Two Halves

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Chapter 5: Another first date

Beast Boy stood in front of the bathroom mirror, checking himself over. He was wearing a red T-shirt with the words "American Eagle" written in black on the front on the front, a pair of blue jeans, and white sneakers. Top that off with a shower, brush of the teeth, and styling his hair back with some of Robin's hair gel and he was set. Well, not entirely set.

"Here we go," he said to his reflection in the mirror. "Tonight, we find out the true. Does Raven like me or like like me."

He could feel his heart racing even though he hadn't stepped out the door yet. He was about to go out on his first date in a very long time. The last time he had been out on a date was with Terra. She had nearly killed the team and had betrayed their trust. Even if he did forgive her as she was now gone, he still felt like she wasn't the one. Then there was Raven. Even then, he still looked at her with a sort of admiration. Even when he didn't know much about her, he trusted her. And now he was going to find out more about this girl. He wanted the night to go perfect. He wasn't going to let this get messed up.

He backed away from the mirror and clapped his hands together. He was surprised to find that they were covered with water, as he had all ready dried his hands off. It was then that he realized that his hands were drenched in sweat. He quickly grabbed the towel off the rack and dried then off.

"Calm down. It's just me and Raven," he said as he put the towel back on the rack. Yep, just me and Raven. The nice Raven. The kind Raven. The hot Raven. The Raven who jumped him a few hours ago and tried to kiss him. The Raven whom he called Angel.

"Just give it a rest all ready," he said. His mind finally calmed down. Pretty much he was going to let his worship for Raven get make him screw up.

"It's not worship. It's just some positive things about Raven," BB remained himself. A lot of positives. Giving off one last deep breath, he opened the door and walked down the hallway. No sooner had he turned a corner that he came face to face with Robin.

"Hey, Robin," BB said.

"Hey Beast Boy. Were you using my hairgel?"

"Yeah, sorry. I needed it," he replied. (As you care. I'm the one who's going to get Raven first. What the hell was that?)

"For what?"

"I'm…going…somewhere with someone. It's very important."

"All right. You're going with you?"

"Just someone."

"Fine," Robin said as he walked down the hall. He then added, "Have fun on your date," and then disappeared behind the corner.

BB stopped dead on the spot. (Date? Was it that obvious? Well, I guess. But does he know its Raven? The little shit better not. Whoa there. Did I just consider Robin an enemy against me getting Raven? God, what is wrong? It is my decision. It's all up to Raven.)

He once again calmed himself down and walked down the hallway. And somewhere in the back of his head, his true feelings were praying that Raven picked him.

"I hope this night turns out right. For the both of us," Raven said as she two looked in the mirror. She was wearing a black sleeveless tee, tight black jeans, and black low tops. She was giving her hair a quick combing and was thinking over what was going on tonight.

(Where are we going? Knowing BB, probably some tofu place. But it could be something different. Or maybe not. He at least better look nice. Not that he does. I mean, change into something good to look at.)

She put her brush down and started at herself I the mirror. She was worried just as BB. Unlike him, this was her first date with one of the team members. Not only that, it was something she liked. At least, she thought he did. Her feelings were now starting to build up even greater then they had previously been. And in time, she believed that they would be revealed.

(But what about BB? Does he like me back? Or does he care, or still does, for someone else) she thought.

That was another point to make. Even if she told him, would BB be the same? She didn't know if she could take a no. She thought she could. They would still be friends. But that one part for her was looking like it would be hurt. And if was a yes, then what then? Would they be together?

"I don't know yet if these feelings are true or not. It all depends."

On what? All on BB? Was he the one person who could help here truly understand her feelings towards him?

As these questions poured into her head, she had no idea that she wasn't alone.

Of all the feelings a human being harbors, love is quite confusing. Sure, it can make one feel alive, happy, and glad that they are wanted. But there is still a dark side to this path. The need of want becomes great. Too great. At times, it can become overwhelming. And then, when it seems that your need is at risk of being shattered, you then do things. Things that one never wanted to do; thought of and never wanted to actually partake in. But when that overwhelming desire is starting to die out, the action is taken. And this feeling was in the case of Love, who was hiding out, in the darkest corner of the room, watching Raven look over herself in the mirror with anger on her face.

Such a foreign feeling it was to this one who harbored nothing but love and yet it felt so right. She watched this girl change into those clothes that should be worn by her. She watched as she prepared herself for a date she should be going on. After all, she was the embodiment of Raven's love. Her feelings were BB was all ready full established. But no, not this Raven. This Raven was still unsure. Guess that what comes when one's mind establishes new feelings and trashes the old ones.

(Enjoy it while you can,) Love thought as she watched Raven stand in front of the mirror. BB was rightfully hers, she thought. She loved him more then this one did. And if she let her go, then he would love this Raven. Love would then be without purpose as a new being. And what good would that do? She wasn't going to take it anymore. Life without meaning would be too much to bear. The other would think things over, but her's was a one shot deal. The only thing standing between her and BB was this Raven.

