Pacey retuned to the house, feeling somewhat relieved. He walked through the front door, "Jo, are you here?" Not getting a response, he walked from room to room, looking for her, for a note, for anything. Then he found her, laying in his bed, the covers pulled up tight, her head resting peacefully on a pillow with a smile spread across her face. This time he couldn't sit there, waiting for her to wake up. Quietly he walked over to the bed, rested his hand on her shoulder and gently nudged her. "Jo, wake up."
Her grin got bigger, if that was possible, when she opened her eyes. "Pacey, you're back."
"Yeah, and we need to talk."
"Yes we do."
"Joey, again I have to say I'm sorry, about everything. I've been scared, and without reason."
"Oh Pacey, everyone has a reason to be scared. Do you want to know why I'm scared? For two years you were my safety, my security, my life. Then you left and everything changed. Dawson, as in the past, tried to make me feel secure, but something was missing. After a time, I realized that I could make myself feel secure with Dawson, after all, he had so much to offer me. I've gotten the chance to get comfortable with my life. But I wasn't happy. I've left all of that and I'm following my heart. While none of this was planned, I somehow ended up here, with you. And, I'm scared. Scared that no matter how much I want to be with you, you're going to leave me again. I love you so much, and I can't deal with the heartbreak again," she was now sobbing uncontrollably.
"Oh Jo," Pacey wrapped his arms around her, "I love you too. I never stopped loving you. I promise I will never leave you again. You're stuck with me now." He continued to hold her, and slowly rocked back and forth.
Joey truly felt safe, sitting there with Pacey's arms wrapped around her. She believed him when he said he would never leave her. Unfortunately, she knew that she would have to leave Kansas City tomorrow, to go back to LA. Not only did she need to get things in order, but also she hated leaving Cody home with the nanny for any longer than necessary. She couldn't expect Pacey to give up everything he had to follow her. But, she did want them to be together, and would fight to make it work.
Pacey couldn't believe it. Mike was right Joey truly does love him. She doesn't want what he once thought she needed. She wants and needs for someone to love her. He looked down at her. She was so beautiful. He gently brushed the hair off of her forehead. Then he brushed his lips across her soft skin.
Joey couldn't stand it. She had to kiss him. Her hand reached up, gently brushing his cheek, then her fingers trailed to his lips, they were so soft. She leaned in towards him, placing her lips on his.
Pacey knew that he shouldn't be doing this, letting Joey kiss him. But he had missed her sweet touch all these years. If he wasn't careful, this would become something much more than a kiss. But he couldn't help it. He wanted her so much. He opened his mouth slowly and his tongue met hers. Their tongues moved fiercely against each other's. His hands moved down her body, massaging her back. Her hands were also moving downwards. He soon discovered that she had never put on a bra that morning. He was quickly becoming aroused, and his pants were getting to be quite uncomfortable. Pacey slid one hand between their bodies. He slowly began fondling one of her breasts. Through her shirt he could feel her nipple hardening.
Joey slowly laid back on the bed, pulling Pacey down with her. This felt great. She wanted him so bad. Now that his body was resting on hers, she could feel him against her leg. Their tongues continued to explore each others mouths. Pacey's one hand remained on her breast caressing it gently. His other hand gingerly found its way between her shorts and panties. He massaged her gently and she felt surges flow through her entire body. She clumsily unbuttoned his jeans and slid down the zipper. Before going any further she quickly slipped her hands under his t-shirt and pulled it over his head. She then brought her hand back to his cock. Her mouth moved down his neck and rested on his chest.
Pacey removed his hands from Joey's body only long enough for her to remove his shirt. He had long since stopped thinking about what they were doing. He was doing what felt right. Her lips against his bare chest sent shivers through his body. He suddenly decided that her shirt too needed to come off.
As Pacey attempted to remove her shirt, Joey unwillingly separated from him. He removed her shirt and she pulled him off the bed. She slid his jeans down his legs and he kicked them to the side. Her mouth found his as she hastily removed her own shorts, and then panties while Pacey removed his boxers. Groping each other they fell back onto the bed. Joey desperately wanted to feel him inside of her. She whispered into his ear, "Pacey, I want you."
