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Undesired Feelings

Their feet scattered across the jungle floor. Both searching it closely. Him in front and her lagging some ways behind. With the extra baggage of being five months pregnant she couldn't keep up like she used to.

"What are we doing out here anyway?" Sawyer groaned looking to her behind him.

She walked around the area behind him as he stopped. Looking closely at the ground.

"Sun said there is more of that herb I've been taking to get rid of morning sickness out here."

"I thought you were over that?" He questioned still watching her comb the grass and brush.

Slowly she stood up and took a deep breath to regain her strength.

"I was, but it came about again…" She began to explain as she squatted back down.

"Jack said it could be caused by heat or just the fact that my system isn't used to boar yet."

"Oh yeah the doc knows everything doesn't he?" He questioned throwing a twig he had been playing with off into the distance.

Glancing up to him with raised eyebrow she stood and placed her hands on her hips. He could tell the "doc" comment had pissed her off, but it was the truth. Jack was trying to run this show and Sawyer was beginning to feel left out. Not that he didn't enjoy the walks out into the middle of nowhere, he just wondered why Jack couldn't be the one whose tent she came into in the middle of the night when she couldn't sleep. All Jack did was tell him what to do.

"What does this herb look like any way?" He questioned to change the subject in his mind.

"Umm…green or like a yellow…." She said not paying much attention to what she was saying, but more so to what she was doing.

He looked back to her now with his own brow raised.

"You have no idea what we're looking for do you?"

She shot up catching his grinning daze.

"Yes I do." She insisted trying not to look directly at him.

"Sure."

"I do!"

"What ever." He sighed turning away from her back to his search for the green or yellow herb thing.

As he went back to looking Kate began to do her own, but not for the herb. She was looking at Sawyer. Standing there she just causally checked him out like she had done many times before. There was no harm in it. At least she thought there wasn't.

Slowly, odd but familiar feelings came about. Creeping up her spine. Watching him walk around in those tight jeans that fit so tight and right on his body. She just stood still eyeing the way his body moved. She barely noticed how turned on she was getting, until he looked back to her over his shoulder. The moment she was hit with those eyes she felt it come head on.

Her body froze as her mind went on at a thousand miles per hour. Going back to that one night they shared together. The night that ended what her and Jack had, but started a new bond between the three of them. She remembered how his breath felt upon her neck and his stubble across her cheek. Quickly she began to question what was happening. At first she thought these were feelings she had left over for him, but soon she realized this was lust.

They must have been the hormones Jack was talking about, she thought. He said they would come along. But never did he say they would come on this strong, fast, or sudden.

"You coming Freckles?" He asked as his stare turned to question.

Her mind came up with so many meanings for what he asked. Many dirty of course. She couldn't believe at that moment how she was feeling. She had to answer.

"Uhhh yeah…" She stuttered looking away and out of both their dazes.

Looking away she felt as if she was clear from her thoughts, but as she looked over her shoulder to him they came on twice as hard as before. It began to bother her. There should be no feelings for Sawyer. She only had feelings for Jack. Biting her lip she turned back and tried to find an excuse for why she felt his way.

"You're pregnant."

"It's only hormones."

"It's lust not love."

Taking a deep breath she tried to clear her body and mind. Closing her eyes all she saw was Sawyer. Pushing them open she knew she had to get away. Her eyes wondered around and looked for an escape. An idea popped into her head. It was a long shot, but it might work. If it didn't she'd be cornered.

Quickly she went of running into the jungle hoping to get good ways away before he realized she was gone.

"Freckles." He called turning around only to see her dashing off into the woods.

His only thought was that that damn jungle monster had sprang up and sent her packing. He guessed he had been to busy looking for some imaginary herb to hear it.

"Where you going?" He questioned as he headed after her.

"I think I found it." She yelled back not even slowing down.

She had made it to the beach in record time.

Coming out onto the sand she stopped to catch her breath that escaped her. Bending over she grabbed onto her knees for support. Taking a deep breath she looked behind herself searching for Sawyer. He was nowhere in sight. She was thankful she had gotten away.

Regaining her breath finally she stood up and scanned the beach looking for Sun. When she was at the caves for her checkup before the search Sun had told her she'd be out on the beach cutting up what she had left of the herb. Luckily Sawyer had no idea. She had sent him running into the woods saying she had found it when she hadn't. This would be a good enough cover to get her by.

Looking over towards the more shady part of the beach she spotted Sun talking with Jin and Michael. She had the bag filled with the herb in hand. Kate headed across the beach towards them hoping for an alibi.

"And how are we doing?" Michael asked as Kate walked up.

"Good." Kate smiled rubbing her stomach as she turned to Sun.

"I couldn't find any more out there."

"Well Jack said there is probably enough until you get over this, but that we should still look for some more." Sun explained as the two men walked away from the pregnancy talk.