Crouching low to the ground, she rose up her right hand and held it flat out. Black energy formed around it and took a razor edge appearance. She smiled as she looked at this weapon she had crafted. In rapid-fire secession, the next events would play out. Her energy would propel her enough to reach Raven before she could react. She would slice her bladed hand along the throat; feeling the flesh peeling away and watch the blood spurt out like a geyser. Raven's body would then crumple to the ground. Her eyes would look up at her double who would then impale her in that conflicting heart of hers, ending her troubles. Love would then smile as Raven's eyes rolled over, revealing expressionless whites and her body would be nothing more then a hallow shell. Then she would dispose of the body, clean up, change into something other then the robes she wore on her that always reminded her of the original, and then her and BB would be of. As for the future, well, she could see the two of them in harmony, her rightful feelings over the unsure ones of this Raven. Everything would then be a peace.

She had to task her chance. She bent down on her legs, blade hand at the ready. This was it. BB would be her's. Raven would never do anything to try and destroy her goals. Love would always conquer. She was going to be the one BB one. She was going to strike when…

Nothing happened.

The image was still there, yet she wasn't carrying it out. She tried moving her arms and legs, but that felt like iorn braces had been cast onto them. And all the while, Raven's back was turned to her, unaware of her presence. Had she sensed her? Was she using a field of some kind of stop her? No, for if that was true, then Love would have sensed another outside force. It must be her. But why? She had the motivation, she had the will, and she was ready. But what was holding her back? All she cold was watch and think as Raven then turned towards her door, opened it up, and exited her room.

As the door closed behind Raven, Love's muscles suddenly unfroze. She was so surprised at this that she had to brace herself with her hands as she fell. As she sat now on the floor, a million questions poured into her brain. Why couldn't she do it? Why did she hold back? Why didn't she begin the path to a life filled with happiness?

She rose up the hand that had previously been the intended murder weapon. She curled it into a fist, along with her other hand, and pounded the two on the floor. She wanted to scram so badly, least she risk revealing herself. Hot tears began to run down run from her eyes and drip onto the carpet. Was she to just stand by and watch Raven be with her love? It wasn't fair. She was the one who harbored the most love for him. And her? Her? She could laugh at how unsure Raven was on the issue. She could so much as not love him. Then he wouldn't love her and that would be no good. But what if she did? Sure, Love could kill her anytime and replace her with BB. Yet she could freeze again as she did have? And then it would be just an endless string of attempt killings as she watched Raven and BB become so close.

(Is this it?) She thought. (Am I just to watch Raven take what I desire? I may be of her love, yet hers is undecided. Mine is right to the point. If I can't have it, then what? Is my destiny not to occur? Is the purpose I seek to be unfilled? If so, then what will become of me? Can I ever love someone as much as him?)

She then summoned a black vortex and began to shank into it, as her questions still remained unanswered. Right before she fully entered it, her mouth uttered seven words. She didn't know why she exactly said them. They both filled her heart with joy and anger. Even so, these words still emitted from her mouth as clear as day: "Take good care of her, Beast Boy."

Speaking of Beast Boy, he was still in his dilemma as he stood in front of the entrance, his back to the stairs. He twiddled his thumbs as he thought of the night to come. It would be him and Raven. No one else. Just the two of them. Only-

"Will you quite it? I've gone over this a million times. There is nothing to worry about," BB said.

He couldn't believe that he was still a mess. The date was going to be fine. Dinner, then maybe a walk. And then…he didn't know. Tonight was going to be full of surprises. He may even learn a few things that he really wanted to know. Then again, maybe not. He was, however, going to find out how Raven really feel about him.

"You ready," Raven asked from behind him.

He turned around and couldn't believe his eyes. He had never seen Raven in anything other then her regular attire. And now, seeing her in street clothes, he saw once again how beautiful she was.

"Wow," he uttered suddenly.

"Excuse me?" Raven asked.

"Eh…I mean…you look nice," he replied.

Raven blushed at the compliment and said," Thank you."

(You're not so bad yourself, you God) she then thought. (What?) She immediately shook it out of her head, with disbelief that she nearly said that. (Not now. I mean…forget it)

"So, what's the plan?" she asked.

"I now a sub place down by Boulevard Lane," he replied.

"Sounds nice," Raven replied.

"If we fly, we can get there in a few minutes."

"Forget it. I know a better way," she said as she walked towards him.

"What do you mean?" he asked.

Smiling at his confusion, she took his hand in hers. The two of them then sunk into a think darkness. When light finally returned to them, the two were across the street from the restaurant that BB had talked about.

"You were right," he stated.

"Well, I told you so," she replied.

"Hey…Raven," BB said with a sort of shakiness in his voice.

Raven began to ask him what the matter was, but then looked down to see she was still holding his hand, her grip now becoming tighter. She let go of his hand as the two blushed once again.

"You want to head in now?' BB asked.

"Sure," Raven said. The two quickly began walking towards the spot, hoping to put that behind them for now. But the two of them were wishing that they had held on for a little bit longer.

The restaurant was typical of any one restaurant: walls were off white, booths against the walls, and a counter for ordering food that showed the inside of the kitchen. BB and Raven walked up to the counter and a middle aged man with a thick beard asked for their orders. BB ordered vegetarian and Raven ordered a chicken one. The two of them then sat down in a booth near the counter and waited for the orders.