"I want you too Joey."
"My body aches for you Pacey."
Pacey reached for his nightstand and opened the drawer. He rummaged around until he found what he was looking for. He ripped open the package and Joey helped him roll on the condom. He lowered himself onto her. He entered her with great ease. Joey moaned softly. Slowly and rhythmically he slid himself in and out of her. She quickly matched his pace. Together, they gradually increased the pace.
They were both on the verge of explosion, and Joey couldn't hold it anymore. She began to moan loudly, almost screaming, as he continuously hit the right spot. When she reached orgasm, she quickened the pace, then hollered, vocalizing her satisfaction. At that moment, Pacey released his load as well. Their pace slowed greatly, and then it was over. Pacey slid out of her and rolled over onto the bed. He removed the condom and placed it in the garbage can next to the bed.
Joey cuddled next to him, lying her head on her stomach and rested her head and hand on his chest. "I love you Pacey."
"I love you too Jo."
Minutes later, despite the fact that it was only mid-afternoon, she was sound asleep. Pacey had never understood it. She had always fallen asleep, even if only for a very brief time, after having sex. This gave him time to think though. 'What have I done? She just left her husband. She's vulnerable.' He knew that he should have controlled himself better. This was only going to complicate things. Luckily he'd still had the pack of condoms in the drawer. The guys at the bar had given them to him as a gag gift for his last birthday. He had intended on tossing them, but for some unknown reason had tucked them away in the back of his nightstand instead. Joey getting pregnant was the last thing that they needed.
Joey woke up in Pacey's arms. She felt so good. Then it all came back to her. She had just had sex with Pacey. She was glad that he had thought about protection. They did not need a second illegitimate child, especially since he still doesn't know about the first one.
Pacey stepped out of the bathroom and into his bedroom. He paused in the doorway when he saw Joey leaning over her suitcase, shoving things into it. "Jo, what are you doing?"
"I'm packing."
"I can see that. But why now? Can't you wait until later?"
"But, I'm leaving tomorrow."
"I know, but you still have plenty of time."
"What made you change your mind? Wait, this is about earlier. I'm sorry about that Jo."
"Yes, this is about what happened," Joey paused. "Hold on. You're sorry. Do you regret having sex with me?"
"Jo, no, not at all. I'm just afraid that we moved too fast. I enjoyed everything about it. I told you Jo, I love you."
"I love you too Pacey. I wanted to have sex with you earlier, but if I pack, it reminds me that I have to leave. No matter how much I want to stay.
"I'll come with you."
"No Pacey. I have to go alone. The sooner I get things straightened out in my life, and with Dawson, the sooner we can be together again. This time forever."
"But what if all of this takes forever, and we can't be together?"
"Don't worry Pacey, we will be together again. I promise."
"As long as you promise."
"I do Pacey."
"Let's not think about this now. Get dressed. I want you to meet a friend of mine."
"Okay Pacey."
Later Pacey pulled into the bar's perking lot. Joey's eyes lit up, this was the place she'd been to a few nights before. But she didn't want to tell Pacey that. Pacey got out of the car and walked around to the passenger's side to let Joey out.
"You're such a gentleman Mr. Witter."
"Why thank you." They walked through the door and up to the bar. "Hey Mike. How's it going?"
"Great," he eyed Joey.
"Mike, this is Joey. Joey, Mike."
Mike looked from Joey to Pacey and smiled, "Yes, I believe we've met."
"You have?" Pacey was confused. He looked at Joey for an answer.
"Um, yeah Pacey. I met Mike the other night, when I was drunk. He's a great listener."
Mike smiled again, "So, this is the ex-boyfriend that you still love?"
She laughed and smiled happily at Pacey, "Yes."
"Well, I guess you were right Mike. She does still love me." Pacey smiled and gently kissed Joey.
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