"I just got a little tired and couldn't think strait out there, I'll try again in a couple days."

The two walked over to some airplane seats sat directly under some palm trees. The sun was becoming more and more aggravating to Kate. She could barely stand to be in it for more then a few minutes. So the strategically placed seats in the shade were a perfect resting spot.

As the two sat down Sawyer came rushing up out of breath. Nearly startling Kate.

"Damn Freckles…"

"I knew you were going to bolt off into the jungle like that I would've let you go alone." He breathed trying his hardest to catch his breath.

He was almost in the same boat as Kate. With her being pregnant it took her a bit longer to catch her breath and a bit a quicker to loose it. Sawyer had problems simply because of his dirty habit he had been addicted to since he was twelve. The second thing they had in common. Being winded. It was only second to being criminals.

"Well sorry…" Kate apologized keeping her eyes off him knowing how they were working that day.

Instead she focused on her and Sun dicing the herb into small pieces for her to eat. Hopefully he'd get the hint and leave her alone.

"Damn." He breathed again still not caught up.

She only glanced up to him as his shadow left her as he started in the other direction towards his tent.

"Catch you breath." She called after him turning back.

It was silent between the two women. Kate knew Sun had to be questioning her odd conversation with Sawyer, but luckily she wasn't the type to question anything between her and Sawyer.

"So how are you doing?" Sun finally asked.

"Good."

"How far along?"

"Jack says about five months, but it feels like five years." Kate joked.

"Jack…" Sun began.

"How is he dealing with this?"

"Extremely well. I honestly think he wants to be a father." Kate cooed.

"And Sawyer? How is he handling it?" Sun continued asking.

Kate's mind began to wonder about her feelings for Sawyer again. So much that it delayed her answer.

"Not as well as Jack. He makes it out as a burden, but he's done better then I thought."

"If you don't mind me asking. Who do you think the father is?'

Kate stopped and glanced up catching her eyes. She had only asked herself that question in the beginning. Every since the two had been there head on. Well every since Jack had and Sawyer tried, she never let it into her mind. She really didn't know.

"Honestly I don't know." Kate answered.

"I mean I know both of them will be there. Hopefully. But as long as I have them there to support me I don't care. None of us will know until it grows up to look like one of them or we get off this island. Most likely the first."

Sun had to smile at how Kate's response came so naturally. She didn't even seem to think about it. It just came out of her like she knew it was true.

After her words Kate became oddly silent and a bit discontent. She was thinking about Sawyer again. Still it aggravated her. Ate at her mind and body. She fought with herself about what she should do.

"Are you ok?" Sun questioned trying to get Kate look up to her.

"Yeah it's just…." Kate groaned.

"What?" Sun asked pressuring her.

Kate put down her knife and looked up to Sun with pleading eyes.

"Promise not to tell Jack?" She asked.

"Yes of course." Sun assured her.

"I was checking out Sawyer today." Kate announced.

"And it wasn't innocent playing with his mind crap. I was getting turned on and everything…."

Sun hung onto her eyes word with wide eyes, but stayed silent.

"I think it's just the hormones that are coming on with me being pregnant…" She continued.

"Jack said I would have them, but he never said they'd come on like they did. I mean it was fast and strong." Kate finished looking to Sun with a surprised look upon her face.

"Well did you say anything to Sawyer?"

"Yeah…" Kate laughed sarcastically.

"His head would get so big we could all float away from here. Then he would torture Jack with it and I couldn't do that to Jack."

"Maybe you try to discuss it with him and tell him how you honestly feel. Maybe he'll act maturely. "Sun suggested.

"Maybe…" Kate sighed rolling her eyes as the thought of Sawyer acting mature.

Kate had spent the rest of her day in her tent. Either cleaning or tidying up. Anything to keep her mind off Sawyer. She thought about baby proofing her tent then let the thought go. Frankly she didn't know how to baby proof and especially didn't know how to do it to a tent. Plus she knew Jack would ultimately take care of it.

Nightfall came over closing yet another day upon the island.

Kate lay on her makeshift bed made out of the airplane seats, staring up at the top of her tent. She was thinking about all that had come about that day. Sun's question of Jack and Sawyer's involvement, the question of her feeling's on the father, and her lust of Sawyer. Mostly she thought about the ways she had been around Sawyer. Staring at the blue material hanging about her she couldn't think of anything else.

When she realized it was night she realized she was hungry. A sudden light along the side of her tent caught her attention. Looking over she saw the early flames of a fire that had been built no more then twenty feet from her tent. Watching it she came to see a silhouette of somebody walking around it. Focusing more on it she realized it to be Sawyer's.

