This is a continuation of the last chapter. Basically it's Sawyer's half! Enjoy!

Beginning Again II

Jack and Kate walked out onto the beach. Smiles on both of their faces as they talked.

Some looked back to see them. They looked at them oddly wondering why they looked so happy. All of them had been there when Jack caught Kate with Sawyer. It had become somewhat usual to see them trying to avoid each other. But with it being usual everyone like them better like this.

"See you later." Jack smiled as he walked off.

Kate smiled back as she watched Jack walked over to the rest of the survivors. She felt good after that long talk. As soon as she turned she remembered the real reason why she went to the caves. Medicine. She quickly turned around and was going to yell for Jack, but stopped. Something stopped her. She really didn't feel sick anymore. She decided to just leave it alone and headed back to her small make shift tent that suited her for now.

Turning and heading towards her tent she was stopped by Shannon walking from Sayid up to her.

"So you guys make up?" She asked looking over to Jack chatting with Charlie.

"I guess." Kate sighed also looking over to him.

"Was the sex good?" Shannon asked.

Kate turned and stared at Shannon.

"We didn't have sex." Kate replied.

Shannon's face turned sour then snotty.

"Oh." She said as she got a small smile pulling at the corner of her lips.

Kate watched as she turned away and started walking for Sayid. It was odd how she acted. Acting as though there had to be more to the story. There wasn't. Well there was. The baby, but nothing sexual in a sense.

Shrugging it off, Kate headed down the beach towards her tent.

A week went by and everything carried on. Kate sat in the sand out in front of her tent with her things on one side of her, some things she had found on the other, and an empty suitcase in front of her. She sorted through clothes. Picking some from a pile at her side and putting them in the suitcase in front of her.

Being as busy as she was she still looked up when a familiar shadow walked past her. Looking up she saw Sawyer walked by and keep walking. Pushing him out she went back to sorting through things. With a loud exhale she saw him stop, turn around, and head back for her.

He came and stood in front of her watching what she was doing. He seemed to wait for her to call upon him, but she wanted him to speak up.

"What you doing?' He asked with the sound of guilt on his breath.

She looked up with a smile. A smile being happy to see him.

"Sorting through what I'm going to wear now and later." She replied.

"Ain't it a little early to be thinking about that Freckles?" He asked as he sat down beside her.

She was Freckles again. She had always hated that name, but now it made her heart sing to hear it. It meant he saw her as a person again.

"I guess." She shrugged continuing what she was doing.

He wanted to say something, but could and she knew it. He just wanted to turn and say, "I believe you and it's going to be ok." Or maybe that was what she wanted him to say. No it was more what Jack would say. She had to face it. All she was going to get out of Sawyer was these awkward conversations leading nowhere.

"Craving any weird…things?' He asked finally looking over at her.

"Nope. Not yet." Kate answered cocking her head to look at both what she was doing and Sawyer.

"Jack said I will soon though. Doubt there'll be any corner store to run and get me any of it." She joked.

"Yeah…" Sawyer agreed with a sigh.

Kate finished sorting her things and put her suitcase back in her tent. Then she and Sawyer just sat there staring out at the water. No words. No comfort really. Just an anxiety of wanting to say something.

Looking over to the others down the beach she admired them and their uninterrupted lives. They didn't have to go through this. But they would have to live a different kind of stress when they found out what was going on.

"They're gonna freak." Kate sighed looking away to the sand in front of her.

"No they won't." Sawyer announced calling Kate's attention to him.

"It'll all be fine.' He smiled.

For once his smile made her feel better instead of worse. It actually made her think that it would be all right.

"Dude I think it would be better if we did it the other way." Hurley suggested to Jack as they walked out onto the beach.

"I know Hurley, but I don't think using marijuana for medicinal uses will prevent the other uses of it.' Jack laughed trying to remember how him and Hurley had gotten into this conversation in the first place.

Looking away as Hurley continued his argument he saw Kate standing with her face in her hands. She would look up every once and a while and then bury it again. Her eyes glistened with tears and her face was red with blush that perked her cheeks.

"I'll see you later." Jack announced quickly walking away from Hurley.

"Ok." Hurley replied standing there watching Jack walk away.

He thought it was kinda rude that Jack would just up and walk away from him right in the middle of their conversation. But he wasn't one to hold grudges.

"I'm sorry." Kate whimpered uncovering her face again.

"Son of a bitch!" Sawyer muttered back to her.

Jack kept his words to himself as he walked up to Kate. He didn't know what was going on, but wanted to find out.

"What's going on?" Jack asked.

Kate looked up to him. Her face still red and her breath labored with laughter.

"I threw up on Sawyer." Kate smiled trying her best to keep in the laughter.

Jack licked his lips. Pursing them he tried concealing his own smile as he looked over to see Sawyer in the brush swearing under his breath as he poured his water bottle on his shirt.

"Sorry I missed it." Jack finally gave in looking back to Kate.

"Real funny doc." Sawyer grinned sarcastically as he came towards them shaking his shirt out.

Jack and Kate glanced back and froth to each other trying to keep silent as Sawyer continued to beat his shirt. Pounding his fist into the cloth thinking he could beat the regurgitated food out of it.

