He loves me, she loves me not
A story by: Ai no Sakura/ Towa no Mirai
Disclaimer: The author does not own the anime/manga series Inuyasha nor the characters from it. They all belong rightfully to Rumiko Takahashi.
A/N: But I do own my own character Sakura Sazuke!
Sakura: Yey! dances happily around, getting weird looks from people
stops in mid-step Heh!
I don't think she'll be in this fic…
IMPORTANT: This is my 1st fic that I consider worthy enough to have a place on the net. The others are unfinished and are probably in the dumpster by now.
This is an AU fic with a great deal of OOCness, but I can't help it that I haven't seen enough Inuyasha episodes. They don't air them here where I live in the brink of tears !
Summary: After their shard hunt is complete and Naraku has been defeated, Kagome tells Inuyasha she doesn't love him anymore. How does Inuyasha cope with this information and whom will he turn to? A story about breaking and mending a heart.
Pairings:
Inuyasha & Kagome
Sesshomaru & Inuyasha (?)
I
didn't remember what Kagome's cat was called. If it's spelled wrong,
don't mind it. Tell me what it is in a review, please. And I'm terribly
sorry for those who didn't like the Inu-Sess part. It is AU, just like I stated above. Terribly sorry non the less...
- Mirai
Kagome lay on her bed in her baby blue pajamas crying softly into her pillow.
/Flashback/
The wind blew slightly making her hair dance behind her softly.
Black met gold for a second, which felt like an eternity, before the gap between them was no longer there.
Inuyasha leaned into Kagome, sniffing her hair and memorizing her scent, before Kagome pulled back from the embrace.
"Inuyasha…" she whispered softly, searching for something in his eyes, he doing the same to hers,
"I have to leave."
He was taken back by that.
"Nande?" he asked, his doggy ears drooping low,
"Why do you have to leave?"
Kagome stared him straight in the eye now, stopping her search.
"Because I don't belong here," she said quietly and cast her eyes to the ground,
"And because… I don't love you anymore."
Inuyasha felt his heart being ripped in two.
"Nande? Itsu?" he asked, almost choking on his own words,
"How long?"
Kagome sighed and hugged herself, then raised her head to see Inuyasha on the brink of tears.
"Inuyasha…?" she whispered, worried about her friend and stepped closer, draping her arms around him,
"Gomen nasai. I'm so, so, so, so sorry."
Inuyasha held onto Kagome as if she was his lifeline.
"Kagome," he choked out, trying to fight back the sobs that were pushing to get out,
"Don't go! Don't leave me! Please don't leave me!"
Kagome stroked his hair, trying to reach for an ear, but it kept moving away from her touch, not accepting it anymore.
"Inuyasha," Kagome sighed and raised his chin so they were face to face,
"You
were my first love and I will never forget you, but I believe this
was never meant to be."
Then coldly she added,
"Not even with the miko Kikyo."
Kagome searched Inuyasha's eyes for a moment then stopped.
"I am really sorry Inuyasha, but I have to leave. My future mate is in my time and yours is right here," she said softly, then placed a kiss on his cheek,
"Thank you for being my friend."
With that she turned on her heels and ran towards the well.
"Sayonara Inu-kun!" she yelled, waving back at him as she ran.
Inuyasha snapped out of the trance he'd been in and sprang after her,
"KAGOME!"
Before he reached the well, Kagome had already jumped in.
"SAYONARA KAGOME-CHAN! AI'SHITERU!" he yelled after her, then sank to his knees and cried onto the cool surface of the well.
What went unnoticed by Inuyasha and Kagome herself was the tear that fell down her cheek, dropping onto the dry sand of the old well.
/End Flashback/
Raising her head slightly to search for the tissue box her mother had brought up to her last night. After finding it and grabbing a piece, Kagome blew her nose.
She'd tried everything to forget the hurtful things she'd said to Inuyasha. Forget the way Inuyasha's voice had gone higher as he'd whined for her to stay.
She knew she had hurt him deeply.
"Inuyasha, I'm sorry… " Kagome cried, burying her head into her pillow again.
She hadn't meant those words she'd said to him. She had wanted to stay in the Feudal era, but she knew she couldn't. Her place was here in the future with her mama, Souta and Grandpa just like Inuyasha's was in the past.
