Summary:Ginny is still in love with Harry but tries to hide it from him along with the many secrets that she holds. Convinced Sirius is not dead, she searches from him and for ways to help Harry finally defeat Voldemort, even if he doesn't know about what really is going on

Disclaimer- The Potter universe belongs to J. K. Rowlings, and Jacque belongs to me, so do Kate and Karen.

Caillion- Thank you for reviewing. Yes, there is more to the robe clasp, chapter nine will have the main clue, but everything ties up in the end. Lol, if only I had those photographs.

Ocean-Poweress- Thanks. Yes, I know they are OOC, but it's only for this story, we could pretend, right?

A/N: Despite my requests the number of reviews went down from 4 to 2. Needless to say, I'm a little sad, so make me happy and REVIEW! Um…I also need a beta reader…anyone interested?

Chapter 6: Old friends and Diaries… Remedies for heartaches.

The summer went by quickly and soon I found myself on the train. I had sat with my friends and caught up with them for the first half of the ride when I had found out to my surprise and pleasure that Neville and Luna had gotten together during the summer. Hermione came after her rounds as prefect and asked me to sit with her claiming there was too much testosterone to handle in the other compartment.

I honestly don't know why she told me to come, they didn't even talk to me. Mione and Ron fought while Harry stared out of the window looking depressed, so I took to reading the book on muggle biology Dumbledore had asked me to study.

The compartment door opened. We clutched our wands thinking that it would be Malfoy, but to our surprise Cho Chang walked in. My heart fell as Harry's eyes lit up and a smile graced his face. I picked up my book again trying to ignore the scene in front of me.

Cho smiled at Harry, "Hey Harry."

He smiled back shyly and returned her greeting quietly.

She blushed and said, "Do you think I could talk to you for a few minutes, privately?"

He blushed and nodded leading her out of the compartment. By now Ron and Hermione's bickering had stopped completely and the three of us just looked at each other, none of us really liked her. I always hated her, not only because of Harry, but because she was always mean to people who were not popular or the people who didn't follow her around like little lap dogs.

Harry came back after a few minutes, his face glowing. My heart broke into little pieces He was going out with her.

Ron looked up at him, "So...you're with her now?"

He grinned at us, the three of us forced smiles and Ron said, "That's great mate." I knew he was only doing this for Harry's happiness, and I knew I would be taking this only because of that too. I swallowed the lump in my throat and turned back to the book but never really understood what I was reading.

The sorting started out normally, but we came to know that there were some students who had moved from the states. Their school had been destroyed by a death eater attack and they had been sent to different schools. I watched a boy with hazel brown hair and bright blue eyes, I just couldn't place it but I knew I had seen him somewhere. First came a pair of twins who seemed to have the cheekiest grins, well, apart from Fred and George.

"Andrews, Katherine" announced Prof. McGonagall as one of the twins made her way to the sorting hat. She had barely put the hat on the head and the hat shouted "GRYFFINDOR!"

The same happened for her sister "Andrews, Karen"

My mouth fell open when I heard the next name, "Gaudette, Jacque" The handsome boy went over and the sorting hat shouted out, "RAVENCLAW!" I let out a breath I had been holding. What is he doing here? no, he can't just be here! Oh my god! Oh my god! Kill me now please! Ok, Ginny stop. You're hyperventilating!

"Gin, you okay?" Colin was looking at me with concern. My chest constricted painfully. Old best friend Jacque, meet new best friend Colin! OH Merlin! I nodded slightly.

He grinned at me, "He's cute isn't he?" I smiled at him weakly, thinking I guess, but he didn't look very good during our fight

"Hey Gin," Ron's voice called out to me

"What is it Ron?"

He looked at me thoughtfully, "Isn't that your friend the one who went to America? It's him isn't it, Jacque Gaudette…"

"Yes Ron, it is him."

"How come you didn't talk to him for so long?"

I gritted my teeth not wanting to replay the unpleasant memories, "It's not any of your business Ron!"

He stared at me as did the rest of them, "Okay, god! tou-chy!"

Colin turned to me, "He's a friend of yours?"

"I haven't talked to him for five years." He opened his mouth to say something but I gave him a look and he promptly shut it. Hermione, Dean, Parvati, Seamus, Neville, and Harry all looked at me questioningly. I ignored them and looked away only to see Jacque staring at me. I couldn't take it anymore and I got up and walked out of the great hall.

The doors banged open and Jacque came out panting, "Ginny…"

"Yes, Gaudette, what do you want?"

"Gin, please." How dare he call me Gin! Okay maybe we were wittle kiddies and it was a stupid fight, but 5 years and he didn't write even once to apologize…

"Ginny, it's been 5 years, what I said was wrong, I know. I was no better than a death-eater. But, Ginny, I was 10 years old! My parents are dead Ginny, they're gone He had them killed. Because I refused to join"

My heart broke when I heard my former best friend say that. I felt bad. No one should lose their parents no matter how bad the parents were. I went up to him and hugged him. I knew somehow it was the truth.