"Any real reason you chose chicken?" BB asked.

"Because it's good," Raven replied.

"Well, you're eating something I change into."

"Are you saying you're proud to be called a chicken?"

"Hey, a chicken does have benefits."

"I take it clucking like hell is a useful trait."

BB then smiled and said," It pisses off Cyborg when I do it when he tries to sleep, so I guess you could say it has its advantages."

Upon hearing this, Raven smiled and then, surprisingly, let out a small giggle.

"You laughed?"

Raven quickly said, "I didn't laugh."

"Yes, you did."

"Well, maybe so. But…you're still not funny," Raven finished the end of the sentence with a sort of awkwardness to it.

In response, BB smiled and said," At least I have proof."

Then came the silence. For about five minutes, BB and Raven couldn't really decide on what to say. They only had one question to ask each other. But it was always halted before they could open their mouths. All they could do was just look around the room. Finally, the silence was getting to BB. (This is stupid. I have to ask her at least something I want to know.) Out of his mouth then emitted, "What do you think of Robin?"

Raven looked at him with confusion on her face. He just asked her what she thought about Raven. Damn it! He really messed up this time. She's probably going to talk about how great he is, how nice he is to her, and how much cute he is. And then this date would be a train wreck. He really screwed up this time. Sure, he wanted to know that, but now he was once again unsure if he really anted to go through with it.

"Well…I…guess he's a nice guy. I mean, he watches my back, being my friend and all. I mean, he's just a nice guy," Raven stated.

BB let out a silent shot of victory in his mind. He was just a friend. Only a friend. It was better then winning a Moped.

"Why did you ask me that?" Raven asked.

Now here was the problem. She wanted a response. He only had one. He really wasn't sure if he was ready to say it. But, what if he didn't get another change? It was now or never.

"Well…it's…I-"

"Number 17! Your order is ready!" the man behind the counter yelled.

"I must go get our order," BB said.

He grabbed the two subs and the two once again sat down in silence, eating their meal. And all the while, BB was cursing under his breath at holding back.

After the meal, BB proposed to go for a walk in the park. Raven agreed and the two of them found themselves walking down the pathway. The moon was nothing more then a silver sickle in the sky. The trees and grass were blanketed in the darkness. Lampposts provided beacons of light for navigating through this landscape. A cool breeze could be felt against their bodies. And just like the restaurant, they barley talked to one another.

(This has been a complete screw-up.) BB thought as they continued to walk. They hadn't even talked to each other, he probably blew telling her how he felt about her, and this walk had probably no meaning at all. This as turning out to be the worst night of his life. He had to get it out. But how? He turned his head to the side and looked at the girl walking next to him. How was he going to tell her? This girl who mesmerized him all of a sudden. The girl who acted cold but was kind. The girl who looked so-

"Beautiful," he said without thinking.

Raven stooped and turned to him. "What?" she asked.

"I mean…the night…it's a beautiful night," he shot out. He could now she that Raven was looking at him with a look saying, 'Are you crazy?' "Look, I guess that you're not having a good time."

"Not really. I'm having a great time," Raven said, trying to cheer him up.

"You're not. I haven't been on a date since the one I had with Terra (he could feel himself cringe at saying that name) and I really haven't been out in a while. So, there."

Raven then walked over a park bench on the side of the path and sat down on it. She used her hand and motioned over to BB to join her, which he did.

"Is there a something you want to tell me?" Raven asked.

"Maybe," he replied.

"Come on, Beast Boy. I mean, you haven't talked to me in a while, you try to avoid me a lot, and now, going on this date, you wanted to know what I thought about Robin. What's going on?"

(I better do this carefully) BB thought. He then cleared his throat and said," Ever since Trigon's fall, I just have been feeling weird around you."

"How do you mean?"

"I've been thinking about you. At night. A lot."

"That explains your sleep deprivation."

"Pretty much. Every time I think about that night, when we nearly lost you, I think of how close we were. How close I was. For a while, I've been worried. I just think that you shouldn't be hurt again due to everything you've been through."

"Beast Boy, its okay for you to be worried about me. But you don't have to stress about it. Because of you and everyone else, I was able to defeat my father and we were able to save the world. I don't know what my come, but I'll be fine if you and everyone are by my side. Don't worry so much."

"But I can't stop it. And now, I feel like things are just getting strange between us. And then today when you tried to kiss me-"

"Excuse me?" Raven asked.

"You tried to kiss me today and then you gave me the idea to take you out on a date," BB repeated.

"I was in my room the whole say going over my books," Raven replied.

"But that doesn't make sense. You were in front of me, dressed in a violet cloak and leotard, and-"

"Did you say violet?"

"Yes."

Raven face then suddenly broke out in a cold sweat and he shot straight up from the bench. "Oh crap, oh crap, oh crap!"

"What?' BB asked as he walked over to her.

"No time. We have to go now!" she yelled. She grabbed BB hands once again and the two plunged into darkness.

What is Raven so nervous about? Does it involve the other Ravens? What have they done? Chapter 6 is coming soon.