Sorry it took so long. With work and school i never find time to write anymore. Anyways here it is. I hope you all enjoy it.This has probably been my favorite chapter to write. I never lost intrest in it! Well I hope you all like it and please tell me what you think! I love what you all have to say!
Mother and Fathers
Two days went by. Two exhausting days in which no one slept.
Jack had it worst of all. He rushed back between Shannon's calls and the other burnt victims to Kate and the baby. He didn't get a blink of sleep. He barely got to sit down for more then a second before someone screamed for him again.
Then there was the baby. It screamed and yelled its head off not being able to sleep like the rest of them. All the commotion around the caves wasn't exactly the calmest environment for a newborn. So in turn it's crying calls prevented anyone from sleeping. And that made them complain even more to Jack. All of it was circling around in a whirlwind of cause and effect.
Amongst all this, it was amazing Kate could even shut her eyes. But for only a minute to try and catch up on her rest. She was quickly jolted awake as the infant in her arms began to scream.
She looked down to see him struggling in her arms. Immediately she heard groans and cries to keep him quiet from the others around her.
"Shh." She whispered rocking him back and forth in her arms as she tried to calm him down.
Then she realized it. He needed to be changed.
She quickly searched the caves for Jack. He was nowhere to be scene. It was odd. He was the one person beside they baby she had seen every waking minute for the last two days.
With a heavy breath she gave up. She couldn't wait for him to appear. The baby needed to be changed. So coming to her feet she set out on a mission to find clean cloths to use as a diaper. The minute she began to walk she bumped into someone. Her hands quickly came up to protect her son.
"Whoa." Jack's voice exclaimed catching her in his arms.
"Kate?' He questioned realizing who it was.
"What are you doing up?"
She didn't answer him right away. She was too taken back by his appearance. His face was beaten by lack of sleep as he tried to keep his eyes open. He was completely exhausted.
"The baby, he needs to be changed. I was looking for some diap-"
"I'll get them." He insisted.
"No Jack. You need to res-'
"You need to rest." He shot back at her as he pulled away from her.
"Jack you haven't slept." She exclaimed loudly over the infant's crying.
He didn't say anything as he turned from her and headed off. She watched after him shaking her head. He was pushing himself and he didn't need to. He needed to just sit down and take it easy before he collapsed or worse. Looking down to the baby she began to rock him back and forth whispering comforting words to him as she tried to calm him down.
All Kate could do was stare down at this child in her arms. Watching how his face changed with his sudden mood swings. Staring down into his blue green eyes she wondered so many things.
How was this going to work?
Would he make it?
Would she?
Along with all of the above the one question she dwelled upon was; what was she going to name him?
"Here you go." Jack said handing her the diapers.
"Thank yo-" Before she could finish, he was off again.
It hurt her to see him doing this to himself. Putting all the responsibility on him and only him. There were other people, but they were no help. She just hated seeing him struggle knowing she had already done her best to get him to listen.
Lowering her head with thought she turned to change the baby. It wasn't a hard thing for her to do, but for some reason she always felt nervous when she had to do it. Feeling that if she somehow failed she would have failed him too. Once it was all done she had to smile in success.
"All better now." She smiled picking the infant back up in her arms. She somehow felt rewarded at the fact that she had changed his diaper all by herself.
Holding him close to her chest with his head nestled in the crook of her neck she walked around hoping he would go to sleep. It was a small hope, but wouldn't hurt to try. Walking around she hummed to herself and the baby. She was completely oblivious to the world around her and the baby. No one existed but them.
"Can I hold him?"
It was a voice she never expected to ask that question. Pulling from her daze she turned around to see Shannon watching her with curious eyes. Kate couldn't help but stare back at her with question.
Was she serious?
Shannon didn't seem like the type to want a hold a baby. It just didn't seem right. Still Kate pushed thought the awkwardness and walked over to her. She stood for a moment, eyes wondering over her as she bounced the baby in her arms. If was if she was sizing Shannon up. Making sure it was ok. In the end all checked out.