"Thank you" he whispered. I nodded in fear that I would start crying, his eyes also held unshed tears.

"Friends?" he asked quietly.

I smiled and said, "Always."

That was one of my favourite days. A few days after Colin, Jacque and I became a very close trio. I told him everything I had told Colin and instead of having one best friend, I had two. I was happy.

A few weeks went by and Colin and I were sitting in the common room and talking. It had turned out that Jacque too was gay. Not only that, he was attracted to Colin. I already knew Colin had a crush on him and to tell the truth I couldn't be happier for anyone.

Colin was giddy with happiness and he kept on gushing about his new boyfriend, I listened and rolled my eyes, but he didn't mind because there was a smile on my face that refused to go. He knew I was happy for them.

He had told the rest of our friends about him and Jacque. The girls giggled over how cute they were while the guys just grinned and patted him on the back, while he prattled on about the relationship blushing.

We all looked up as the portrait opened to let Remus Lupin in. He looked tired, exhausted as a matter of fact. He came over to us and said, "Excuse me, but I just need to borrow Ms. Weasley for a minute." I stood up and walked away with him. From the corner of my eye I could see my friends and the golden trio staring at us.

"Hey, how are you feeling?"

He smiled softly, "Tired, as usual. But don't worry."

I shook my head, "You need someone Uncle Moony. Tell Tonks how you feel about her. She is working here as the DADA teacher. And don't tell me it's too complicated. It's not. "

"No, I can't Ginny, please there isn't time for this!" He threw up his hands and I made a noise to let him know I was irritated.

He sighed in defeat, "Red, I know you want the best for me, tell you what I'll think about it. That's all I can promise. Now listen to me carefully, I need you to study these books whenever you get time and there's a diary there too. You need to write in it. I want you to practice from the others during training. Start tonight, but start with the diary first, I'll be in Dumbledore's office till 8 if you need anything."

With that he turned and left. I went and sat down with my friends.

Ron hollered across the room, "Oy, Ginny, what did Remus say?"

"Nothing concerning you." I shouted back and he scowled at me. I saw Mione smirk and my attention shifted to Harry Potter who was sitting whispering in the ear of CHO CHANG! What is she doing in the Gryffindor common room? That's so unfair! She's the one who told Michael he couldn't take me into the Ravenclaw common room! That little-

"Um...Gin…" I head Colin say as I came out of the little bit of ranting in my head.

I smiled sweetly at him and said, "Yes?"

He cocked one of his eyebrows, "Sweetie, are you okay?"

"Yes, Col I'm fine." I sighed.

"If you say so. Say love, why do you have professional healer books?"

"Interest." I looked away, and he got that I didn't really want to talk about it.

I kept hearing giggling and kissing sounds from Harry and Cho and I couldn't take it anymore. I was going to bed.

Samantha looked at me worriedly, "but it's only eight, are you feeling alright?" Sam's a real sweetheart. She's a year younger than us, but we all like her and get along with her.

I smiled at her, "Yup, I'm fine. I just need some quiet to get some stuff done." I picked up my stuff and went to my dormitory.

I didn't bother to change, I sat down on my bed and opened the diary.

25th September

Finally! I've made it to my 5th year! I can't believe Uncle Moony is making me write in a diary, I can't believe I agreed to.

Hello Ginny, I'm glad you listened to Remus.

The ink came automatically in a different colour. I shut the book quickly and memories flashed through my brain…

"Ginny, don't worry, I'm here. Tom's here, I'll help you get Harry's attention…Ginny, you are a very pretty girl. Don't let those girls tease you. I'll help you get revenge…"

"Tom I woke up with feathers and blood on me, what am I doing Tom?…Tom, I'm scared, I don't remember what I was doing last night. I can't remember doing anything…Oh Tom! Hermione was petrified today! I think I did something to hurt her, Penny and Colin…Tom, am I evil?"

"Sweetheart, don't worry, you're doing just fine…just fine."

"You bitch! You're nothing. You naïve, stupid girl, Potter doesn't love you. You're going to do as I say, you're going to kill him!"

"No, tom, you can't make me, not Harry."

"By the time I'm done with you, you would wish you had never been born…"

The diary…meeting Tom for the first time…him touching me…The screaming…The chamber…everything rushed to my head.

I got up and ran down and out the portrait hole, without saying anything to anyone, ignoring the people calling to me. Tears streaming down my face.

I ran to Dumbledore's office. Bursting through the door I threw the diary at the head of Remus Lupin.

"Bloody Hell! Ginny!" I lunged at him, but Tonks caught me and surprisingly was not clumsy at all.

"Let me go! How dare you! You bastard! I hate you! How could you do something like this to me?"

