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Lost

Saturn looked at her realm and couldn't help the smile appearing on her lips. The Domains of Soul was the only place she really felt she could be herself and let loose of all her power without the fear of destroying anything. And with a long intake of air The Warrior of Ruin started her path through the white valley.Here the ground was made from white pebbles; the sky was always a dark almost black color with black portals everywhere and that was it. Some people would think that it was a very empty land but for Saturn it was home.

"Queen Hotaru? It is really you or my eyes are playing tricks on me?" A quiet voice said from all around the valley.

"No, Phantom, your eyes are not playing with you. It is me." Hotaru answered with joy in her voice. Phantom was a creature that kept the souls flowing when she wasn't present. It was just a voice in the thin air, a voice that didn't belong to woman or man.

"Has my time come, my Queen?"

"No, I'm afraid that I can't free you yet, my friend. I'm still needed. I'm sorry!" her sudden joy turned in to sorrow at the statement. She couldn't prevent being sad when reminded that Phantom didn't belong here in the valley of souls. It was sent here so that she could leave. But she couldn't break the seal that imprisoned her friend till the fates didn't need her anymore.

"Don't be, my Queen. Sorrow doesn't suit you. So please, tell me the reason why you are here. What shall I do?" The voice said while creating a soft wind to comfort it's queen.

"I need to go to the source of my powers, Phantom. Do you know where I was born? Charon is a great foe and I need everything I can get."

The voice was silent for a moment. Everything seemed to stay still as if waiting the answer. Hotaru started walking again, looking at each black hole with interest while waiting.

"You shouldn't go back there… It will only bring you pain. You did leave that land for a reason. Please, Hotaru, don't go!"

Hotaru's eyes got wide for a moment. Phantom only dropped her title when it was really worried. 'Why I can't remember? From all the knowledge I received with the merge… I should know what happened to me before the Glaive?' The sailor stopped for a moment pondering until she whispered:

"Because I'm not supposed to…" And with a louder tone she said "Phantom, I understand your worries, but Princess Serenity is counting on me. Lead the way."

And with that, a light wind picked some of the pebbles and started to guide the Sailor of Silence through the white valley. She walked for a long time but time was different here and when she arrived at a final portal, she couldn't say if she lost an hour or five minutes on this walk.

The portal was ancient, that she could feel. It was the largest of all of them and in each side of it was a much smaller portal. She could sense the souls coming out of the large one like a great pack of wolfs while some would turn right and enter into the small one.

"Phantom, do you think you can stretch the portal of rebirth for me to go through? "

"But you don't have a body to return to. Why not go into the one of birth, Hotaru?"

"Because I can't loose time to be born again. Even if I can grow fast it would take a month to reach this stage and I would loose my memory and that I can not risk. Please, Phantom, can you do it?"

In answer she only felt the wind fighting to stretch the black hole on the right. Even if the portal was big enough for her, she couldn't pass it till it could support her power. So Hotaru only waited for Phantom's work to be done.

"My Queen, I cannot stretch it any longer… I'm sorry." the tired voice of Phantom was heard.

"Then this shall do… "And with these last words Hotaru jumped into the portal.

Pain… It was the first thing that came to her senses. Pain and weakness… Soon she tried to open her eyes but only black met her view. "Damn… I never thought it would hurt this bad" she thought while trying to get some control over her body.

Suddenly voices came crashing into her mind. They were soothing and powerful, she didn't recognize the language in which they were speaking but somehow she understood their meaning.

"Manwë, she has returned…"

"I know, Mandos. Estë is in her way…"

"Do you know the reason of her return?"

"Maybe… But now we should prepare her. I feel that she doesn't know about her past here or anything about Arda."

"Oh… dear child what have you done…" A strange feminine voice rang through Hotaru's mind. The voice seemed to stop the pain that was tormenting her body.

"Estë, take care of her… Her time here should be short"

"Yes, Manwë, but how should we call her?"

"Vanwe… she shall be called Vanwe."

"Lost… suitable name, Mandos" Manwë's voice rang one last time.

Hotaru tried to stay wake to hear more of the lovely voices and maybe understand what was happening, but her mind soon gave up.

End