"You know how to hold him?" Kate questioned slowly holding the baby out in her arms.
"I think I can wing it." Shannon smirked as Kate slid the baby into her arms.
Kate almost pulled the baby back hearing Shannon's words.
Wing it?
No. Nobody was going to wing it with her baby. She didn't care who it was. But it was too late. Shannon was already cradling him in her arms and smiling down upon him in joy. It was almost a struggled for her to hold back her tears as she looked up to Kate.
"He looks just like Jack." She smiled.
"Yeah…." Kate sighed nodding her head as they looked back down to him.
She did have to admit he did look like Jack, but there were some attributes of Sawyer in there. The small dimples that were forming in his cheeks were the number one thing. Most of all she thought he looked like her. Curly dark hair and freckles spotted all over his face. With the hope that Shannon's words instilled, it was still too early to tell.
"What are you going to name him?"
The thought again enter Kate's mind as she cocked her head to get a better look at him. There were so many possibilities, but only two that stuck out in her mind. Still with those two choices she couldn't decide.
"Well I was think either Ti-"
"Hey."
Jack's voice caught her as he walked up. Looking back she was still put off guard by seeing his exhausted appearance. Shannon could see it too and she slowly rolled her eyes and looked back to the baby.
"Hey." Kate smiled as she too turned back to the baby for comfort.
"How are you two doing today?" He questioned also turning his gaze upon the baby.
"Good." Kate said glancing over to Jack who was in a daze as them with the baby.
"Has he needed a diaper change yet?"
Kate stopped her thought for a moment. Her stare turned on him. She had just told him she needed diapers to change him no more then five minutes ago.
Did he not remember?
Was he that out of it?
That scared her. To think that he was so out of it from pushing himself that he didn't remember that she had told him no more then five minutes ago that his son needed to be changed, that was more then scary. It was state she wasn't willing to trust him in.
"Yeah, I took care of it."
"Really?' Jack questioned with a hint of surprise.
Kate nodded her head looking back to the baby.
"See Claire I told you could do it." He smiled as he turned around walked away.
Both Shannon and Kate looked at each other for a moment and then back to Jack.
"Did he just call you Claire?" Shannon questioned.
"Yeah…" Kate sighed turning back to Shannon.
"He's working himself to death with the baby and the burnt victims."
Looking back over her shoulder Kate watched Jack slightly stumble around. The others around him pretended not to notice. She couldn't pretend. She was going to get him to sleep if was the last thing she did that day.
Suddenly hearing the baby cry she spun around. Seeing Shannon struggle to calm him down made her smile.
"Let me." Kate smiled picking him up in her arms.
Instantly he stopped crying. She was almost in disbelief as she looked back to him resting on her shoulder. With him fidgeting against her she was still happy that he was quiet.
"See who his favorite is." Shannon smirked.
"Well seeing how I haven't let go of him in two days I'm surprised he did so well with you."
Shaking her head with a smile, Shannon wished Kate luck and turned to an approaching Sayid. Seeing him Kate took the hint and turned away from the two. Immediately she spotted Jack. He was actually sitting down sipping back the water from the water bottle in his hand. It did make her feel good to see him taking a break, but his stature and form were pathetic. He couldn't keep up the façade for long. Kate was going to make sure of that.
With a deep breath for confidence Kate looked back to the baby on her shoulder. She went through so many thoughts in her mind of how to get Jack to relax. Quickly she settled on one.
"We're going to get daddy to go to the beach with us." Kate told the infant as she looked back to Jack.
Never breaking her gaze with his weary state she slowly walked over to him. Her confidence quickly disappeared as she looked down to him. She suddenly felt sick.
"J…ack." She stammered.
His eyes were fierce as they drug themselves from the ground up to her. It was so hard not to notice the weight that sat upon them. Staring up at her, he waited for her to continue.
"I was wondering if you wanted to go with me and the baby to the be-"
"Whoa, whoa, whoa Kate." He said quickly coming to his feet in front of her.
