If I Could Change Our Fate Chapter 4: How Can I Forget?, a star wars fanfic

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If I Could Change Our Fate

Summary: AU: During ROTS. Padme has visions of the future and her and Anakin's fate. She decides to change it, if she can. Book 1 of 2: What If?

Chapter 4: How Can I Forget?

(Padme's POV)

My hand flew up to my face, trying to ease the burning that was running through it. I couldn't believe it, he slapped me, he hurt me, he broke my heart. Tears ran down my face and I couldn't make myself speak. He looked at me, confused and broken.

I did not feel back for him, why should I? No, I did feel bad for him; he didn't know how much pain he had just caused me.

"Padme…"

"No Anakin… I'll see you when you get home." And with that I ran. As fast as I could possibly run. I just wanted to get away from this... This monster.

As I entered my apartment, I fell against my door, falling forwards and probably damaging the babies. I snapped up at that thought. No, I couldn't lose them, even if their father was a horrible monster; I had to live for them.

"I'm so sorry, Luke and Leia, I couldn't save him. I hope you can." I was now sitting against the door, wiping the tears away.

I felt a kick, they were listening.

"All I ever wanted to do was to save him. And I ended up losing him more then ever."

A kick.

"All I ever wanted was his love, he didn't have to always get mad at me, I mean really!"

Another kick. I had loved them from the beginning.

"I will be strong for you guys, I promise. Even if I never get to hold you or care for you, know that I will always love you."

There was nothing, that's probably not what they wanted to hear. I smiled sadly and Threepio entered the room.

"Mistress Padme? Are you alright? Is the baby alright?"

"Actually Threepio, I'm not alright, but the babies are alright."

"Did something happen to you?" Threepio questioned and I nodded as a new set of fresh tears fell down my face.

"What happened?"

"It was Anakin." I was so glad that Threepio cared about me. He was somebody I could always talk too.

"What did he do now?"

"He hurt me."

"Physically or mentally?" I thought about that for a second.

"Both."

"Oh dear, shall I talk to him, Mistress Padme?" I sighed deeply and shook my head.

"It's alright Threepio; I will talk to him when he gets home." Threepio nodded and helped me up. R2D2 entered the room with a holograph of Obi-Wan.

"Padme, I do hope you are alright."

"I'm fine Obi-Wan, just a little shaken up."

"Then what's that bruise on your forehead?"

What bruise, I don't have any bruises! What the heck was Obi-Wan talking about? My hand reached up to my forehead and I felt a small bump there. Dang! It must have been from when I fell.

"I just fell, I'm alright though." Obi-Wan smiled and nodded.

"We heard what happened with you and Anakin is your cheek alright?"

I laughed, "Yes its fine Obi-Wan."

"It's good to hear you laugh, I need to be going, but take care of yourself."

"Thank you, you too."

"I will talk to you later."

"And Obi-Wan?"

"Yea?"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yes?"

"When is Anakin coming home?" I needed to know because I wanted to find out how long I needed to prepare myself for confronting him on hurting me.

"He'll be there soon."

"Okay, thanks Obi-Wan."

"Good night Padme."

"Night Obi-Wan." And then the holograph ended.

I was left alone with only my fears and broken heart.

A little while later…

The front door opened to reveal Anakin, he wasn't smiling, he looked angered. I stood up, not moving any closer to him, just stood there.

"Padme."

"Anakin."

"I just wanted to say-"

"It was nothing." I answered bitterly and saw his eyes go down to see my necklace, but it wasn't there.

"Where's the necklace?" He had noticed, why shouldn't he notice? In the past I had never taken it off. So why start now?

"What necklace?" I questioned dumbly and I could see Anakin was getting mad. I decided to cover up quickly.

"I took it off." I stated and tried to look happy about it, but really I felt completely bare without it.

Now trust me, I really did want to forgive him and make everything right again, but how could I? How could I just forget?

"I'm sorry Padme."

"Don't worry about it Anakin, it was nothing, like I said before."

"But it was something Padme! I hurt you! What happened to your forehead?" He questioned noticing the large bump on my forehead.

"I just fell."

"Fell? Are you hurt?"

"No I'm fine, and the baby is fine also." I smiled, but it quickly disappeared.

"I'm glad you're alright. Padme, I'm really sorry about earlier, I was only trying to save you, but you betrayed me!"

"I didn't betray you Anakin! I would never dare! I was only trying to save you!" Uh-Oh, now there was going to be some explaining to do.

"What?"

"Nothing. I didn't say anything."

"I heard you Padme; you said you were only trying to save me." Ok, maybe if I just break down in tears, he'll forget- yea right, he won't forget it.

"It was nothing, it just slipped out." He moved towards me. I didn't move away, I stood still.

"You're hiding something Padme, why are you hiding something from me?"

"It was nothing!"

"What will it take to make us open with each other?"

"We are open Anakin!"

"You're telling everybody but me Padme! You can't trust your own husband?" I sighed, maybe I should tell him.

"I just had this vision a little while ago, you were going to turn to the dark side, I just don't want it to come true Anakin. I couldn't bear to lose you." I sobbed and he took me in his arms, trying to soothe the pain I was going through.

"I promise you Padme, you won't lose me." I wonder what was going through his mind.

"And I promise you won't lose me."

"I know."

Something about the way he said that got me thinking. He was probably lying to me and he probably did join Palpatine. I wondered if the Jedi Council gave him the position of master.

"Did the Jedi Council give you the position of Master?" I questioned and I felt him rest his head on top of mine.

"Yes."

"That's great Ani."

"But they want me to spy on Palpatine."

"Why?"

"I don't know Padme, but I'm going to find out."

"I love you." I muttered and closed my eyes, trying to think about what I would do next, I would not give up on trying to change our fate.

"I love you too."

"And promise me Ani, that no matter how hard it might seem, to live life without me if your vision comes true."

"I couldn't Padme."

"Yes you can Anakin! You can take care of our child, give the baby the love and care that I can't if I'm gone. I know you would want the same."

"I will try, my love."

"Thank you, it means a lot to me." He kissed the top of my head.

"I promise you Padme, I won't lose you, I'll find a way to save you." As he said that, I started to laugh for some strange reason. It felt good to laugh

"Of course you will." I choked out between laughs.

"It's not funny."

"Of course it's not."

"Stop!"

"Ok, ok!" I giggled and pulled away, trying to escape, but Anakin was faster. His lips quickly pressed against mine.

I could stop looking for clues to stop my vision for one day right?

Tomorrow was a new day, it brought new changes. Some good and some bad. For me and Anakin, it brought all bad.

End of Chapter 4

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