San was growing antsy waiting to see what would arise from the camp. She knew Ashitaka was there and she knew that Kaiya was there, and she wasn't. The girl made San nervous, she was dangerous and irrational. Which was a bad combination and San did not like it.

San looked to the stars and tried to think of other things. Her mind drifted backwards rewinding the day and all the events that had transpired. Then it crossed over into the time just before her daughter Kaiya had died. The girl was so excited to be up and out in the woods, she always was. She found them to be beautiful and intriguing. San hoped she would be the beginning of true acceptance in this world. Sure they were at peace and all was well, but San knew that there were still those who held grudges and wanted more. San was praying the next generation would be a happier one, a truly peaceful and united one. She sound so much like Ashitaka these days, having him around had truly been a blessing.

San leaned forward suddenly has her stomach churned she felt sick all of the sudden. Moving away from Jagar she kneeled in the grass and proceeded to lose all the contents of her stomach. Jagar worried stood over her until she had stopped gagging.

"San what is it, what has happened?" His worried voice rumbled beside her.

"I don't know, I just felt sick suddenly. Oh my stomach." San moaned gripping her now empty stomach which still tossed and turned.

"I should take you back."

"NO!" San stood up abruptly, "I have to wait I need Ashitaka. I need to know he's okay."

"Yes, but?" Jagar began but was cut off.

"I'm staying, no matter what my stomach says." San said determinedly.

"Fine."

At that moment they heard a scream from the camp, or more of a yell. Followed by more screaming which all came from the center of the camp, the largest tent. Then just as suddenly has it had started it stopped. Which meant in some way or another someone had been silenced. This terrified San, Ashitaka could be hurt, or in danger, or both for that matter.

"No more wait-" San went to take off but she was caught with dizziness and proceeded to heave again as she collapse into the grass.

Ashitaka watched Kaiya stand before him for a while, before he was finally willing to speak. "You know I never forgot you. You know I never would have."

"Then why Ashitaka, why" Tears streaming down her face left a crystal trail from her sad eyes to her mouth as she spoke.

"I couldn't come back, it was forbidden. Maybe know after all you have been through the laws of the Emishi have changed or bended, but they hadn't when I left. How was I to know? I would not have been welcomed."

"Liar. You know they would give up anything to have you back. They would have made the exception for you. You were the last of the true princes of our people. You leaving wounded us in a way that will never heal."

"Us, Kaiya, us or you?" Ashitaka stared his sister deeply in the eyes.

"Ashitaka I need my brother. I need our life back the way it was before the demon, the boar god. Before you were cursed, before they said you would die, can't I ever have that again?"

"No."

Kaiya looked at him stunned for his blunt answer, he said with such sureness that made it so real and hard.

"There is no going back to what was and what we had, to much has happened to much has been lost. The Emishi aren't really the Emishi anymore, now they're scavenging wolves, they have lost their identity. I've lost my daughter; I can never have her back. My daughter who shared your name, Kaiya."

"I didn't know."

"That's no reason she was a child, a child you didn't know. No matter whose daughter she was, you should have never had allowed what happened to happen."

Kaiya was dying, Ashitaka could see it. Her eyes where growing cold and hard, whatever of his sister had been left was slowing withering, she was no longer the girl he had grown up with. The sister he looked after. "What you are truly mad about is that you know if you had not been there I may have not been cursed. You're mad because I was protecting you and you lost me."

That's where he lost her for good, he was sure of it. All her guilt, anger, and hatred had molded together into a boiling lunacy that was spilling over.

"YOU FOOL. YOU UNCARING FOOL!" She screamed out at him and ran for the opening of the tent. "CAIN!"

The huge black wolf came to her watching her closely as she approached. "We're going to Iron Town, just us. Ashitaka will suffer the way I have no matter what it takes." Kaiya knew in her mind what she had to do. It was that wolf woman that had done this too him, had made him into the man who was no longer her brother. She was to blame for everything.

Dun dun dunnnnn. I'm so enjoying this. I love this story I feel it's going well. So Kaiya is off to Iron Town to find San, who's really not there, so what will happen next….?

I so suck at this dramatic stuff don't I?

Anyway I'm kind of sorry to say that I think I'm almost done, and yet I'm kind of excited it will be my first finish fanfic, and maybe even my first finished story…hmmm…I don't know. Anyway thanks to anyone who stuck it out and read it. So you know the drill read review, and ……enjoy.

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