"Miss Weasley!" I heard Dumbledore's voice sharply call out to me. "Please control your temper, I understand it was a shock but I thought it was better if you discovered on your own" He turned to everyone else in the room, "I think we should end the meeting now. Remus if you could stay while I speak with Miss Weasley."

Remus nodded and looked at everything but me.

When everyone left Dumbledore explained that the person who was writing was no memory and definitely not Tom Riddle it was…

"…It's Lily Potter, Harry's mother"

"What! She's DEAD!"

Remus looked at me sadly, "That she is, but she was a smart girl, she found a loop hole. She can communicate with only one person and only through that diary. She created a spell before going into hiding, she told Sirius and me about it, just in case something did happen to them. She left this diary with me. When she chose the person she wanted to talk to, the name would appear on the cover and it did, see."

He held up the red journal and I saw my name glittering on it in gold letters. "With what you're going through, it's always a good idea to think about having a guide. Just someone you can talk to about anything, from your abilities, to your clases, friends, crushes, just anything. So sort of like a diary, but you don't only need the person to listen, but also to give you advice, on things that you would usually feel awkward talking about.

The thing is, Lily knows about your entire life, she can see all that you do, so that makes things easier and since she's a woman, she probably understands you better than Snape or I. We thought that you might want her as a guide for these reasons. The decision would obviously be yours. But we want you to think about it. All I want to say is that give Lily a chance, Sirius wasn't joking when he said you were like her, so she will understand you better than anyone. Even if you decide you don't want her as your guide, please talk to her. You are the only one who can"

I nodded mutely trying to let all of that sink into my brain.

Dumbledore actually grinned at me! "Fabulous! Miss Weasley I must tell you, you are a true Gryffindor to face your fears like this. I'm sure you will find a confident in Mrs. Potter. You can come to us whenever you have questions."

I smiled weakly at them as Remus handed back the diary. I nodded a goodbye went back to the common room.

As soon as I went back, a red faced Ron shouted at me, "WHY DIDN'T YOU ANSWER US WHEN WE WERE TALKING TO YOU?"

I shot back at him, "Ron if you had eyes you would have seen that I was in a hurry."

"Oh I did notice you fly out of the room alright"

"So, you were just too daft to figure out that it had something to do with something more important than anything you could say?" I asked matter-of-factly.

"And what was this important thing?" He demanded. I have very stupid gits for brothers! Maybe I got all the brains…

"Whatever it was, it certainly wasn't any of your business. No I'm going to go up and read before I go to bed. Goodnight!" I stormed up to the dormitory and jumped into my bed drawing the curtains around me. I lit the lamp and opened the diary.

Hello again Ginevra

Umm…could you call me Ginny?

Of course.

Thanks. So…

Yes, so…well, I guess I have a few things to explain. What Dumbledore said about me being able to see all of you is true. Though I think Remus is a little fuzzy on the details of this diary. Please don't freak out when I say this. I had created a charm so that the girl who suited Harry the best.

Truthfully, I am glad that it's you, because from what I've seen you're a wonderful person. You are kind, generous, loving, strong, beautiful and intelligent. I'm sorry if I am embarrassing you, but it is true. Plus you seem to understand him the best and have been able to put him in his place and always stood by him. I wanted to thank you for everything that you and your family have done for him.

That's okay, you don't really need to thank us. I'm sorry Mrs. Potter, but could I ask you a question?

Of course you can. But please don't call me Mrs. Potter, call me Lily.

Okay. Umm…So, even if I am best suited for Harry it doesn't mean we like each other. And he is with Cho. What is the chance we will end up together? So why would you do this?

I didn't think of that when I put the charm. I've always believed that the best suited would end up together. Believe it or not, I used to hate James in school. But we were best suited and we did end up together and loved each other very much. As for Cho, I really don't like her. Harry will see that, hopefully it will be soon. The Potter men have always been a bit thick, but they get their act together in the end. I of course would love to see the two of you dating. And I think your mother would too.

Oh, mum's been planning our wedding since I was 10.

Ginny, you know even if you don't want me as your guide you can talk to me about anything. You can use this diary as a normal diary and rant anytime you want. Alright?

Alright. But the truth is that I would be honored to have you as my guide, I would definitely need one with my condition and all."

That's true. I would love to be your guide. I really think we're going to have a lot of fun!

Lily, thank you.

For what?

Everything, I really appreciate this.

It's all right Sweetie, you don't need to thank me. It's pretty late now, why don't you go to sleep. We'll talk later, and don't worry about anyone reading this, it's also charmed so that it looks like you've been taking notes from healer books, if anyone asks, just say you are thinking of becoming a healer after Hogwarts.

Okay, thanks again Lily, Good night!

A/N: sorry to all those who do like Cho, I just don't see a relationship between her and Harry working out.

There's a little purplish button bellow this that is screaming, "Click me! click me!" Poor thing. Don't you feel bad for it? No one clicks it anymore. Hint! Hint!