Same Mistake Twice

Disclaimer- Not mine. All Mark Schwahn's.

AN- Thank yall SO much for all the reviews. I'm sorry that I haven't updated, but my internet was broken then I was at camp for a month. I apologize for all the wait. I hope yall like it!

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Brooke sat on the couch with her feet propped up on the glass coffee table, waiting for Lucas to finish up in the shower. Her thoughts began to wander. She saw her and Lucas' perfect little family. She noticed that the more she thought of Lucas being the father of her baby, then happier she got, and the more she wanted to tell him that she was in love with him, but she was not sure if either one of them was ready for that. They had barely even talked about their relationship and how it would change now that Lucas was going to help her raise the baby. 'Would it be more believable if we looked like we were together? Or should we just stay like we are and blame it on a drunken one night stand?' Brooke asked herself. She knew that she much preferred the former as opposed to the latter, but knew that would make things extremely complicated.

She was taken away from her thoughts as Lucas walked into the living room. She looked up at him and could not help but smile. He was in a simple pair of jeans, holding a navy blue T-shirt that he proceeded to put on. Brooke admired his body as he did so. She missed it, everything about it. The way she felt when she was in his arms, the way she would lay on his chest after they made love, everything, even being able to look at his chest and stomach without getting red from embarrassment. Brooke looked down with embarrassment and Lucas sat down next to her on the couch. He looked at her apologetically.

"Oh… uhh… sorry. I just wanted to come check on you and…." He began.

"Oh God… Luke. Don't worry. It's no biggie. Plus it's not like I've never seen that before. I mean I know that we were dating, but it's not that big of a deal…" Brooke rambled.

Lucas simply laughed. He loved how he could still make her ramble sometimes. He knew that most of the time Brooke was poised and knew how to handle most situations, most of the time with a kick-ass comeback, but there were some situations where she would get nervous and ramble on for hours. Brooke looked up at him wide-eyed.

"Are you making fun of me, Scott?" She asked in a convincingly angry voice.

Lucas quieted down and cleared his throat, to stifle a laugh, thinking that she was serious. "Oh… uhh…. Of course not, Brooke."

This time it was Brooke's turn to laugh. Lucas calmed down and looked at her. They were silent for a moment, before both burst out laughing.

They finally got serious and Brooke brought up the subject that had been consuming her thoughts since Lucas first told her about his "brilliant" plan.

"So… Lucas, how's this whole thing going to work?" She asked. He looked at her weirdly; she was quick to explain herself. "I mean I get the whole, "the baby came early" crap, but how do we explain us?" She asked that last part quietly.

Lucas sighed; he had known that this subject would eventually come up. He thought out his words carefully before responding. "Brooke… I…. I kind of think that…. Uhh… maybe it would be a good idea if we… we pretending that we were…. Well you know…uhh…" Lucas couldn't seem to get the last part out, but Brooke knew what he meant.

"Pretending we were together?" Brooke finished in a quiet voice.

"Uhh… yeah, that." He replied nervously.

Brooke couldn't help but laugh. "Broody, Broody, Broody…." Brooke started jokingly, but she stopped when she looked at the serious look on Lucas' face. "Luke, calm down. It's fine." She scooted closer to him so that she could touch his shoulder. "I'm fine with it, as long as you are."

Lucas sighed. " I am, it's just that, well, I mean we used to and I didn't know if it would be awkward for you."

Brooke scooted away. "Ah… right, that." Brooke looked into Lucas' blue eyes and he could see that they were cold and filled with pain from the reopened wound of their relationship. "No bigger, I mean you forgot about it longer enough to cheat on me with Peyton, why can't we just forget about it completely?" Brooke meant for this to sound like a joke, but she knew the moment that she looked into Lucas' eyes and saw them clouding up with confusion and sadness that she has taken it a bit too far.

She tried to scoot closer to him, but he pushed her away and got up. Brooke could see that she definitely push the wrong buttons. He started to pace and Brooke could see that he was holding back tears. She had never seen him like this. She had never realized how much the ending of their relationship had hurt him as well. She had always assumed that he was just pissed that he wasn't getting laid anymore.

Brooke got up and tried to get Lucas to look her in the eye, but he looked everywhere but there. "Luke, calm down. I was just kidding." She tried to make it sound casual.

Lucas' jaw tightened and Brooke could tell that he was truly upset by her words. "It wasn't funny." He mumbled. He sat back down on the couch and put his head in his hands. Brooke looked down in disbelief and sat down next to him. She tried to put an arm around his shoulder, but he shrugged it off.

"So, I guess we're gonna do this now." Lucas said, breaking the silence that seemed to last forever, but in reality, lasted only minutes.

"Luke, we don't have to do this at all. I didn't mean to upset you."

"Yes. You did. You know that you wanted to see if I actually had a heart, and I get it. I hurt you, I know that. Damnit. I know it Brooke. Every single fucking day I get reminded. Every time I look at you and you can't even look me in the eye. Every time I see you in the hall, at your locker and I can't run up to you and have you in my arms. Every time I want to tell you something great that happened, but then I remember that you don't give a shit about me, so why should I even bother?" By this time, there were tears of anger and sadness running down Lucas' face. He tried hastily to rub them away, but they continued to fall. "DAMNIT!" Lucas yelled. "GOD DAMNIT! Don't you get it? I was so in love with you. It killed me when you told me that you hated me, but it wasn't like I could blame you. I hated myself. I still do. I wish I had never even met Peyton. All she ever did was bring me pain. When I was with you, I was happy, god, for once, I wasn't Dan Scott's bastard son, or Nathan's hated son of a bitch brother. God, when I was around you I was happy, just hearing your voice made me happy. Don't you get how much it killed me that I hurt you that badly?" Lucas was bawling like a baby and yelling at the same time.

Lucas was so physically and emotionally exhausted; he leaned back into the couch, closed his eyes and sighed.

After about a moment, Lucas felt small hands on his face, wiping away his tears. He heard Brooke sniffle a little. Her hands remained on his face after all of his tears were gone, lining his features with her index fingers.

But you just smile and take my hand

You've been there you understand

It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream lead me to where you are

Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars

Pointing me on my way into your loving arms

This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road

That led me straight to you

Lucas' eyes remained closed as he leaned into Brooke's warm touch. His eyes slowly flickered open to look at the hazel-eyed brunette in front of him. Her eyes were filled with concern, confusion and sadness. They sat there for a moment staring deeply into each other's eyes. Lucas slowly raised his hands to her face and wiped the tears from her cheeks, then wrapped his arms around her and pulled her towards him. Brooke pushed her head into the crook of his neck and settled there. She could feel his neck moving, as though he was speaking, but she could hear no words. She listened carefully and heard him saying, "I'm sorry, Brooke, I love you more than you will ever know." Obviously Lucas didn't know that she has heard him, but she decided to leave the topic alone, and just snuggle closer to him. They remained like that for hours.

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Sorry kids. This was kind of random, angst/ fluff chapter. I kind of lost my thoughts about this story, so I had to make up some stuff, sorry if the chapter wasn't great. I'm thinking about another B/L story that I may write soon. If you have an questions, or ideas PLEASE PLEASE tell me in a review. I honestly don't know where this is going. I might end it soon, because I feel that it is dragging on a little, but if you have any good ideas, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME!

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