized that
Nothing has been as beautiful
As when I saw heaven's skies
In your eyes
In your eyes."
I smiled wished her good night and started to walk towards the door. But then I stopped," Is there anything going on between you and Anakin?'
"As in like courtship?" she asked. I nodded, "No, not at all."
"Oh. Okay," I said. Then I walked out of the room, and went to go see Anakin.
When I walked in Anakin was lying down on the couch asleep, and mumbling. "Mom. No! No!" he shouted. I went over to him, and I sat down. I put my hand on his cheek, and he awoke. There was sweat coming down from his brow, and he was breathing heavily. "You okay?" I asked.
"Yeah. I'm fine. Is Padme asleep?" he asked.
I nodded, "I believe so. Can I ask you a question?"
"You just did, but go ahead," I chuckled remembering when I had said that to him.
"Do you love Padme?" I asked.
He looked at me, "I used to."
"Used to?" I asked. "What happen?"
He looked at me deeply in the eyes, "I found someone better." He smiled. "Okay now it is my time to ask you a question," he said.
I smiled, "Shoot."
"Will you sing to me like you sing to Padme?" he asked.
I nodded and began.
"I know you
I walked with you
Once upon a dream
I know you
The gleam in your eyes
Is so familiar a gleam
Yet I know it's true
That visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you
I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did
Once upon a dream
But if I know you
I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did
Once upon a dream
I know you
I walked with you
Once upon a dream
I know you
The gleam in your eyes
Is so familiar a gleam
And I know its true
That visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you
I know what you'll do
You'll love me at once
The way you did
Once upon a dream."
"That was beautiful," he said.
I smiled, "Thank you. Now I will retire."
"Wait! Tell me of who you killed," he requested.
I turned around then went and sat beside him on the couch as I did before, "I was 19 and I was still in college. I had gotten married to a man, and about two months after we were married he began to beat me up and rape me. So one night when he came home he was drunk, and I was scared. So I ran to the bedroom, and pulled to gun out from under the bed. I shot him and he died instantly. I wasn't charged with anything because it was self-defense. At least that's what the police said. But there was just one thought I had in my mind. I didn't want to die." I started to cry.
"It's alright," he said wrapping his arms around me. I fell asleep in his embrace.
A/N: Hey guys. Sorry so late, but school is starting back up and I'll only be able to write on weekends. So, I hope you enjoy! Songs: Drop In The Ocean By: Michelle Branch Once Upon a Dream By: Disney