Kate followed Sawyer with his eyes as he walked over to his tent. Emerging inside, she looked back to Jack who seemed to have been watching Sawyer too.

"Oh by the way I have something for you." Jack announced going for his backpack.

"It's not another list is it?" Kate winded with a chuckle.

"Nope better." Jack smiled handing her a baggy of mashed up leaves.

Kate stared at it for a moment.

"What is it?" She asked looking up to Jack confused.

"Sun said it will help with the morning sickness." Jack stated.

"Sun? Kate questioned.

"She knows? Am I that obvious?" Kate asked pulling at the bottom of her shirt.

"No." Jack smiled shaking his head as he glanced up to her from her stomach.

"She said she figured it out when you were crying after you told us." Jack explained with a heavy exhale.

Before either could say anything Sawyer had joined them with new attire. He walked right past them to the pile of dirty clothes.

Jack watched as Kate followed Sawyer's every move. Her eyes watching him like a vulture waiting for that person to just take that last breath and fall to death. Slowly her arms folded across her chest as she a deep breath.

He knew it bothered her that Sawyer was being distant and it bothered him that it bothered her. He hated to see her worry or fret over something. Especially Sawyer. He felt this way when she was trying to hide what she was doing with Sawyer. He knew Sawyer was what was wrong wit her. She acted the same way every time.

"Well I have to go take care of some things…' Jack announced looking over his shoulder to the others more so not being able to take Kate's look anymore.

Kate turned from Sawyer back to Jack who looked back to her. His face looked brought down liked he hadn't slept in forever. It was weird had it suddenly changed.

Slowly he moved towards her never breaking his gaze. Then he got to her he looked over as Sawyer mutter something else.

'You gonna be ok?' He asked referring more to Sawyer then her physical state.

Kate looked over in the same direction to see Jack looking at Sawyer.

"I'll be fine. He's harmless." She sighed staring at Jack who still had his head turned and gaze upon Sawyer.

He turned to see her looking almost desperate at him. Slowly he let a smile escape his lips.

"Ok. Be careful." He advised grasping her arm giving it a good squeeze.

"I'll see you later." He announced.

As he turned he looked back over to Sawyer then to Kate. He gave her a smile then turned away.

She knew that smile. It was the smile he always gave her when he was covering up his real reasons and feelings. She knew he was having issues towards Sawyer and there was nothing she could do about it. Not anymore.

"Who's harmless?' Sawyer's voice rang in her ear as she watched Jack walk off.

"It's nothing…" She replied with a gentle sigh as she turned back to see Sawyer shirt still in hand.

"How's the shirt?" She asked no more amusement from it in her voice like there had been. It was more full of thought.

He didn't answer. His eyes watched Jack as she had, but they were concentrated on a deep thing. Not worry. Rivalry.

"Did he-?' Sawyer asked outta the blue trying to think of what it was Jack did.

Kate looked to him, then Jack, and back up to Sawyer who had obviously figured it out.

"I swear if he thinks I'm harmless-!"

She braced her hand over his chest stopping him from taking one foot of action. He looked down to her with questioning in his eyes.

"Let it go Sawyer." She ordered with heavy voice.

"But he-"

"Please." She begged wondering after her words where it would really go.

He looked from her with disappointed eyes to Jack and the envy set it. He envied Jack and all he had, but was he really going to let him win the fight over his supposed unborn child?

See he had let go she lowered her hand and stared up to him waiting to make sure he didn't try anything too fast for her. Seeing that it had settled in him she turned away.

"Is this how it's gonna be?" He finally asked.

Picking up her things she had brought over to his tent she turned and stood strait up as she looked him in the eyes the way she sometimes only looked to Jack.

"I don't know." She answered.

And with that she lowered her eyes upon the sand and turned away.

Walking away from him his words stuck in her mind.

"It'll be fine."

She smiled at the thought of it all going back to the way it was before. But still with the way it was now she did have both of them on her side again. Somewhat. She couldn't tell with Sawyer. Until he did what must have been playing in his mind that whole morning.

Feeling a hand upon her arm she could've sworn it to be Jack. That how he always held her. But when she looked over she saw those grinning lips upon that scruffy face. She said not a word when she saw him. She just let him wrap his arm around her and pull her close as they walked. She didn't want to ruin this. This at least kind of told her how he felt.

As they approached her tent Sawyer had a million thoughts in his mind of what he just did. Soon those thoughts faded to utter hate as he looked away from the wind to see Jack. Standing there along the imaginary road him and Kate walked down in their world.

And he knew Jack saw him too. Standing there trying to pay attention to the others as the well to be mother of his child walked past him with another man guiding her in his arms. It made his blood boil as it did Sawyer when her saw him with Kate.

Strolling past Sawyer only looked to him out of the corner of his eyes. And when he saw him he squeezed Kate's shoulder gently pulling her that much closer as they passed. Hopefully telling Kate that he was there for her and telling Jack this was a fight.

My Decision

I decided that i am going to start the squeal to "Surviving...' . I will have the first chapter up on Thursday along with another chapter to "Essence...". The squeal will be called "Living After Reclusion."

ENJOY!

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Sinorita