Summary: AU What if Dumbledore never became headmaster? Remus wouldn't have been able to go to Hogwarts. When Sirius becomes a healer they meet at the ministry. RLSB SLASH
Will become an M soon.
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NOT BETAD! She's been very busy these last few weeks, but I didn't want to keep you guys any longer. This will be replaced with the betad version asap.
CHAPTER FIVE
It had been a mistake of course. He hadn't been thinking straight. He really shouldn't have kissed Remus. Remus had looked at Sirius with wide open eyes, scared, shocked even. He still didn't quite understand where the frail boy had found the energy to run so fast. He'd been stupid, yes, very stupid not to follow. Maybe Remus had had to wait for the next bus, he could've catched up easily, but he hadn't. Instead he had cleaned out the cells.
He brought his hand up to his lips, he should've made sure Remus was alright, he did feel guilty but not as much as he was confused. He didn't quite understand what had happened. He'd talk to Remus at the next full moon, explain it had been a mistake and ask to remain friends or something. Or maybe it wasn't a good idea, maybe he should pretend nothing had ever happened.
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'Hey mate.' Sirius called out. 'How've you been?'
James didn't look too happy, earlier this week Dumbledore had given both him and Lily house arrest. He had decided it was too dangerous for them not to go into hiding. James could only respond to auror calls, no more Order business. As a result, he felt awful. Normally he wouldn't mind being locked up with Lily and Harry, but now there was a war going on. And he wanted to help fight it.
'Bored.' James said plainly. 'I had a fight with Lily yesterday, and now she won't let me enter the kitchen, and she's got Harry in there.' He sulked.
'Ah, she'll come around.' Sirius said cheerful.
'I doubt it, she hates being here as much as I do.' James sighed and said louder, 'And it's only worse when she's angry with me.'
Sirius couldn't help but grinning, domestic fights at the Potters were nothing like they used to be at home. He knew they'd figure it out soon enough, he didn't know two people who were more right for each other.
'Have you seen Peter lately?' He asked.
'Yeah, he's going to be the secret keeper, we're doing the fidelius charm in a few weeks, as soon as Peter can finish his business to go into hiding himself.' James looked sad, 'I hate to put him in any danger, but he keeps on saying it's no problem.'
Sirius put his hand on James' shoulder. 'Hey, it'll be fine. No one will suspect Peter, and by the time you come out of hiding, Voldemort will be as death as he can be.'
'It doesn't seem fair, I'm hiding here while all my friends are fighting.' James' shoulders slumped. 'I don't know Sirius, if something happens to Peter-.'
'Nothing will happen, I'll look out for him, you know I will.' Sirius didn't like to see James down like this, but he had some troubles of his own. 'Say James, have you ever-. I mean Lily, did you how she was the right one immediately? Of course you did, that was a silly question. I just-.'
Now this did cheer up James. 'What are you saying Sirius? You've gone and fallen in love?' He teased.
'Well, you see, I- I don't know.' Sirius let himself fall down on the couch next to James. 'I haven't the foggiest.'
'Well, do I know the lucky lass?' James asked. Now, Sirius had never been one for stalling.
'It's not a lass, James, it's a bloke.'
James' smile fell and there was a long silence, Sirius could hear Lily moving around in the kitchen.
'I don't know what to do. I can't stop thinking about him, and I kissed him, I kissed a bloke James.' James' silence was starting to frighten Sirius. He hadn't thought his friend would approve, but he had counted on advice, or something.
'Sirius, I don't know what to say.' James finally looked up at him. 'You'll get over it, it'll pass. You'll find yourself a girl, weren't you dating one the other day?'
'Oh for god's sakes, James.' Lily came barging into the living room, hands full with Harry and her wand to levitate the tea tray. 'Sirius, if you think you're in love, you should talk to him, you can't just ignore it. My uncle Harold lives together with a man, and they are both very happy.'
Sirius looked dumbfounded and tried to make eye contact with James, but he only looked at the floor. Lily handed out the tea and sat down with Harry on her lap.
'Sirius you shouldn't be afraid of this.' She said. 'It's never wrong to be in love, and I'm sure he's a wonderful person. Tell us something about him. Where did you meet? Does he feel the same?'
'I don't know.' Sirius murmured, and suddenly the idea of not being with Remus scared him. He didn't get much time to ponder it, because next thing he knew an owl flew in requesting help.
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When Sirius arrived at the site, he saw there wasn't much they could do. Where the cottage must have been was a sea of fire, a dark mark hanging peacefully above it.
There were also two bodybags on the ground.
'Who are they?' Sirius asked, coughing, the smell made him sick. 'They're not members of the Order, are they?' Many wizards were working on subduing the fire, James being one of them.
'No, must be Rey and Luna Lupin.' An auror answered. 'They are unrecognisable, but they lived here. We have no idea why You-Know-Who wanted to kill them.' He looked at the paper in his hand. 'They have a son, a Remus Lupin, lives in London, maybe he knows more.'
'A werewolf. They've been lining up to join Him from the start.' Sirius heard a woman say. 'His parents were the guardians, it'll know what's going on, no doubt. They're getting it.'
Sirius felt nauseous. Remus couldn't have anything to do with this, the boy didn't control his magic, he had no appeal to Voldemort. He saw James walking toward him and talking, but he couldn't make an effort to listen. He was confused. James was grabbing his arm now but when he heard the pop of double Apparation he wrenched himself loose.
'What do you have to do with this?' An auror shoved a magically handcuffed - wide eyed and still in pyjamas - Remus against a tree.
'That's my job!' Sirius shouted, he walked over to Remus quickly. 'Sirius Black, werewolf registry, turn him over, would you.' He said in a terse voice. The auror looked up confused, but backed of.
Remus looked around, clearly not understanding what was going on, he had been brutally woken up and Apparated to this place, people were yelling at him and now Sirius was here. The cuffs hurted and he had no idea what was going on. Sirius pulled him toward him in a weird kind of embrace and he briefly wondered if this was some strange dream.
Then he saw what was left of his parents' cottage and all went black.
Taking plot bunnies/requests at the moment, I have some of my own, but Im not feeling very inspired by them. I'm even temped to try a crazy mpreg to get out of my apathy. The rest of the story is all planned out and the next chapter is almost written, there's just a couple of chapters left.
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