Torn Apart: A Fanfic by Gyppy

Timeline: Pregame

Summary: Having to kill the love of his life with his own two hands was more pain than he could imagine...

Pairings: KratosxAnna

Author's Note: Random inspiration can do a lot to burn your mind sometimes.

Well, anyway, this fic is in Kratos' POV as he looks back at his past. Poor guy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Tales of Symphonia or Namco.

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Some days, I just want to end it all.

I take up the sword and try to plunge it through my own heart, but... I just can't. I am too valuable to Cruxis to do such a thing.

I have lived four thousand long, lonely years, and little has prevented me from taking my own life. I have gotten... tired of living. Living seems meaningless anymore... but I can't. I can't die. I am vital to this world.

But when I look back at how I killed her... I struck her down with my own two hands... I just can't go on living like this.

That day was a tragic one, when I was forced to kill her. The love of my life, the shining light in an endless sea of darkness... I was forced to kill her. I struck her down with my own two hands... and the blade I used that day still bears the scars of her death.

For the first time in four thousand years, I had found love. And then, in the blink of an eye... I had lost it.

I had one child by her - a son, Lloyd. But he, too, was lost that dreadful day... he never grew up to be a man, he never lived to see the world at its fullest.

That tragic day still lies in my memory as one of the worst days of my life.

I always hoped and prayed that I'd be able to live a normal life... but now, I won't. I will be forever trapped in this angelic body, existing for eternity, without even love to guide me... hardly with even a friend...

I'm alone. I'm alone until the end of time.

Lloyd, if you somehow managed to survive... I'll be waiting there for you, for when you return.

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Author's Note: I think I've finally gotten tired of the cute fluff. Writing angst is not my specialty, but I've been feeling like it for quite some time. And I don't particularly enjoy writing pregame fics, so I can't write Kranna fluff. So instead, I get this really angsty stuff.

I can't say I've ever been depressed or in love before in my life, but I know how Kratos feels... the poor guy.