His Love; the Game – Quidditch
II. Ignorance
The absurdity of the idea struck me as insane. What ever can be so fascinating about a broomstick? Sure it's no normal broomstick but I really don't see how everyone seems so ensnared and excited about our first flying lesson.
"Lily! It's flying lessons, our first flying lesson! Do you know how cool that is?" my friend Anya, practically screamed into my ears as I express my lack of concern for a simple lesson on broomsticks.
Anya comes from a long line of wizards and witches, which means she's a pureblood. She virtually fills me in with all the stuff a witch should know. In fact she's one of the two best friends I have here at Hogwarts. She's the one that makes me feel good about myself, backing me up whenever I need moral support.
"I still don't see why everyone is so thrilled though?" I replied honestly. I guess being a muggleborn means I'm clueless to the trends and hits in the wizard world.
"Man I can't wait! Oh and Quidditch!" Anya continued to ramble on ignoring my lack of interest.
I was just eyeing the pillow to my right with great interest, wondering if I were to throw that right at her face will it shut her up but alas the opportunity slipped away just as it slips into mind, because my dear friend Anya was rescued by my other best friend June. Like always she's spotted with some sort of snack in one hand and a book in the other.
"What's this about Quidditch I hear? You do know that first years aren't allowed to try out for the team right?" June explained as she placed her book back into the gap in her bookcase. That it so June! When she comes back into the dorm, she'll put her books away but when she goes back out she'll randomly grab a book. Most of which are muggle books. You see, June is a half blood; her father is a wizard and her mother a muggle.
"I know and that sucks!" Anya pouted. You could see she's really worked up by it all. Anya is extremely energetic and hyper active yet there is grace and elegance to it, just like the sound of her name. When I first met her on the train to Hogwarts I thought I was in the presence of a Russian princess cause she sure the hell portrays herself as one. I was intimidated by her confidence and spirit.
Anya's the exotic beauty of our little trio; I've always been a little envious of her Russian blood. I bet it's what makes her skin seems to glow and her accent so rich. While June's the porcelain doll of our group. Her father's Chinese and her mother's Japanese and you could actually tell by just looking at her because for an Asian she's got quite striking features. Then there is me… redhead, green eyes with fair skin of the group. We're quite a sight considering the huge contrast between us but that's just what makes us unique.
"Alright Lillian what are you grinning about?" June asked as she raised an elegant brow at me while still biting off her snack. How this girl can eat and eat and not get fat is beyond me.
"Stop calling me Lillian! What sort of nickname is that anyway, it's longer than my actual name?" I'm serious June is all great and all, I mean she's the type of friend who tells you whether you look ridiculous in an outfit or points out that your crush is within miles ahead of you and that if you wish not to make a fool of yourself than you'll stop staring at him – openly. Yup she's the honest, straight to the point type of friend. While Anya's the type of friend who'll comfort you and be by your side to cheer you up, June's the type that'll seek out the reason why you're upset and give that person a lesson they'll never forget. I've got the best friends a girl can get, they balance each other out and that stabilises our friendship. However, June's got a nasty habit of giving people nicknames in which are actually longer than their actual name, hence the nickname – Lillian. It's not all that bad I guess, even Anya's got one and by the sound of her name you'll think she's really a princess – Anastasia. See? What did I tell you! I betcha, that somewhere along the line of Anya's family tree she's got royal blood. I guess it isn't all that bad, being given a nickname that is longer than your actual name but the thing is neither Anya nor I can come up with a good long nickname for June. Seriously how the hell, are you to nickname that?
"Come on Lillian, you better get your arse off your bed and out the door, Anya wants to get there early." June spoke as she grabbed a random book off her shelve. See? What did I tell you? Reluctantly I dragged myself off my comfortable bed and follow her out. You've got to understand this, since June was the one who gave me the long nickname, she's the only one who could called me that and live. I would not; absolutely won't, allow anyone to call me that and live, not even Anya can pull it off
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Okay I'll admit that flying wasn't so bad and yes I can see Anya giving me that smudge look on her face as she saw the joy that must be clearly written on my face. No way am I going to succumb myself to her 'I told you so' chants. No sireee, not happening at all.
