Chapter 10 – Awkward Moments

I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

Your eyes were covered in sunglasses
When they first met mine
I sat there and stared at you
You didn't seem to mind
The awkward ways we meet

First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will happen next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

I never cared how I dressed before
But I cared that night
Anticipation ran through my bones
And my clothes never fit right
I can't wait til we meet again

First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will happen next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

Framed pictures start to be put on the walls
Constant visits while I'm out on the road
It's hard to leave sometimes
But you know where I lay my head at night

First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will happen next
I don't wanna know

I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

First comes heavy breathing
Staring at the ceiling
What will happen next
I don't wanna know
I don't wanna know

I don't wanna know

Marty and Ryan were finally going out. Marty told Kyra and Hermione just before they went to sleep that night. Marty couldn't believe it. She was finally moving on after making the hardest decision of breaking it off with Draco, she didn't think that getting into another relationship was likely. The next day Marty slept in 3 extra hours, skipping breakfast and waking up to lunch instead. She headed down to the common room, where Harry, Kyra, Ron, and Hermione were talking on the couch.

"Finally you're up." Said Kyra.

"Yeah I had a good sleep." Marty sat next to Hermione.

"So I hear you're going out with Ryan." Harry blurted out. Marty eyed Kyra.

"Hey we just had to tell them." Kyra smirked.

"Does Malfoy know?" Ron wondered.

"I don't know if Ryan told him." Marty shrugged.

"How do you think Malfoy's going to feel about that?" Hermione wondered. "To be honest that wasn't a good breakup for him."

"Well…" Marty sighed. "He's just going to have to deal with it I guess."

They all went down to the not-so-filled Great Hall to have some lunch. It was a Sunday so not many students were in the Great Hall. When they sat at their usual place at the Gryffindor table, Marty saw Ryan talking to Draco, Crabbe, and Goyle at the Slytherin table. Ryan glanced at Marty smiling and she returned it with a smile as well.

"Time is going by so fast." Said Hermione as she began eating her bacon and eggs.

"Tell me about it." Ron nodded. "Before you know it we'll be out of Hogwarts."

"I know." Said Harry. "If only it could just go a little slower."

Marty thought about her years in Hogwarts. She remembered how at first she didn't really know anybody, then Kyra moved to Hogwarts, eventually she would be dating the known-to-be malicious Malfoy, and before she knew it she's in her 7th year in Hogwarts. Time had finally caught up. After they had their lunch, they all walked out into the courtyard where Marty met up with Ryan.

"I'll see you guys later." Said Marty.

"Yeah we know." Kyra joked.

"Hey." Ryan smiled at Marty.

"Hey." She smiled back. He gave her a soft kiss on the cheek. "So, how are you?"

"Good." They started walking around the courtyard. "You?"

"Pretty good." Marty nodded.

"So did you tell your friends?" Ryan asked.

"Um yeah." Said Marty. "Is that okay? I felt like I just had to."

"Oh of course." Ryan assured her. "Don't worry about it."

"Did you?" She wondered.

Ryan exhaled sharply. "Actually I didn't. Yet."

"Yet?" Marty asked. "Are you waiting for something? Just curious you know…"

"I don't know. I'll tell them eventually." Said Ryan as they walked out of the courtyard and into the outer area of Hogwarts. Slowly, Ryan's hand reached Marty's and held it gently. Marty smiled. "You have soft hands."

"Oh." Said Marty. "Thanks."

"Is there something bothering you?" Ryan asked.

"Oh no nothing." Said Marty. Suddenly they heard voices as they walked. Marty let go of Ryan's hand and went on ahead to find Draco standing looking beyond the cliff as Stacey Ando sat on the grass.

"Marty?" Draco looked back after hearing footsteps.

"Oh um, hey." Marty gave a little smile.

"Oh Draco, didn't know you were here." Ryan followed.

"Hey Ryan!" Stacey stood up. "What's your name again?"

"Marty." She said plainly.

"Nice to meet you I'm Stacey." She grinned and shook Marty's hand.

