It's really short, but i thought i'd give you guys something after last night episode.

Beginning Again

A week or two went by quick. With her and Jack's newfound understanding she wanted to wake up in the morning.

Walking across the beach Kate rubbed her stomach trying to get rid of the morning sickness she had. She headed towards Sawyer's tent knowing he had to have something. She felt weird even thinking of Sawyer. He hadn't said a word to he since she told him and Jack. All she got were evil glances and stares.

Walking in without a word she looked around remembering the last time she had been in there. Lowering her head looking to her stomach, she thought of the outcome that would change all of it.

"What do you want?" Sawyer asked from behind making her jump.

She said nothing as he walked past her giving her one of those looks.

"Uh I was wondering if you had anything for stomachaches?" She asked lowering her hand to her side as Sawyer's stare with her stomach became intense.

He looked away and took a deep breath before looking back.

"Sorry. Fresh out." He replied in a slight sarcastic tone.

"Oh." Kate said getting the feeling he really didn't want her in there.

She stood there for a moment looking around until it became awkward.

"Thanks anyway.' She whispered as she turned and walked out.

She knew he still stood there watching her walk out of the tent. She knew he wanted to say something to her, but couldn't.

Turning back to see the tent she didn't feel that he cared anymore. She really didn't think he cared in the first place. But he did show some virtue when he consoled her with Jack after she had already slept with both of them. After that he kinda died off and now he was digging his grave. She wasn't Freckles anymore to him.

Looking down the beach that feeling crept back up her body. There had to be somebody with some Pepto-Bismol. Then she thought of the most likely person.

Jack.

It was a long walk to the caves. One that she hadn't made in over a month. Every few minutes she had to stop herself from getting sick.

As she walked up to the tree canopied entranced a few people walked out in a hurry. Passing her with out delay. She looked back watching them in curiosity as she slowly walked into the caves. Shrugging it off Kate turned to see Jack.

Unaware of her presence he was putting things away and taking others out. She just stood there with a smile watching him. As he bent over to pick something up off the ground she noticed a piece of paper in his back pocket. She glanced between it and him cleaning up his mess.

"Enjoying the view?" He asked catching her eyes.

She looked away with a blushing chuckle.

"As a matter a fact I was." She smiled looking back at him.

He blushed at the comment as he turned back to cleaning his mess. Standing up he put the things away. Turning he continued going through things as he glanced back and forth to her.

"Haven't seen you in a while." He stated.

"Been catching up on my sleep.' She said.

"That's good. For you and the baby." He stopped looking around to make sure no one heard the conversation.

Not exactly sure of the security he waved her over to talk closer. She obliged. Standing in front of him he stopped and looked her over. Looking away she took a deep breath as the morning sickness came back. It quickly came on strong and she had to put her hand to her mouth.

"You ok?" He asked calling her attention.

"Morning sickness." She whispered as Hurley came up behind them.

Jack's face became stern.

"Here sit down." He offered clearing his things off to reveal where he slept.

Placing a hand on each side of her he helped her to the bed.

"Now I want you to take a deep breath and close your eyes." He instructed sitting down next to her.

Looking away from him she close her eyes and inhaled then slowly she exhaled.

"Again." He instructed

Doing it again the pain slowly disappeared. With another breath without Jack's instruction she felt better. She opened her eyes with the last breath and was hit by him staring at her.

"Better?" He asked in that calming tone he had used since the night before he found her in Sawyer's tent.

Nodding her head she found it suddenly easy to look him in the eyes again.

"Oh I got something for you." He said with great joy as he turned and began to fish something out of his pocket.

He came back with that small piece of paper that she had noticed when she came in.

"What is it?" She asked as he handed it to her.

"The list." He smiled waiting like he was waiting to see someone open a present.

Unfolding it Kate looked to see three things written. All numbered. Reading it over she became amused with a smile.

No extreme amounts of sun.

No climbing trees.

3.No excessive work.

Folding it back she looked up to him.

"I'm impressed." She remarked with a smile.

"Why?" He questioned.

"You narrowed it down to three things." She replied shaking her head.

"Well I didn't think I had to be too specific.' He joked with a wink.

Her body stopped. She couldn't remember the last time he winked at her. It had to be before all of this. Before she even slept with him.

They just sat there entranced with each for the longest moment. There hadn't been a moment like this since that night. That wonderful night that was followed with such toil. And now this.

Jack turned seeming not to be able to take it anymore.

"You wanna take a walk?" Jack asked looking back to her.

She nodded her head in reply. Taking her hand her slowly pulled her up making sure not to stir up her morning sickness. Without letting go of her hand he led her off towards the other end of the caves where there was another trail that led off into the jungle.

They walked along the weed and vine covered trail. Both had thoughts of what separated them. Dropping her hand ever so sweetly to her side they looked to each other. The silence between them was comforting. For a while.

"How are we going to explain this?" Kate finally spoke up.

"When the time comes." Jack smiled reassuring her.

"When do you or when will I start showing?" Kate asked not really knowing anything about being pregnant.

"Bout the third month. Depends.' Jack answered looking over to her stomach as if he was trying to determine.

It became silent again. Kate looked down to the ground in thought. Thought of how this was all going to go down and all that had already happened.

"Sawyer is avoiding me." Kate announced.

"He's taking it hard. It's really hard to deal with things like this.' Jack tried to justify Sawyer's attitude almost seemingly explaining himself.

"He's treating me like I did something…" Kate began as she got an attentive look from Jack.

"Well I did." Kate smiled meekly hiding her grief as she spread her hand over her stomach.

Jack stopped immediately with her words causing her to stop. She watched as he stood in front of her looking her deep in the eyes. Without warning he placed his hand over hers across her stomach. Then he took it in his caressing it.

"You didn't do anything." He said firmly hoping she's throw out the idea.

"You can't control your body." He explained.

"I feel so guilty." Kate whimpered as she turned away.

Jack turned her back to him.

"Don't. I don't want you to." He slightly ordered her.

Kate turned with tears in her eyes. She had felt so guilty over the last month and after she found out she was pregnant and that it could be Jack or Sawyer's she' felt worse. But with his words she completely let the feeling leave her body. She let it fly away and hopefully it wouldn't return.

"I don't wanna feel this way, but I can't help it. I can't just tell it to go away. Like you can just up and forgive me. I have to work through it in my own way." Kate explained hoping he didn't take her comment about him seriously.

He looked to her with a smile and nodded his head in understanding. Looking away they began talking again. Talking about what her body was going to be going through and what was already happening to it. She was scared, but felt safe and centered that Jack was going to be there at her side the whole way.

As they walked and talked she watched him. The way he was so concerned and informative. It became hard to pay attention to what he was really saying. The feeling of them being "ok" was over powering herself to take in everything. Then she finally took it in. They were "ok" for now at least.

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I'm having a delima. I have two ideas i want to run with, but i really can't pick just one to work with right now. So i want you to tell me what you want. Either i start on "Surviving's" sequeal following Kate and Jack off the island. There's going to be alot of drama. Already planned for that. Plus i have a Triquel where they go back to island. Or i have this greath story going along with Locke truely knowing too much about the island and the others. And basically it's a fight for survival between the survivors who trust Locke and those who don't. Kinda like "Surviving"
, but more thriller-y and not as much Jack and Kate. (i'll still have tons of them of course!) I want you to decide which i start first. Because i'm going to do both so whatever one you don't choose i'm going to start up when i'm closer to finishing "Essence...". It's your choice tell me what yuo want! ( :