-March 24-
I found myself pushing around my food, I was getting a little better about food, I would eat one small meal and not throw it up. But all my other meals I would end throwing up. I looked up from my food and looked out the window. I could see new blades or grass coming through the almost melted snow. Little drops of water were falling from the trees branches, making the noise of falling water. I was happy winter was over, I was always super cold during the winter. The others would always get mad at me for turning up the heater. But they didn't understand how cold I was! It felt like someone would just put a thing of ice on my bones and leave it there, not willing to move it away, just slowly freezing my bones, till I might fall.
I got up from the table and walked over to the window, feeling the cool air coming in from the window crakes, and trying to get its way to my pale skin. I walked away from the window and put on my green and black hoodie that was meant for when it was cold. But it was cold so I could wear it if I wanted to right? I walked over to the heater and turned it up. I turned my head when I heard someone's footsteps on the hard wooden floor. "Sup Numbuh 3?" Numbuh 5 said walking to the kitchen table. "Uh nothing really.." I said while crossing my arms. Geez it was cold in here. "Hmm, so ya want to eat breakfast? I'll make ya somethin'?" I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out...I tried again. Nothing. I gave up and shut my mouth. "Numbuh 5's taken that as a yes." "B-but, I alre-" Numbuh 5 interrupted me as she walked over to the refrigerator and grabbed the carton of eggs. "Aw come on Numbuh 3, ya body needs it." She said as she start to cook the eggs after cracking the shells open. "No really, I'm fine, I just ate some fruit." I lied. Numbuh 5 shrugged. "I don't care, your gonna eat real food." I started to tap my foot against the wooden floor, making a soft tapping sound that only I could hear. "Numbuh 5...fruit is real fo-" "Your eating what I make ya got it?" This time it pissed me off when she cut me off. "Fine! I'll eat it after I get out of the bath okay?!?" I stormed out of the room before she could say anything else too me.
On the way down the hall I ran into a very sleepy Numbuh 4."Ugh, Numbuh 4 why don't you watch where your going?!" Numbuh 4 glared up at my through his blond hair. "Why don't YOU watch who your running into?!" He yelled at me and then pushed me aside making his way down the hall. At first it hurt when he talked back to me but I told myself to just blow him off. I rolled my eyes and went down the stairs, maybe a little too fast, cuz I got kinda dizzy when I was all the way down the stairs. I put my hand on the wooden railing. Closed my eyes trying to get my thoughts together. I opened my eyes and felt a little better. I walked down the hall and entered my colorful room of "Happiness." I walked into my bathroom and flicked on the light. Thinking about how the Darkness scatters for its life when the light turns on. I started my bath water, put the bath bubble stuff in.It makes you smell like berries. When it was a little more then half way full, I shut the water off. These days I was making my bath water alot warmer. Kinda like a hot tub. I took off my clothes and right before I was gonna go into the nice bath water, I saw myself in the mirror. I grabbed the skin that went over my ribs. Thinking about how my fat is just in that little pinch. Getting very upset with myself and grabbed the lipstick my mother would use before going to work.I took it from her a week ago without her knowing...And started to write on the mirror in anger. When I was done I looked at the words of red that went through my mind everyday. It said "Fat Pig" I slammed the lipstick down and turned away from the mirror. I would feel a tear going down my cheek. A tear of sorrow, and pain.
I put my foot in the nice hot water. Then hiding my whole body in the water and bubbles. Now lying down in the water I looked up at the ceiling. I filled my lungs up with air. Feeling myself floating to the top of the water, and hearing my heart beat in my ears. Then I let out all the air in my lungs and could feel myself sink to the bottom of the tub. I put my head under the water then put it back up. Then I grabbed the soap and started to clean my body. After that I cleaned my hair. Washed the stuff out and pulled the plug in the bath tub. Got out and went to grab a towel but remember that I had a necklace on, the one that Wally gave me for x-mas. I went to put my hand on it but didnt feel it there. I was trying to think of where it was. I stood there still dripping wet. But then I could feel my heart almost stop. The bath water....ITS IN THE BATH WATER. I turned my head around so fast I could feel a little pain in my neck, looking at the water draining. "NO!" I screamed and without thinking started to run back the tub. I slipped. I hit my side bone. I could feel the pain wash over me. It hurt like hell. I looked up at the bath tub and started to cry. "NO! DAMMIT! NO!" I screamed as I wept. I grabbed one of my Converses and threw it at the side of the bath tub. I Couldn't get up. My pain was way too much. My necklace was gone now. Down the pipes and probably in gross water. But then I could hear Numbuh 4 voice. "Numbuh 3! Are you okay????" The door started to open. I froze. He walked in, dressed in his hoodie, blue jeans and white shoes. "OH CRUD!" He yelped and stumbled out of the bathroom getting his foot caught and falling on the floor. I would have giggled at that but what he just was, and how fast it happened I was just in shock. He slammed the door and then said "S-sorry, I'm sorry, er, sorry ah didn't mean to wal-er. Are you okay????" I could hear him trying to spit the words out. I could feel my cheeks going red. Why did that have to happen to me?! "Uh..I-I d-don't know...I slipped and fell and my side hurts, I cant get up..." "Well try and get a towel so ah can come in and help you." I reached for the towel I was going to get before I realized my necklace was gone. I grabbed it, pulled it down and wrapped it around my body. "Okay, you come on in now." I said sounding a little pissed. He opened the door and walked in he got down on his knees and asked me where it hurt. I showed him. He slowly helped me up. I could feel the pain all along my leg. But I acted like it didn't hurt that much.
He walked me to my bed. And then went into the bathroom and got my clothed and handed them to me. I took them. "Numbuh 4, the reason I was yelling was because I lost the necklace you got me. I said feeling tears trying to make there way up. "You lost it...? Uh, how?" I set the clothes down and realized I was cold again. "It must have feel off in the bath water, when I was washing my hair.." "Oh..." He said kinda sad. I looked up at him. "I'm sorry really I am...I didn't mean to..." "Oh its okay Numbuh 3....maybe we will get you another one some other time okay..?" I smiled. "Okay. Well um can you leave now so I can get dressed..?" He started for the door. "Oh yeah, see ya Numbuh 3. Oh and just yell…when your hip hurts to much to get up k?" I nodded. "Sure thing." "Well bye." He waved and left my room. When I got up, it did hurt like hell but I thought I should just tough it out, I threw on my clothes and went into the bathroom to brush my hair, but it was so weird...I barely pulled on my hair and the hair I had in my hand fell out. Grossed out I put it in the trash can and started to brush my hair, but all this hair was in the brush. Was my hair falling out?! I shook my head and said it's only a little. After I brush my hair, and threw all my hair loss away and crawled into my covers and put my head down. Mumbling, "Falling snow flake in the winter...falling rain drop in the spring and summer, and falling leaf in the fall..."
Later that night I was called into the main room. I came in and sat by Numbuhs 4 and 5. Are leader looked at me." Numbuh 3...we all wanted to talked about something Numbuh 4 saw in your bathroom today.." I kept my smile on my face and started to wonder whut 4 saw...oh crap, what if he saw how fat I was?? Or, or what if he saw my mirror?! So I thought I should just play stupid.."And what would that be?"
Cliff Hanger. Well there it is. R/R plz!