"You're not going anywhe-"
"Jack, I've been cooped up in these caves forever. I think I deserve to have some fresh air." Kate said trying to change his mind, knowing it was going to be a hard thing.
The two were pulled away from each other as the baby began to fuss in her arms. Then there was the fact that Sawyer hadn't seen the baby. The thought had completely escaped her mind for the last two days. He did have the right to see the baby as much as Jack did and she wasn't going to deprive him of that.
"Plus Sawyer hasn't see him."
"That was his choice to walk ou-"
"Do not put that on him Jack." Kate snapped challenging him as she moved in closer.
"I don't care who hasn't seen him. You're not going to the beach alone." Jack said in an "end of story sort of way".
It wasn't so much that he was worried about her going to the beach in general. He was scared of someone hurting her and the baby. After he, Sawyer, and Charlie found her lying in that ditch he never wanted to leave her side. He wasn't going to let anything or anyone hurt her or the baby she carried in her arms. He didn't care if she hated him for being so protective. It was his job to make sure she and that baby were ok.
Again Kate was put back when he said he wasn't letting her go alone. She had asked him to join along. Again he had totally forgotten her words. He was being to scare her more and more.
"Then come with us." Kate suggested.
"I can't. Not with all these people he-"
"Jack." She said resting her free hand on his shoulder.
It seemed hard for him to look at her. Like he felt guilty under her gaze.
"Please." She begged.
"If not for me, do it for him."
They both again looked down to the baby. He was again struggling against Kate feeling her uneasiness. He too wanted a change of scenery.
"What about the others Kate?"
He was trying his hardest to find away of changing her mind. The last thing he wanted to do was walk through the jungle. Fear suddenly came over him wondering what waited around each corner. Someone or something that wanted her or the baby.
"They're all adults. They can take of themselves Jack. They're not your obligation."
"Fine." He sighed giving up.
"But we're not staying that long."
That's we he thinks, she thought. If it is up to her he'll get some much-needed rest. Hopefully all three of them. The beach was so much more peaceful. The perfect place to rest. And also no one had seen her son yet. It was something that excited her.
They quickly gathered things they might need. Their stuff was a little bit heavier with all the baby things they now had to carry along. Of course Jack carried everything much to Kate's annoyance. But as they walked along the dimming trail her thought turned from Jack's demeanor to Sawyer. She question how he was going to act. She was scared he'd back off, but maybe he'd grow up help out with the responsibility.
Sitting outside of his tent staring off at the others, Sawyer felt extremely guilty. One for letting Kate get hurt. And two for leaving her. He had no idea what going on back at the caves. Whether or not she was still in labor. Maybe she had the baby already. What if the baby hadn't made it through? What if she didn't?
He felt absolutely horrible with himself as he sat back and took another long drag of his cigarette. He had gone through a pack in two days. All the stress the worrying was putting on him. He had to admit to himself that he was pathetic for leaving her. Even with all the crap he had bottled up. It was a decision he made and he would have to deal with it. No matter what happened.
As the light went out on the butt that was snug between his lips he threw it to the ground with a groan. He wanted another one then he'd be going into his last pack and that wasn't something he wanted to do. Then there was a slight glimmer and his guilt was almost lifted completely off his shoulder as he saw her walk out onto the beach out of the corner of his eye.
Taking on full glance his heart jumped up to his stomach seeing her hold a small body in her arms. That was it. That was his kid. Or what could possibly be his kid. Then there was Jack lagging closely behind her. Seeing him even Sawyer put off. He looked like crap.
A crowd came around the three causing Sawyer to quickly come to his feet. He didn't want to seem as eager as he was. He'd hang out in the back for a while and watch over everyone's shoulders.
"Oh Kate he's beautiful!" Sun cooed running her hand lightly over the baby's forehead.
"Thanks." Kate blushed.
"What's his name?" Michael asked holding Walt close to him as the boy peered over the infant's blanket.
"Don't have one yet."
"Really? He looks like a Jacob or a Brian.' Michael suggested.
