Pairing : Lee/Kara
Rating : G
Word Count : 1,089
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Disclaimer: Battlestar Galactica 2003 is the creation of Glen A. Larson and Ronald Moore. The characters in the story are the property of Glen A. Larson and Ronald Moore. Battlestar Galactica 2003 is copyright of the Sci Fi Channel. Battlestar Galactica is a trademark and copyright of Universal Studios. No copyright infringement intended. No profit is gained by this work.
SACRIFICE
Chapter Two
She thinks he hasn't noticed, thinks he hasn't seen the glances she sends his way and she thinks she's gotten away with it. What that something is, isn't clear to Lee at this time, he knows it bis/b something because Kara isn't meeting his eyes. Lee plays it off, pretends to not notice and continues on as normal because that is what is expected of him.
He's Apollo, Captain Adama, the CAG, Lee isn't in the picture because he'd have to admit to more than a few home truths if he let himself get too involved. Though Lee knows he's lying to himself, he's already involved. Far more involved than he should or probably wants to be. It's too complicated. You'd think that he would get tired of complicated given how everything turned out but seems he isn't.
Lee smirks ever so slightly as he finds his thoughts being taken Kara's way, he really needs to stop that. Partly because it isn't good for him and partly because Dee's talking to him and expecting some kind of response. Even as he mentally berates himself, he can't stop glancing over his shoulder in the direction of Kara who just so happens to be sat by herself.
Kara's an eternal loner, it's been worse since she got back from Caprica, it's almost as if she isn't willing to let anyone close to her. Kara's always reminded Lee of a caged tiger, a beautiful magnificent beast trapped behind bars. An animal that's willing to bite the hand that feeds. You can't tie Starbuck down, she's a power all onto herself and she's a nymph. Playful to the last but not to be trusted, not with your heart at the least. Lee wonders how his brother did it, how Zak Adama kept the ever elusive Kara Thrace to himself and how he managed to put that ring on her finger.
He still remembers when his little brother came to him and told him that he had found the woman for him. Lee had been surprised because Zak had always seemed a little head in the clouds about life and Lee had never considered his brother would be the one to marry before him.
Lee's first impressions of Kara hadn't been very good simply because this was the woman his brother wanted to marry so she had to be good enough as Lee had always been protective of Zak. People say that first impressions are the most important but Lee tends to disagree. He got a new first impression of Kara time after time until they formed a strange bond of friendship and Lee accepted that she was part of the family.
Losing Zak, that had been the hardest thing that any of them had gone through. Kara nearly destroyed herself, she imploded in a way that was both shocking and amazing. Lee's fairly sure he's never see a human being drink so much as he saw Kara drink in a space of hour after the news of Zak's death. Lee knows that there's more to Kara than all the bravado and machoism because for lack of a better word, that's what Kara does whenever she kicks someone's ass at something. That's also gotten worse since she came back from Caprica, almost as if she's trying to prove herself to him, the fleet and especially the old man.
Lee pulls his attention away from dissecting the mystery that is Kara and attempts to focus on what Dee is saying. However the more he listens, the more the words blur into something incomprehensible and Lee doesn't care enough to make sense out of it. Lee hopes he looks interested because he really isn't, he's still too busy thinking about Kara and replaying old events over and over in his head. An unhealthy habit if Lee had ever heard of one but one that seems set on taking him over.
He realises that they haven't really talked since she got back from Caprica. They parted angrily and they never talked about it, he never got the answers he had wanted and needed so desperately. Now that he thinks about it, Lee realises he has even more questions that only Kara can answer. They've fallen into old habits and those aren't getting them anywhere.
He's tired of always getting half truths from Kara. What will it take to get her to tell the whole truth and nothing but it? There's only one thing, direct confrontation. Kara never reacts well when she's backed into a corner, she's lashes out and fights to her last breath but she's also at her most honest and that's what Lee wants.
Lee also needs to ask himself the hard questions, the ones he's been running from for the last few years. The most important one of all has to be : Does he care more for Kara than he should? And if he does, when did it happen? These are the kinds of questions that keep him up at night and give him headaches.
"Lee? Are you even listening to me?" Dee asks as she can't help but notice Lee's faraway expression.
A blink of blue eyes brought Lee back to reality and he now found his focus fixed on Dee. "Sorry, did you say something?"
This response was of course met with the most disgruntled expression he has ever seen cross Dualla's face. "I don't know why I bother." She mutters with a slow shake of her head as she gets up from the table and set out of the mess hall and then back to her post on CIC. Lee grimaces faintly as he knows she's upset with him though it wasn't hard to miss given the expression and her words. He blames Kara because if he hadn't been so fixed on thinking about her, he would have listened to Dee and she wouldn't have gone away upset.
"Frak." Lee mutters into the palms of his hands as his face comes to rest there. He needs to do something about this before it eats him alive, if he can't concentrate on a normal run of the mill conversation with Dee, how the frak is he meant to do his job? With that thought now in his mind, Lee glances over his shoulder and finds that Kara is gone. He shakes his head. "Not this time, Kara." Lee mutters as he gets up from his table and he begins his search for the one woman who can put his mind at rest.