Traumatized

The Act Of Trust

"What?" Zell asked as Selphie's eyes filled with tears. Selphie shook her head sadly.

"Nevermind." She said quietly. "It's dumb."

"Nothing you say is dumb." Zell reassured her. Selphie looked at hims closely then decided that he was sincere. She would tell him.

"I don't think that I can ever love anyone again. The physical is too scary and the emotional..."

"That's not true. You'll find someone who you trust enough to be with." Zell told her gently, wishing that that person would be him.

"There is one guy, but he only thinks of me as a friend." Selphie said sadly and Zell's insides jumped. Damn it, thought Zell. She had already found someone.

"Who is it?" Zell asked hesitantly.

"It doesn't matter." Selphie replied sadly. "We're just friends."

"Yes, it does." Zell said as he started to get frustrated. Please God, don't let it be Irvine, Zell prayed. Selphie looked at him again with huge eyes and he was scared of her answer.

"It's you." She said simply. Zell mouth opened and his eyes widened. He was so shocked that his dream had come true that he couldn't say anything. That was a mistake. Selphie took it in a bad way and spun on her heel as tears splashed down her cheeks. She ran to the door crying and had her hand on the door knob when Zell grabbed her arm to stop her.

"Why are you crying?" Zell asked, confused. Selphie doesn't answer but in her head she's screaming, because you don't love me! Selphie pulls back and Zell let's her go. Zell finally got the words out that he was waiting for, "I'm honored that you trust me so much." Selphie doesn't move.

"You are?" She asked quietly.

"Of course I am." Zell replied. "I never thought that you'd feel that way about me." Selphie finally turned to face Zell.

"What do you mean?" Selphie looked up to him as she spoke. Zell was suddenly very shy and wasn't ready to admit his true feelings to Selphie.

"I'm glad you trust me." Zell then opens his arms for her to walk into them. He gently held her to him and kissed her hair. She lifted her head so that he would kiss her lips, which he did. She opened his mouth with her tongue almost immediately. Zell loved her eagerness, he gently tugged her back towards his bed while they kissed.

"Zell...I don't know what to do." Selphie whispered.

"I'll help you." Zell answered.

"But you're a virgin too...Or did you lie?" Selphie asked.

"No I didn't lie. But Squall...Well I'll help you." Selphie smiled at the mention of Squall. the last person you'd ever think was a sex addict. To be honest, it was surprising that Rinoa was one too.

"Ok." Selphie said as she layed down on his bed. Zell layed beside her and started kissing her again.

Quistis walked back to the kitchen with Seifer's dirty dishes. She was going to wash them when Seifer called her back, "Quistis, please come here for a sec." Quistis sighed softly then walked into her room where Seifer had sat up on the bed. He patted the spot beside him, letting her know that he wanted her to sit there. Quistis sat down gingerly and looked at him.

"Yes?" She asked. Seifer just stared at her. "Seifer?"

"I just want to look at you." He answered. After a long moment of his staring, Quistis started to get nervous.

"Seifer..." She said quietly.

"I love you." Seifer said unexpectedly. Quistis just gaped at him.

"What did you say?" Quistis asked, worrying that she had heard him wrong.

"I love you." Seifer repeated. Quistis finally let it sink in and her eyes lit up. She jumped into his arms and he held her close. "I'm sorry for taking so long to realize it." Sifer said as she nuzzled her neck.

"I love you too, Seifer." Quistis responded. "But I have a confession to make."

"What?" Seifer asked, praying that she wouldn't say that she loved someone else too.

"I'm a...a...virgin." She whsipered. Seifer eyes widened with relief. That was it? He thought.

"That's it?" Seifer needed to make sure.

"Ya."

"Why didn't you just tell me before?" Seifer asked.

"I was scared you wouldn't like me because I wasn't experienced enough for you." She said as she dropped her head. Seifer reached for her chin and lifted her head.

"I love you even more now." He whispered to her and she smiled.

"Thanks." She replied as she leaned closer for a kiss.

"Anytime." He replied jsut before placing his lips on hers. Quistis pushed Seifer backwards so that he was lying down on the bed and she was on top of him. She kissed him harder and he opened her lips for his tongue to slip in. Quistis then pulled away, gasping. There was one more thing she had to clear up.

"You won't go on anymore morning drinking binges, will you?"

"Nope. I promise." Seifer told her.

"Did you ever go with anyone else?" Quistis asked, remembering that she had told him to go sleep with one of the garden whores. She started to get jealous at the thought of him going drinking with a girl.

"Only Irvine." He replied.

"Good." She smiled. "Now go take a shower." She told him. Seifer groaned but got up and walked towards the bathroom. "Here are some towels." Quistis handed him tow towels.

"Thanks." Seifer said as he finally entered the bathroom and closed the door. Quistis was so excited about her new found love that she had to tell someone. Sh epicked up the phone and dialed Rinoa's number.

"Hello?" Squall answered.

"Hey Squall. Is Rinoa around?" Quistis asked. He replied ya and called for her. She heard Squall tell Rinoa that she was on the phone.

"Hey Quisits. What's up?"

"Nothing much. Seifer just told me that he loves me." Quistis tried to sound casual.

"Oh my God! Really?" Rinoa asked excitedly.

"Really!" Quistis answered.

"So no more drinking binges for him?"

"Nope." Quistis answered. "Can you believe I was jealous for a second when I asked him who he went with to drink. I thought for sure that it would be a girl."

"Who was it?" Rinoa asked curiously. She tried to think of a guy who would drink with Seifer.

"Irvine." Well that surprised Rinoa.

"I didn't know Irvine drank." Rinoa said.

"Neither did I. Oh! I have to go. Seifer just got out of the shower."

"Ok. Bye." Rinoa said as she sat down on her couch. Irvine drank? She thought. I could've sworn he said he didn't, Rinoa continued to think. Something inside her head was trying to come to light but it wouldn't. Something about Irvine. What was it?