Open or Closed
Allie Helms
Chapter Nine
Dealing with the Dead
When you think everything is good the good decides to go.
After dinner Anakin and I went out on the balcony in our room, and sat down in a kind of lawn chair looking thing. I took a seat between his legs and he held me gently but firmly as so I would know I was his. We sat in complete silence, meditating and becoming one in mind and soul. It was peaceful until the visions of him going to the Dark Side came into my mind. Instead of just seeing them I felt them too. The sharp striking pain of loss and a broken heart moved within my scars. The pain then took over my whole body making it numb. I took a huge gasp, and opened my eyes. I couldn't stand it. The pain of seeing him killing all those innocent younglings. The realization of how I would die, and the way I would feel when I did. Anakin open his eyes, and put his hands in mine, "Are you okay Rose?"
"I'm fine don't worry about me," I said turning to look at him, and I smiled. "Do you mind if I walk off and think to myself for a while?"
He shook his head, "Are you having second thoughts?"
"No, I would never," I laughed. "I need to figure something out okay?" He nodded, and I got up off the chair. I went and walked around the lake house a bit. Thinking to myself.
What was I getting myself into? Why was I doing this to myself? It hurt to think he would do that, but I would deal with it, and if my death happened the way I saw then so be it. I then realized that Anakin was going to go over to the Dark Side whether I did anything or not, but I had to try. It was better to try and fail then to fail to try. Well, maybe in this case it was a lose, lose situation. Oh, well. I walked to Padme's room, and opened the door. "Ready for your song tonight?" I asked.
She smiled, "I surely am."
"Okay hear it goes:
Think of me,
Think of me, fondly,
When we've said
Good-bye
Remember me
Once in a while
Please promise me
You'll try
When you find
That once
Again you long
To take your heart back
And be free
If you
Ever find
A moment
Spare a thought
For me
We never said
Our love
Was evergreen
Or as unchanging
As the sea
But if
You can still
Remember
Stop and think
Of me
Think of all the things
We've said and seen
Don't think about the way
Things might have been
Think of me
Think of me waking
Silent and
Resigned
Imagine me
Trying to hard
To put you
From my mind
Recall those days
Look back on
All those times
Think of the things
We'll never do
There will
Never be
A day when
I wont think
Of you
Can it be?
Can it be Christine?
Bravo!
Long ago
It seems so long ago
How young and innocent we were
She may
Not remember
Me, but
I remember
Her
Flowers fade
The fruits of summer fade
They have their season so do we
But please promise me
That sometimes you will
Think of me!
"That was lovely. I can't believe how you belted those notes. What is that called?" Padme asked.
I smiled, "Opera. I took some lessons when I was thirteen. I wanted to be an opera singer, but it never happened. Now good night I suspect we'll have a big day tomorrow." I walked out, and down the hallway. When I entered the room where Anakin and I shared he was leaning against the railing on the balcony.
"I was waiting for you," he said with a devilish smile.
I smiled back, "Oh have you?"
"I have, and I was thinking maybe you could sing me a song," he said walking over to me. He put his arms around me, and looked deep in my eyes, and the turned as blue as a dark night.
I almost drowned. "But I just did," I answered.
He frowned, and held me closer, "Please."
"Okay fine but you have to sit on the bed because this song has a couple of parts okay. It's a love song, and it's a duet," he sat down on the bed and nodded for me to begin. "It's also an Opera so it'll be pretty loud," I said clearing my throat.
"I don't care I just want to hear you sing," he said.
I looked at him with a glare, "Patience is rewarded. Here goes nothing:
No more talk of darkness
Forget these wide eyed fears
I'm hear nothing can harm you
My words will warm and calm you
Let me be your freedom
Let daylight dry your tears
I'm here with you beside you
To guard you and to guide you
Say you love me every waking moment
Turn my head with talk of summertime
Say you need me with you now and always
Promise me that all you say is true
That's all I ask of you
Let me be your shelter
Let me be your light
You're safe no one will find you
Your fears are far behind you
All I want is freedom
A world with no more night
And you always beside me
To hold me and to hide me
And say you'll share with me
One love one lifetime
Let me lead you from your solitude
Say you'll need me with you here beside you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Christine that's all I ask of you
Say you'll share with me on love one lifetime
Say the word and I will follow you
Share each day with me each night each morning
Say you love me
Love me
That's all I ask of you
Anywhere you go let me go too
Love me
That's all I ask of you
I gave you my music
Made your song take wing
And now
How you've repaid me
Denied me and betrayed me
He was born to love you
When he heard you sing
Christine
You will curse the day you did not do
All that the phantom asked of you!"
"That was beautiful. Just sing to me that's all I ask of you," Anakin said in response.
"Well thank you," I said.
He lay in the bed, and motioned for me to join him. I went and lay beside him. "Rose, what did you do for a living in your world?" he asked.
"I was a writer. I wrote stories and poems. I even published a couple books of my poems," I said.
He looked at me, "Can I hear one?"
I nodded. "This one is called Odessy of Purpose:
My mind boils with sorrow
My heart withers with forbidden love
The rose wilts with fate
My destiny is to fly like a dove
Time desires my life
The whip sings with blood
The sand beneath my feet is hot
My hands stained with mud
As the book slips from my hands
I feel weak my fate is gone
I've given away my life's grace
My heart no longer praises with song
Why is an epic so bloody?
Why do we decide to kill?
Love is no longer safe
We don't even prophesize with skill
Deliver me from myself
I cant be saved anymore
The charge brings me to bravery
Someday I will share my lore
Why do we not believe?
Why is there no hope?
Do not weep for those whose time has come
Do not think to mope
Too many times have I sat here crying
Peace will never be rekindled
Why are my people dying?
Its hard to understand the truth
Bless me with the earth
Hold the world together with glue
Settle me with hearth
Help me understand why I am here.
I glanced over at Anakin and he was asleep. I guess my mom was right I did have soothing voice. I went and walked out of the room to where Anakin and I spent our afternoon. I sat on the ground to meditate. I sunk deep into my thoughts and feelings. In my mind I felt pain, and I saw death. I then heard Anakin begin to scream. 'The nightmare,' I thought my eyes widened. I ran back to the room, and Anakin was awake. "What did you see?" I asked
"My mother . . . suffering . . . hurting . . . death," he said between breaths.
A/N: I know two chapters in two days. Anyway the songs: Think of Me by Andrew Lloyd Webber and All I Ask of You by Andrew Lloyd Webber. I was in an opera mood. Anyway poem: The Odessy of Purpose by Me! thank you for the reviews. Hope you like it. By the way free cake for everyone who reviews this time! YAY!