All Kate could do was smile as everyone was in aw over her son. All congratulating her. Then a sudden fight over names commenced. Some of them were cute, but she had her heart set, but still wasn't ready to tell anyone. She needed a certain someone's opinion and that had to wait until they were alone.
As they all poked and smiled at the baby Kate's eyes quickly scanned the crowd realizing Sawyer was missing. The minute she looked up she saw him lurking in the back. Seeing him brought relief over her. He was ok. With a smile she waved him over.
For a minute he hesitated, but once he got a close enough glimpse of the baby in her arms he couldn't resist. Pushing through the crowd everyone backed off realizing Sawyer had been on the beach when she delivered the baby. So he hadn't seen him. The people who had no idea that the child shared two fathers stayed close behind him as he walked up to Kate and the baby.
His eyes were instantly glued to this small thing in her arms. It was entrancing as he wiggled to be free of his mother's arms. He was beautiful, Sawyer had to admit.
"Wanna hold him?" She asked holding him out for Sawyer.
"Nah, that ain't my thing Freckles."
She knew he was lying and she wasn't going to let him get away with it.
"Bull.' She smirked pressing the baby against him.
Reluctantly Sawyer wrapped his arms tightly around him. The moment Kate pulled away Sawyer was hooked. He couldn't look away and when the baby looked up to him with his blue green eyes Sawyer melted. He felt whole in that moment as he held him. It almost bought tears to his eyes, but he tried to hide them.
He couldn't fool Kate. She saw him fighting back his emotions as he held the baby. It was too much for him and almost everyone could see it. Especially Kate.
"See it's not so bad." She smiled looking between Sawyer and the baby.
"Easy for you to say. You're not afraid you going to drop him." Sawyer chuckled nervously as he readjusted the baby in his arms.
"You wo-"
"Jack are you ok?" Sun questioned calling everyone's attention to her.
"Ye-ye-." Kate heard Jack struggle to talk as Sun slowly came up to him.
Kate's attention was immediately pulled from Sawyer and the baby as Jack's words became slurred and she felt his weight sway towards her. What she came to see scared her. He was fighting his hardest not to fall to the ground as he tried to talk. When that became too much for him his eyes went wide and then shut as he squinted them tight together.
"Jack?" Kate questioned putting her hand on his shoulder with Michael and Jin came up behind him as Jack's knees began to buckle underneath his weight.
Kate's heart quickly sank when Jack's body shut down. His eyes closed and his body locked up. In one blurred moment he was falling to the sand.
"JACK!" Kate yelled coming up under him.
Her hands came up to his chest with Michael's around his arms. She tired her hardest to keep him standing as she struggled herself under his weight. His body was limp and forced her down to the sand as she keep pushing herself up against him.
"Kate!" Sun yelled trying to get her attention.
When she didn't pull away from her position under Jack as she pushed with all her strength against him, Sun came up and tried to pull her away. Kate struggled against her.
"Kate! Kate! You're not strong enough." Sun tried to tell her.
Kate gave up the moment Jack's face hit the sand. Instant images of her nightmare flashed before her eyes. Him lying in the sand dead. It drove her to go back for him. Wigging out of Sun's grasp, she dropped to his side. Grabbing him by the shoulders she tried again to push him back up.
"Kate it isn't going to work. He's out!" Sun tried to convince her as she came to her side.
Tears began to roll down Kate's cheek as she stared at him motionless body. She knew he had just collapsed under exhaustion, but somehow she had a hard time convincing herself he wanted dead. But she did feel better when Michael and Jin lift him out of the sand, one arm around each of their necks as they began to carry him down the beach. Her eyes never left him.
"He's going to be ok.' Sun tried to assured as now everyone's eyes came to Jack's limp body, which made a trail through the sand as the two men carried him.
Without words Kate came to her feet. Brushing the sand off, she turned from the sight. Not looking to any of the stares she simply walked up to Sawyer and took the baby in her arms. He was put off by her suddenness. No words, she just took him from him. Walking past all of them she followed the trail Jack's feet had made into the sand to her tent where they took him.