"500 years is too much… Too long…" Kagome mumbled into her pillow between sobs,
"I'm not like you. You have demon blood flowing through your veins and I have none…"
Kagome blew her nose again and grabbed a clean tissue to wipe her eyes.
"I'd grow old and die before you even looked a day older…"
Suddenly there was a knock on Kagome's door and she could hear her mother's voice on the other side.
"Kagome, I've brought you breakfast."
"Come in mama," Kagome replied and got up to open the door for her mother though it wasn't locked.
"Arigato," her mother said with a soft smile as she waltzed into the room with a tray filled with delicious looking dishes.
"Have something to eat, Kagome. You'll feel better."
Kagome made a noise of acknowledgement, nodding her head and sitting slowly onto her bed again. Her mother placed the tray on Kagome's lap, and then took a seat beside Kagome.
They sat there in silence, the only sounds coming from the munching of Kagome chewing her breakfast.
Taking a sip of her orange juice, Kagome glanced at her mother.
"You must be worried, mama…"
Her mother smiled warmly at her daughter.
"Mama always worries about Kagome, but mama also knows that Kagome is old enough to take care of herself."
Kagome nodded her head slightly, finishing what was left of her breakfast.
"I could've come down to eat with Grandpa, Souta and you-"
"Don't worry. Mama is happy to bring breakfast up for Kagome."
Kagome smiled, hugging her mother. Tears started to form in her eyes and she couldn't fight them back.
"Mama… I said such horrible things to Inuyasha…" she started, her voice trembling,
"But I didn't mean them! I just said them so he wouldn't come dragging me back to the past! I still love him…"
Her mother hugged Kagome back, listening to her daughter's sobs and explanation.
"Does Kagome want to know what mama would do?"
Kagome nodded into her mother's chest, sniffling.
"Mama would go back and tell all those things Kagome just told mama."
Kagome shook her head vigorously.
"He'll find me disgusting! I look ugly to him now!"
Mama smiled down at her daughter.
"Kagome has not one ugly speck on her. Kagome has always been perfect, even from the day Kagome was born."
Kagome kept on weeping into her mother's chest and her mother held her until the crying girl fell asleep with tearstained cheeks.
Kagome woke up a couple of hours later feeling much better.
"Good thing it's a holiday… But I need to study for my geometry test… And biology…"
She groaned in frustration.
Walking over to her closet, Kagome searched for something to wear.
She came down to two choices.
"The blue summer dress or the yellow one?"
Trying both on and deciding the blue one looked nicer, Kagome changed into it, and then proceeded to brush her hair.
" I have to go back and tell Inuyasha how I feel… I can't live knowing I've lied to him about my feelings…"
Placing the hairbrush down, Kagome walked down the stairs only to be greeted with her mother.
"Is Kagome feeling better?"
Kagome smiled slightly,
"Hai. Arigato gozaimasu, mama."
Her mother smiled back at her. Bouyo meowed in his croaky voice as Kagome quickly petted his head.
"Ja ne, mama!"
Kagome walked briskly towards the well house.
"I
can't lose this courage now…" she said to herself as she slid
the door to the well house open.
Light filtered into the room
from the doorway where Kagome stood and she dreaded the jump into the
wooden well.
"I- I have to do this… For Inuyasha," Kagome said as she took a few steps closer to the well.
Placing one leg over the edge Kagome breathed in deeply.
"For Inuyasha…" she told herself again as she dropped down into the well.
Flying through the magic, Kagome felt at ease.
But then she thumped onto the bottom of the dried up well 500 hundred years in the past.
Scrambling out of the well Kagome expected to see Inuyasha waiting for her with his usual attitude.
No sign of the inu hanyou.
Kagome got a dreadful feeling, but started walking towards Kaede's village.
When she approached the hut, the only warning she had was a cheerful yell of her name before an orange fur ball had plunged into her arms.
"Konnichiwa Kagome-chan!"
Kagome smiled brightly down at the kitsune kit. Shippo was being his adorable self again.
"Konnichiwa Shippo-"
"Kagome?"
The miko glanced up from the little kitsune in her arms to her two other friends.
"Konnichiwa Sango-chan. Hoshi-sama." Kagome greeted warmly and both of her friends stared at her for a moment.
Shippo was the one to end the silence.