"Lillllyyyyyyyy" she sang out and she flew closer. Hmmm I wonder if I turn over to my left and pretend I didn't hear her then maybe I could avoi- "Isn't flying just great?" Dammit! There's just no escaping her is there, I guess I'm just going to have to resign and accept my fate.
I gave her my famous death glare before replying in a monotone, "Yeah, it's great." She's still giving me her smudge looks, I just know I'm in for it, any minute now, just any minute now and she'll start her-
"I told you so!" Urgh! She did it! I knew she'll say it!
"Come off it Anastasia, why don't you go and bug Black? Didn't you say you wanted revenge?" Oh thank Merlin for June! She's an angel, a saint, a goddess in disguise; she's just rescued me from long hours of Anya's chants.
"Black?" You could practically see the wheels turning in Anya's head as she looked around her for her target. Upon laying her eyes on her target, "You know what June I think you're right, somebody needs to learn their lessons that it's not funny to parade a girl's whole wardrobe out for everyone to see." Oh no, you could see Anya's eyes go red and sparks flying off of her, yup it's safe to say I am so glad I'm not on her revenge list. Anya's a natural calm person who knows not to let her temper get the best of here but everyone got to let of a little steam once in a while right? Well that's where her revenge list comes in place and I really do pity them, and shall say a little small prayer for those who ever get landed on that list… they tend to always end up missing a part of their body… if they are lucky enough to escape that is.
Do you want to know why Anya wants revenge on Black? And where does a wardrobe comes in? Well you see, Anya has somehow, unluckily, though I'm not sure if it's the other way around now but oh well, as I was saying, Anya has somehow landed on Black and his friends prank list… okay, they sort of parade her closet down at the common room. It's not really that bad… have they not also left her undergarments for display too. Yup, Anya was thoroughly embarrassed and the whole Gryffindor boys now have a slight idea of what type of undergarments Anya wears.
Turning my attention back to my saviour, considering Anya has just gone off to Black's direction, attempting to kill him up in the sky, which for everyone's sake I hope she succeed. I shake my head in disbelief as I notice my so called saviour reading a book in one hand while controlling her broomstick with the other. Talk about multi-talented!
Just as I was about to rephrase all that I was thinking about her being an angel, a sain- "No Lillian, I'm not an angel send by Merlin to save you. I'm not a saint either and you know that or we can ask the last boy who had teased you about your red hair. Lastly I'm not a goddess in disguise, because if I was I would not be actually here learning all these crap!" Talk about mind reading. I swear I'll never get used to this or how she does it! And I don't care what she says; I'm sticking to my theories!
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Okay so I did sort of had fun with the flying lessons, but I will never admit it to Anya. That's really the last thing I need, have her hoovering around me with her 'I told you so' beside we'll only draw unwanted attention from our fellow class and house mates. I was having a pretty good day I must say, and the feeling of flying ain't too bad, everything was going fine until while we were descending a Slytherins by the name of Severus decided to let me know what I was to their lot. "A filthy mudblood like you should go home, you don't belong here."
I swear it wasn't the word 'mudblood' that's hurting me… it's not! I mean it doesn't take a genius to understand what a mudblood means… I mean he practically spelled it out didn't he, a 'filth' that just doesn't belong, one who wasn't 'pure-blooded' and you know what? I think he might just be right! I know nothing of this world in which I just entered, I practically don't fit in at all, yet here I am descended from the sky with tears in my eyes. Oh Merlin. I better stop crying or else June and Anya will be worried. Why is it that I can't stop crying?
