"Let me know when I've done wrong.
When I've known this all along...
I'll keep you, my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, my dirty little secret)
Who has to know?"
AUTHOR'S NOTE: Hello all! I will not say anything about the season two premiere right off the bat, mostly for Jessa's benefit (I know you're reading this!) since she hasn't seen it yet. But if you don't want to know what happens, I suggest you don't read past the point when they get to the hatch.
Enjoy!
THANKS: Special thanks to JJ Abbrams, the creator of LOST. Also, to ABC and Jack and Kate who should really hook up sometime (which is why I'm writing this, since the producers of LOST are too busy making Rousseau take Aaron away to let Jack and Kate get together), and Matthew Fox and Evangeline Lilly, since they are amazingly talented actors.
IN-YOUR-FACE: To Eddie, who laughed at me when someone said "jaded" and I said "That's a Green Day song!", because that was what gave me the idea to write this. Thank you, Billie Joe Armstrong, Trè Cool, and Mike Dirnt, also known as Green Day. Also, a big fat in-your-face to the All-American Rejects, who got stupid "Dirty Little Secret" stuck in my head, causing me to name a chapter after it. HA!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own LOST or anything like it, except for my outrageous Jate fics.
-JADED-
-BY WHENICOMEAROUND-
-CHAPTER ONE-
It was dark out. Trekking from the ship to the hatch, Jack, Kate, Locke, and Hurley were all tired, hungry, and a little freaked out. Between the explosion of a fellow survivor, a close encounter with a very creepy monster that lived in the jungle, and of course Locke thinking it was nothing, they had every right to be freaked out.
Locke and Hurley moved ahead a few yards, leaving Kate and Jack alone. It was dark. It was quiet. Then Kate said,
"There's no way you can be perfect."
Jack turned around and looked at her. "What?"
"You seem so perfect. Everyone comes to you with their problems, and you always help them. No one elected you as leader. You stepped up to plate on your own. I know you have something I don't know. You can't possibly be perfect." she smiled at him.
Jack chuckled a bit. "That's true."
"So," said Kate, falling into step beside him. "what's your secret?"
Jack looked at her. "I'll tell you mine, if you tell me yours."
Kate said, "You know my secret."
"No, I know part of it." he said. She looked into his eyes and sighed. "And I know you've got more."
"Yes, but I'm already one ahead of you. Tell me your secret," she said eagerly.
Jack sighed. "I used to be married."
"So have I," said Kate triumphantly. "What was her name?"
Jack smiled at Kate's eagerness to know about his past. It was sweet. "Sara."
"Was she blond?"
Jack stopped and turned around to look at her, causing her to nearly bump into him. "How did you know?"
Kate shrugged. She was good like that.
Jack smiled and kept walking.
"Well, what happened?" asked Kate. "Why aren't you married anymore?"
Jack sighed. "It's complicated."
"You're telling me about complicated." said Kate. Jack chuckled again.
"I didn't love her," he confessed.
Kate nodded. "Oh." she said, and didn't press on.
"So," Jack said a few paces on. "tell me about your ex."
Kate didn't speak at first.
"Hey, I told you." Jack said. Kate broke into a smile. "So what happened?"
"Things just didn't work out." Kate replied mildly.
"How so?"
"He was..." Kate struggled at first. She'd never actually told anyone this, but she put her trust in Jack. "abusive."
"Oh," said Jack, turning his head to catch her eye. "I'm sorry."
"Why?"
"I don't know." Jack confessed. "I just am. Because no one deserves that, especially," Jack hesitated. "especially you."
Kate smiled.
They walked on in silence for a few more minutes, then Jack said, "I'm a Cancer."
"I'm an Aquarius," said Kate, knowing that the two were compatible without even thinking about it.
"My older brother used to call me Jackass." said Jack.
"So does Sawyer. That isn't a secret." said Kate. They both laughed.
Jack looked really nice when he was laughing, Kate noticed.
Jack was enjoying this game. "I hate writing in pencil."
"I'm allergic to peaches." Kate said in a "beat that!" type of tone.
Jack smiled. "One time I found ten dollars in melting snow." Jack said.
Kate had so many things to say, she just kept letting them flood out of her mouth. "When I was a kid I used to watch 'The Magic Garden' every day after school."
"When I was a kid I wanted to be a fireman." said Jack. Kate smiled at him.
Kate stepped over a branch on the ground and said, "At my last job, I hated my boss."
"Who doesn't?" said Jack. "I'm addicted to chewing gum."
"My favorite food is peanut butter." said Kate. "and chocolate chips."
"Chocolate chips," Jack agreed. "They're always good. I haven't voted since I turned twenty."
"I've never voted," said Kate. She smiled.
Soon enough, both of them couldn't get enough of it. They were practically shouting random phrases at each other. They kept getting crazier and crazier.
"I love taking pictures!" Jack said.
"I only lasted a year in college!" said Kate.
"I'm afraid of Mickey Mouse!"
"I can't stand the smell of magic markers!"
"MY FIRST GIRLFRIEND CHEATED ON ME!" Jack cried. "WHEN I WAS THIRTEEN!"
"I CRIED AT 'FINDING NEMO'!" Kate shouted.
They both settled down and Kate had the last say.
"I went to band camp when I was fifteen." she said. "I played the trumpet."
They looked at each other and burst out laughing.
"That's a lie," said Jack.
"It is," Kate admitted. "I played the flute."
They both laughed again.
"I'm hiding a secret from the world," Jack told her a few moments after they had stopped laughing and resumed walking.
"So am I," said Kate. "Except for you."
Jack looked at her. "Me?"
"That thing, about my ex-husband? No one else in the world knows."
Somehow, knowing that he knew Kate's deepest secret made Jack feel very good.
Jack exhaled deeply.
"Tell me your secret." Kate said.
Jack smiled. "Not right now."
"If not now, then when?"
"Soon enough." said Jack. "Soon enough."