Three hours. Three hours and he was still out, but she never left his side. With the baby resting across her lap she sat next him as he lay in a deep sleep on her old bed. Lying with no shirt and his jeans. She thought he'd cool off and be relaxed more without his sand covered shirt. He did look peaceful without all the bullshit he had to go through. It was kind of sad how sleep bought the best of him out to the surface.
This wasn't how she wanted him to rest though. She would have rather argued with him forever then have had him collapse in the sand in front of everybody. Then there was the completely insane way she acted. Fighting to keep him up and her crying. She couldn't help it. When she saw him fall all she saw was his charred body for her dream.
The baby began to move around in her lap letting out a small cry. She turned from Jack to the baby. He was awake. Picking him up she looked over his face as if she was trying to figure out what he wanted.
"You hungry?" She asked nestling the infant against her arm.
"I bet you are. With all this excitement…" She said lifting up her shirt.
Getting comfortable she began to nurse him. With a sigh she looked down to him. Nursing him was one thing she didn't think she'd ever get used to. Although it was something she had to do, but it hurt. It felt like someone biting at her and not in that good way.
"You ok?" Charlie asked as he pulled back to the tarp of the tent.
"Yeah." Kate sighed looking back to Jack.
Charlie was quiet as he walked over to her. His eyes like hers were on Jack. He looked rough, but better then he had.
"How's he doing?"
"Haven't heard a sound out of him." Kate said looking up to Charlie.
"But it don't bother me. He's getting sleep."
"That's a good thing. He needed it." Charlie laughed.
Kate couldn't help, but join in. They were then interrupted by the mewing sound of the baby. They both looked down to him as he tired to pull away from Kate. When he wasn't dealt with instantly he became more then fussy.
"That was fast." Kate joked propping the baby up on her shoulder.
She looked around as the baby again to get fussy. He was so impatient.
"Charlie hand me that towel."
"Here you go." Charlie said handing her the towel.
Draping it over her shoulder she pressed the baby back to her shoulder. Putting her hand to his back she began to lightly pat him. Still he fussed and fought against her. It was hard to keep him still as she tried to burp him. After awhile it became exhaustion for Kate, but when he let out a low noise and settled against her Kate and Charlie felt relieved.
"Finally." Charlie smiled.
"I think he's trying to spite me." Kate joked rolling her eyes as she adjusted the infant against her.
"You know me and the others could look after him for a while Jack is out." Charlie suggested.
"Thank you, but I think I can handle him." Kate assured him.
"You sure?"
"I'm sure."
"Now you wouldn't lie to me?" Charlie questioned slowly heading for the door.
"Nope." Kate smirked.
"Well if you ever need anything you know where I live." Charlie smiled letting the trap fall back into its place.
A smile spread across her lips as she looked back down to the baby in her arms. When he again tried to struggle against her, she took the hint and laid him back across her lap. The moment he fell against her legs his eyes fell shut. Kate hoped he was falling asleep. She watched as he began to fight with himself on whether he wanted to or not. Extending her hand over his fuzz covered head she lightly ran her fingertips over his skin. He was so soft as she barely tried to touch him.
"K…ate"
Kate's eyes wondered over to Jack as his eyes were fixed on hers. His brow furrowed as he pushed himself to sit up. Resting his elbows against his legs he slumped over with heavy breath. Looking around her and around to his surroundings he tried to figure out where he was and what had happened. When none of it came to mind he closed his eyes. Brining his shaky hand up to his face he rubbed the bridge of his nose in frustration.
"What happened?" He asked looking back up to her.
"You fainted." She whispered looking back down to the baby.
"Guess that's what happens when you don't sleep for three days."
Jack quickly noticed the baby lying between her legs as she sat Indian style. He watched in a sort of guilt as she ran her fingers over his small patch of hair.
"Told you, you needed rest." She said looking back up to him.
"I don't remember you telling me that." He yawned.
"I don't think you remember a lot of things. Like me changing his diaper or you calling me Claire." She pointed out.