"Yeah, pleasure." Said Marty.

"Oh I'm sorry, I hope you don't mind but Ryan can I talk to you for a second?" Stacey pulled Ryan away near the wall of the castle and began whispering. Draco walked up to Marty.

"So how've you been?" Draco asked.

"Um, pretty good. You?" She wondered.

"Fairly good." Said Draco. "So…are you two…" He pointed at her and then Ryan.

"Oh." Marty realized what he had said. "No, we're just walking around."

"Is that so?" said Draco. "Well I hope everything's going well for you."

"Thanks you too." Marty stood silent. "Well um, I guess I'll see you around."

"Bye." Said Draco. Stacey was finished talking to Ryan and Marty continued walking on with him.

"What was that all about?" Marty asked.

"Stacey has a little crush on Draco." Said Ryan.

"Really." Marty said plainly. "I mean, is that so?"

"Yeah. What about you? What were you and Draco talking about?" He asked.

"Oh he was just wondering how I was doing. That was basically it." Said Marty.

"Okay." Said Ryan. "You want to just stay here for a little while?" He pointed at a spot near some rocks to sit on by the lake.

"Sure." Marty sat down on the boulder. She rolled up her sleeves revealing the charm bracelet that Draco gave her last year. It became such a habit that she just wore it everyday without even noticing it.

"That's a nice bracelet. You like dragons?" Ryan asked.

"Yeah." Marty had realized she was wearing that particular bracelet. "Dragons are just so strong and they're amazing creatures."

"Um listen, I wanted to talk to you about something." Said Ryan.

"What's wrong?" Marty asked.

"I know it's going to be weird the first week or so, but I just wanted to let you know that I want to give this a chance." Said Ryan as he looked into her gray eyes. "I know you came out of a somewhat serious relationship and I don't know if you compare me or whatever, I just want to make you happy no matter what."

"Ryan, I want to give this a chance too. And don't think I'll be comparing you to my past. This is the present. I'm done with the past. I don't want to look back anymore." Said Marty. Ryan held her hand and kissed it.

After a week, Marty was still slowly getting used to Ryan. She tried to make it a habit of meeting up with him everyday after school and going for a walk. Though it has been a week, Ryan still didn't tell his friends, specifically Draco, about Marty. Eventually two weeks had passed and Ryan still kept it a secret among the Slytherins. It was as if he didn't want anyone to know. Marty eventually worked up the guts to confront him about it. She sat on the same boulder waiting for Ryan.

"Marty?" Ryan finally arrived. "What's wrong?"

"Ryan…" Marty began. "I know it's been only two weeks but, how long are you going to act like we're together in secret? I mean you can't keep kidding yourself."

"Believe me Marty I want to tell them it's just…I just can't." Ryan looked at the ground. Marty stood up from the boulder.

"Ryan if you're not going to be open how am I supposed to know if this is gonna work? You've gotta be real about this. I'm giving this a chance but it's like you're not letting anything happen." Marty sighed.

Ryan stood up. "I don't want to lie to you Marty but honestly, I don't want to say anything because I don't want to look like I'm turning my back on a friend. Seriously, and I hate to bring it up, but I know that Draco made you happy. I know he loved you so much, and to think that he did all that for you, makes me think that I can't be as good as him."

Marty was frustrated. She didn't like the fact that he had to bring Draco into the subject. "Ryan you took a risk and so did I! You asked me out knowing your friend was my ex-boyfriend. I said yes knowing that there will be awkward moments. But it's like your scared of everything. Show me you're not scared and you're worth staying with. I'm trying to give this a chance, but I can't do it alone."

Ryan looked at the ground again. Marty shook her head and began walking away. "Marty wait!" He stopped her and looked into her eyes. He leaned in closer and their lips met. Marty felt his lips on hers and eventually felt his tongue teasing hers. He held her at her waist as she stroked the back of his neck as they kissed.

"Hey Ry-" Walking past the corner, Draco suddenly froze at the sight of Marty and Ryan kissing.