Sighing she began to think about how he had left things with him and how Sun said to talk to him. Maybe she could. Maybe he wouldn't take it so personal. Maybe…

Pushing her bemused thoughts she got up. Stepping outside her tent she looked out over the ocean. The water was oddly calm. A breeze came up and wrapped around her sending chills down her spine. Turning back into the tent she walked over to her bed and picked up her blanket. Wrapping the blanket around herself she headed out onto the beach.

Walking across the sand she saw him sitting there in front of the fire. Eating all by himself. She thought about her actions for a second. Should she go over or go back into her tent?

"It wouldn't hurt." She thought.

Making her decision she headed over.

"Mama-cita!" He called with a grin as she came over.

Looking away blushing she sat down on the log next to him.

"Now am I gonna need Blondie's puffer? Or are you gonna stay put this time?"

"I'm staying put. Too late for a run." Kate joked.

"Good cause I ain't going after you into the magical forest after dark."

Both turned to the fire becoming silent. She stared off into the flames hoping her feelings wouldn't act up in that moment. He called her attention to him as he handed her a piece of boar. She looked to it still sickened by it, but it was Doc's orders. Sighing she took it.

"Thanks." She smiled meekly.

"Of course. Gotta feed the momma." He smiled back grinning ear to ear.

That smile got her. It sent her mind into a whirlwind of feelings. Feelings she didn't want. Feelings that were trying to over power her and make her give in. She had to turn her mind.

"I was wondering…" She began trying to think of question to ask him.

"What's your middle name?"

He turned to her with wide eyes.

"Don't you wanna know my real name first there Freckles?" He questioned with a chuckle.

"No I'm serious. What's your middle name?" She asked again with an inviting smile trying to ease him up.

He sat silent for a moment staring at the fire. It seemed as if her was trying to make up a name.

"Timothy." He blurted out.

"Timothy?" She questioned with a laugh.

"Yeah! So What!" He exclaimed becoming defensive.

"When you're born in the south you get names like that. Hell every other dame down there is names Lynn.' He went on trying to explain.

"Sorry I asked." Kate turned rolling her eyes.

"Don't be."

"I'm just a little odd when people ask about my name. You don't always know who you're talking to. Things might slip out and you might get caug-"

"Come on Sawyer it's me." Kate stated raising her brow.

He looked over to her with an intrigued grin.

"That's right. You were on the run too there Freckles."

"Thanks for pointing it out." She snickered turning back to the fire.

"How do I know "Kate" is your real name?"

"How do you even know anything when you never call me by it?" Kate threw up.

"Can't help it." He smiled.

"I just saw those pretty little freckles of yours and couldn't resist." He laughed poking her in the nose with his finger.

Kate bust into laughter trying her hardest to get out of his reach. It seemed a little hard with a pregnant stomach in your way. He had clear shot of anywhere he wanted to poke. And he did.

As her laughter quieted over the beach he pulled back with another grin from ear to ear. She sat up and stopped her laugh abruptly. Seeing him there sent her mind back into the gutter. That smiled was antagonizing her. It knew what was going on in her mind.

He began to talk, but she couldn't hear him. Her mind blocked out the sound as she stared at his lips. She stared at them with intensely. Watching each movement as they spoke words she didn't hear. Quickly her breath became caught in throat as her mind pushed her again. Pushed her to make a move. A move to satisfy her.

"Are you ok Freckles?" He questioned.

She only heard "ok Freckles." That's all her mind let her hear. It was if he was giving her clearance to move. And move was what she did.

Leaning forward she didn't take the time to glance up at him. She just went for it. Placing her lips over his she kissed him. Holding them there for a second she waited for his to kiss back. When he did she sucked in the breath that escaped him.

Placing her hands between them, she balanced herself as she deepened the kiss. Taking all of him in. Sucking on his bottom lip she tried to persuade him to open his mouth, but he wouldn't. In his rejection she began to question.

Is this what I want?

She had not time to answer as Sawyer's hands came up pushing her back. It was a gentle push, but enough to push her away. Enough to get her attention.

"What the hell Kate?" He questioned wiping his mouth.

With his words she looked up to him. His eyes questioned her. They dance with uncertainty as she stared into them.

Her body began to shake. She was trying to comprehend what had happened. Soon a new question came flooding her mind.

"What have I done?"

Authors Note: Sorry for the lack of Jack in this chapter. I will totally make up for it in the next. This chapter is part of a two part thing like i did early on. One is on the Sawyer and the other Jack.

Anways to those of you reading "Living Past Seclusion." I will defenantly have a new chapter up by Friday. It's jus that it's a long chapter. I mean really long. Might be longer than the second chapter. I also change the ratingto M because I realized it is going to get a little graphic in all parts.Sorry for the inconveince. So anyways i will have that up in the next day so i don't leave you hanging.

As always thank you for reading! ;) -: Sinorita :-