"I called you Claire?'
"Yep. Shannon was wondering the same thing. We all were."
Jack didn't remember any of this, but he didn't doubt it happening.
"Frankly Jack, you've were a bit of a bitch this morning."
He could tell she was a was more then pissed off with him. She was angry.
"Please don't try and push yourself like this again." She pleaded.
"You scared me."
"I'm sorry Kate." He whispered shaking his head in shame.
"I promise I won't do it again."
They both knew that was a certain guarantee as they passed small smiles back and forth as they looked back and forth between each other and the baby who obviously wanted asleep as he wiggled and stretched against Kate.
"How's he been doing with during my little relapse?" Jack questioned nodding towards the baby as he began to cry.
"Well…" Kate began picking him up in her arms.
She thought for a minute as she looked to Jack. She thought that this was the perfect alone time to get his opinion on the name she had picked out.
"He's been fussy. Of course." She smiled as she scooted closer Jack.
"What baby isn't?" He smiled.
"Anyways, since you two really didn't get a proper introduction besides you delivering him…" She continued placing the baby in his arms.
Jack like Sawyer immediately felt a peace holding this life in his arms. He had held him before of course, but he really didn't remember it. This time he would. It felt so right to be staring down at his blue green eyes as he looked up to Jack in wonder. It never ceased to amaze Jack how baby's attentions were caught by everything that moved.
"Hi." Jack in an odd high-pitched voice as he smiled.
Seeing the way Jack was with him she thought it was the best time to tell him the baby's name. She felt nervous as she hovered over Jack's shoulder. She could see the tears rolling down his cheeks. Unlike Sawyer he let them go.
"Well Jack, I want you to meet Nicholas." She said taking a deep breath waiting for his reaction.
It took him a long minute, but slowly he looked away from the baby newly christened Nicholas and back to her. There was an element of shock on his face.
"Nicholas?" He questioned.
"Yep." Kate said nodding her head.
"Is that why you asked about my middle name?"
"Yeah. I wasn't really coming up with ideas that easy."
"Nicholas." Jack repeated in near whisper as he looked back down to Nicholas.
"It was either that or Timothy." Kate announced.
"God love Sawyer, but I wasn't going to give that as a first name."
"So it's his middle name?" Jack asked.
"Yeah." Kate said looking back down to Nicholas.
"What about a last name?"
"I'll decide that when I have to."
Jack knew she still didn't know who the father was. No one did. It was too hard to tell. It didn't matter anyway. Looking from her back to Nicholas he didn't care. All that mattered was that they were ok.
"Well I will leave you two for a moment." Kate said breaking the silence.
"Where you going?" Jack questioned watching her walk towards the tarp.
"I need some me time for a bit. Need to stretch and pee." Kate laughed with a smile.
She could see the uneasiness he had as he tried to cover into up with a laugh. But she wasn't worried. He'd be fine. Plus she wasn't going to be that long.
"I already fed and burped him. He might want to sleep I don't know." She said as she pulled the tarp back.
"Good luck." She smiled as she turned and let go of the tarp.
He watched her shadow upon the tent as she walked down the beach. When she was out of sight he looked back down to Nicholas in his arms.
"Guess it's you and me."
He couldn't help but smile as he watched the infant's eyes wonder around and his hands reach up grabbing for things.
He quickly found something. Jack's chest hair. Curling his little fingers around a patch of it, he latched on.
"No." Jack said taking Nicholas' small hand in his.
"That's not yours." He laughed trying to pull his hand away.
It was no use. The more Jack pulled the tighter Nicholas' grip became. It started to hurt as he pulled at it.
"Ow!" Jack called out.
"Watch it." He laughed as Nicholas tugged back on the hair.
Getting his best grip around Nicholas' hand he tugged slightly hoping he'd let go. He didn't. Then his other little hand came up and grabbed another bunch of it. Holding onto Jack through his chest hair bunched up in his little fists, Nicholas snuggled up against him. With a small yawn he closed his eyes.
"Now I'm stuck with you." Jack whispered.