"We thought Kagome would not come back!"
Miroku nodded, speaking in his calm voice,
"Hai, Kagome-chan left so suddenly… We thought Kagome would stay in her own time for good."
Kagome bowed her head in shame, letting Shippo climb down from her arms.
"Gomen nasai… Atashi… Ano.. Wakaranai yo..."
Taking a deep breath to steady her beating heart, Kagome looked her friends straight in the eyes. She would not lie to her friends like she did to Inuyasha.
"The Shikon no Tama has been restored and I have no further purpose here… That's why I'm still going to leave."
Shippo looked up at Kagome with teary eyes.
"What about Shippo, or Inuyasha?"
Sango and Miroku craned their necks left and right,
"Where is Inuyasha anyway?" Sango asked.
"I haven't seen him for two days," added Miroku, receiving a nod from Sango.
Kagome frowned in worry.
"Where could he have gone…?" she whispered to herself as the others contemplated the inu hanyou's whereabouts out loud.
Turning slightly so that she could see the Inuyasha forest, Kagome whispered,
"Inuyasha… Where are you?"
Sakura: Tat-ta-daa! I'm back and wrote another chapter of HLMSLMN! Whoa… That sounds dumb… -.-;
Kagome: cries Where's Inuyasha? Why'd you make me say such things to him?
Sakura: places arm around Kagome's shoulders Life's a bitch sometimes, ain't it?
Kagome: shoots a glare at Sakura and shrugs off arm Especially ever since you decided to write this fan fiction…
Sakura: narrows eyes at Kagome Are you saying it sucks? You want a piece of me!
Kagome: reaches for bow Anything for my Inuyasha…
Sakura: falls to the ground and starts laughing Oh boy! You have no idea how much you looked like Kikyou just now… Hahahahahaha…. !
Kagome: puts the bow away and pouts At least tell me Inuyasha is okay…
Sakura: wipes a tear from eye and gets up, dusting off clothes He's okay. He's having a blast with Fluffy.
Kagome? Who's Fluffy?
Sakura: cracks up again as remembers Inu and Fluffy's argument Sesshoumaru.
Kagome: eyes roll up in head and promptly faints …
Sakura: watches Kagome's unconscious form Whoops! I guess she's a little stressed out… shrugs shoulders I don't have the time for this… starts dragging Kagome away, grumbling under breath
Translations for Japanese words:
Nande: Why
Itsu: When
Gomen nasai: I'm very sorry
Miko: Priestess
Sayonara: Goodbye
Ai'shiteru: I love you
Arigato/ Arigato gozaimasu: Thank you/ Thank you very much
Ja ne: (See you) later
Inu hanyou: Dog half monster/spirit
Konnichiwa: Hello
Kitsune: Fox
Hoshi: Monk
Hai: Yes
Atashi: I (one of the many e.g. Boku, Watashi, Watakushi... It's an alteration of Watashi)
Wakaranai yo: I don't know
Shikon no Tama: Soul Jewel (I cannot remember the exact name for it and it's pissing me off right now... >. !)
Authoress' babble corner
1) Someone pointed out for me that I had a few Japanese words typed wrong.
No in Japanese is IIE not IE (because IE means home...). All I can say is: Whoops! Typo.
But anisan means older brother. I've checked it from an Online Japanese- English Dictionary, and two English-Japanese-English dictionaries (books) and all of them have stated that anisan means older brother. So I didn't make a typo.
But I think you can also use Oniisan... But I think that means 'your brother'. I'm not sure about that though...
2) This story was supposed to be a one-shot. Damn you readers for begging another chapter... Nah, I don't mean that.
I liked writing this chapter. I got to clear Kagome's character a little. She sounded totally stupid and OOC in the first chapter. I think Kagome's nice, but an airhead sometimes. She's not in my "anime girls to kill" list like Kagura (IY), Kaoru (Rurouni Kenshin) and Rei (Neon Genensis Eva) are. ;
I have no idea about this stories future... If enough people want a new chapter I'll write more, but I have no plot twists in mind yet. This stories survival depends on you readers... A new reason to review!
And oh! If you want to read my other Inuyasha fan fic, go to and find the stories under Ai no Sakura.
That'd be moi.
Anyway, I'm out. Peace.
- Mirai (aka Sakura)