"Lillian?" Oh no, June is heading towards me, I should run, that way she wont know I'm crying… but why is it that my legs wont move… why is it betraying me, I can't let June find out what has just happened, she'll murder him! "Why the hell are you turning away from me Lillian? What is wrong?" She virtually demanded me. I swear I didn't mean to go weak, I didn't mean to get her on a wild rampage, but I couldn't help myself as I turned around to face her, tears staining my face. "Oh Merlin! All right, which little RUNT is it this time? I swear I'll make sure he'll never reproduce ever again!" June yelled out, by now I'm pretty sure we got both the Gryffindors and Slytherins focusing on us.
I should of know that if June's temper goes off and she's yelling out what she's going to do to whoever was unlucky to hurt her friend then Anya would be showing up not a second too long. "Lily? Oh girl what's wrong?" She embraces me as she spoke in that soothing tone of hers.
"Someone has the guts to make my friend cry and I'm not going to calm down until I do something about it." June was practically glaring at everyone on the field. Just great, we sort of created a fiasco while both house stood rooted, not daring to move in case they trigger June's temper.
"Lily please tell me what's wrong, I promise we'll make things right." Anya spoke, trying to coax me into telling her what happened. "And stop glaring at everyone June." Anya told June sternly yet June refuses to budge. The next thing I know I notice this tired tired looking boy coming our way, hmm I frankly remembering his last name was Lupin, a friend of Blacks. "Look, if you want the counter spell for your friend than that's going to have to wait! It is his punishme-" Anya spoke tiredly as she turns away from Lupin.
"Actually no, I'm not here for the counter spell." This line definitely caught Anya's attention.
"Well unless it's rather important I suggest you leave us alone!" June was stressing out the last word. You could tell she was rather annoyed since she's normally nice or at least makes an attempt to be nice to everyone.
"Actually it is." Amazing, Lupin isn't at least a bit fazed about being told off. "Do you mind if I talked to you?" He asked and I could clearly see the shocked look on June's face before it quickly turns into a cautious look.
"What is it?"
Yes. I am quite aware that this is all happening in front of both houses and that I am being mothered by Anya and people are giving me weird looks. I guess it's only fair, after all here is a girl with a tear stained face, which refuse to explain why she is crying. While one of her friends is sending out death threats and the other is trying to coax her into telling her what's wrong. I told you, we were a unique bunch! I may not be able to hear what Lupin is whispering in June's ear but I can tell it ain't something nice because June is literally going red and I think I can see steam coming out of her ears. Oh no, that's not a good sign…
"He said WHAT!" June screamed out and I am literally feeling sorry for Lupin since he is within whispering distance to her and she has just yelled out instead. Funny Lupin doesn't seem to mind, "Oh that's it! He can say goodbye to his manhood forever!" At her last statement I think I can see practically all the guys wince. Turning over to us she spoke a little softer than her yell. "Anya, take Lily back to the dorms, I'll be right back as soon as I deal with the information I've just received from Lupin."
Anya looks doubtful but nodded her head anyway and led me away from the field. I wonder… did Lupin hear Severus talk to me? But he can't of… he wasn't that close to us and Severus had whispered them.
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Funny how with just a few words it has reduce me to tears and doubts. I should of known at the very moment that these tears will only fed them satisfaction, as Anya and I walked back to our common room I knew at the very moment that as much as I wanted to I didn't belong in this world… at least not fully. I should have known that nothing was perfect that there will always be someone or some people that would not like my existence here. I didn't think that the prejudice existed so strongly here at Hogwarts, I had thought that… maybe perhaps here I would belong but now I've woken up. I've been ignorant of the discrimination that exist, the hatred some purebloods have on us muggleborn… and this is the beginning of my withdrawal, where after standing right under the spot light, this muggleborn withdraws and becomes a wallflower, trying to find a place in which she belongs.
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Y.D: I thought it'll be a good idea for everyone to see how and why Lily begins to withdraw and confused about where she belongs. Also a quick info on her friends too. Review and let me know what you think pretty please!