Holding him tight to his chest Jack flung his legs over the cot. As slowly, quietly, and gently as he could he got up and slid over to the airplane seat Kate had been sitting in. Resting back into it he let out a sigh looking back to Nicholas. He looked so adorable lying there even with Jack's chest hair bunched up between his fists. It was a sight that couldn't help but bring another smile to Jack's lips.
Jack ended up following in Nicholas' actions and fell asleep. Kate wondered in a little while after and almost burst into laughter seeing the position the two were in. But she kept quiet as she crawled up on to the cot Jack had been resting on. Curling up on her side she stared up at them in a daze. It was so moving to her seeing them sleeping together. She was so in a daze with it she didn't notice herself crying.
Soon sleep came over her as well. Taking one last look at the two she closed her eyes and fell asleep.
Being woken up by Sun, the three were surprised to see it was already night. There weren't surprised however to find her in a laughing fit seeing Nicholas' new toy. Jack's chest hair. It amused everyone, but Jack. It probably would have been funnier if it didn't hurt.
Changing they made there way out to the huge bond fire for dinner. Kate quickly made a beeline for Sawyer. She remembered how she had left things in felt bad. Sitting down next to him she couldn't find the words to explain what happened and how she felt. So she didn't. She just sat with Jack holding Nicholas next to her as they ate in the shadows of the fire.
Then Nicholas began to cry calling everyone's attention. Like everyone around him he was hungry. Taking him from Jack, Kate settled back as she nursed him. Some people watched, which made her uncomfortable. But once they lost interest the only stares she could feel was of Jack and Sawyer.
Jack didn't bother her as he leaned over and watched. It was weird fascination she guessed. It was. Jack thought it was beautiful. Seeing a mother and child. The most natural thing in the world. Plus the way the fire hid and highlighted certain features of both Kate and Nicholas. It looked do surreal, her sitting there with him.
Kate glanced over to see a smirk slid over Jack's face.
"What?' She questioned.
"He likes it." Jack said never moving his eyes.
"Almost as much as you." Kate shot with a huge grin.
It took a moment for Jack to catch it. When he did he looked away blushing more then she had ever seen him before. It was quite amusing. She even heard a chuckle from Sawyer. Jack just shook his head as he went back to eating.
She had hurt his confidence, but she had gotten him to look away. He had really started to freak her out.
After Nicholas was done and Kate burped him, she held him in his arms as she stared intensely into the fire. She could see Sawyer out of the corner of her eye trying to push himself to ask if he could hold Nicholas. She beat him to the punch.
"Here." She said as she handed him over.
She wasn't going to ask if he wanted to again knowing he'd probably say no.
Again that odd feeling came over Sawyer as he looked down to Nicholas. Him lying in his arms, struggling against him like he did everyone. It was so weird. He had never felt that way over anything. Maybe Kate, but he wasn't even sure he felt this sort of feeling with Kate.
"By the way his name is Nicholas." Kate smiled as she sat back.
Sawyer had no comment for the name. It didn't matter to him. All that mattered was this was somehow his. This was a part of him whether he was Jack's or not. He felt a connection with Nicholas as he stared down into his eyes as they wondered around catching sight of everything.
With a small cat like yawn, Nicholas did as he did with Jack and grabbed up for Sawyer. Not finding the chest hair he did with Jack, he instead gripped onto the ratty t-shirt Sawyer wore. Pulling it tight with his first he tried his best to bring it to his mouth. Giving up he pressed his forehead up against Sawyer's chest and closed his eyes.
Sawyer couldn't hide his smile. Still knowing Kate and Jack both watched him he didn't care. He couldn't help but smile as he stared down at him. And in some odd way Sawyer felt like a father.
Author's Note: Hoped you all enjoyed that. I thought it was pretty cute myself. Anways to those who are reading my other fic as well; Living Past Seclusion, i will ahve an update soon. I've just been tweeking the outline and didn't want to prgress without knowing forsure how it was all going to work out. So don't worry! It'll be soon i promise!