Sorry it took so long. I'm running low on ideas and I'm going to move soon. Pressure is not good for my brain. I think I might have killed the good story that got so many good reviews... Please try to enjoy it anyway.

Disclaimer : I Do Not Own Yu Yu Hakusho (But I'm saving money!)

Every Rose Has It's Thorns

Chapter Four : You Love Me, You Destroy Me

Normal POV

Hiei still laid in his bed, wide awake. Botan's action confused him to the point where he couldn't sleep. This really bothered him, why did he care so much? Was she making him soft? He tossed and turned. Bored once again, he traveled to the ferry girl's room. He didn't know why he came here, nor did he care, he went in without knocking. The room was pretty much empty, only a desk, a closet, and the bed she was sleeping on filled the room. Hiei approached the sleeping ferry girl and found her in a state of distress. Wondering why she was in such a position, he put his hand over her forehead and began to activate his jagan. Her mind was a little difficult to penatrate, but after a while, he got in easily.

He appeared in a regularly style home. Perhaps that of a ningen. There was a ningen woman and a ningen man, both doing normal things. 'Why would the onna be upset about this?' A girl came down the stairs, phasing right through Hiei.

"Morning mom, morning dad." The girl spoke before taking a piece of toast from the plate and crunching into it.

"Morning Botan-chan." Both her parents replied, happy with her presence.

"Where's aneue(1)?" The girl, Botan, said without much adherence to her parents.

"I'm right here Botan." Another girl came into the picture. Instead of having light cerulean hair, she had midnight blue hair. Though her eyes were the same shade as Botan's, they seemed different. Colder, bolder. Botan smiled widely and greeted her. "Good morning oka-san, otou-san." They nodded to her without much care and she frowned a bit.

"Today's your birthday, isn't it Botan-chan!" The mother exclaimed happily.

"Why yes, it is!" The father answered her. "Come home after school right away so you can have your party." He smiled. Botan smiled back. "You too Ren." Ren didn't show any concern.

"I'm going." Ren took her school bag and left the house without another word.

"Aneue! Wait for me!" Botan ran after her and disappeared from behind the door. Hiei continued to watch, what he figured was, Botan's past without knowing Botan was watching too.

Botan's POV

Hiei sat there watching the piece of my times of yore. Though this was only a piece of it, it was important. It was the day of my birth, and also the day of my death. The dream sky became dark, indicating it was nighttime in the fantasy world. I watched without a word. The young Botan happily chatted amongst her friends at the party her parents threw for her. Her sister tapped her on the shoulder, ushering her to follow. Botan listened without question, fully trusting her beloved sibling.

"Aneue, you want to give me my gift?" The ningen Botan asked Ren, happiness dancing in her eyes. They were in a dark room alone. I smiled and remembered why I loved Ren's gifts. They were always surprising and I simply adored them. It didn't matter what she gave me, as long as it came from Ren, I loved it.

"Hai, Botan." She said in a somber way, though she had a smile on. A smile that forever haunted my mind, slowly changing me inside.

"What's wrong, aneue?" Ningen Botan approached Ren and felt her forehead. "Are you sick?"

"Happy birthday, Botan." Ningen Botan's eyes went wide. She felt her stomach, the source of the piercing pain. After realizing it was blood on her hand, she collapsed to the ground. I glanced at Hiei, whose were also wide eyed. I watched as Ren went to her side slowly.

"Aneue...?" Botan beamed when catching a glance at her sister's face. "Thank you. I love it..."

"Botan.." Ren's face never faltered.

"I'm glad, that if I die, it's because of Ren! I love you, aneue." Ren also faintly smiled. Her eyes, for the first time, danced with a bit of happiness.

"I love you, too, imouto-chan.." Botan coughed up some blood and felt Ren's face.

"It's so dark, aneue... I can hardly see you..." She shut her eyes and never opened them again. I remembered everything. How much I loved Ren, how much the knife hurt, and how joyful I was because I had made Ren happy. I always loved her, even after she killed me. I loved her more than my parents and maybe even more than myself. But most of all, I loved her eyes. Those striking amethyst orbs that spoke beyond words. I always guessed, in her own way, Ren loved me too. She loved me as much as she hated me, which I thought, was a lot.

Hiei's POV

I broke myself from her dream when I realized the onna was there too. I thought ferry girl's weren't allowed to remember their past, so this puzzled me. She woke up and glared at me a bit.

"Who gave you permission to enter my mind?" She asked bitterly.

"Hn. I did." I growled back at her. She softened a bit, and so did I. It was strange how her mood changed, but I, sort of, got used to it.

"So you saw it, huh?" She fiddled with her blanket.

"..."

"I really did adore her..." She said in a sort of dreamy way.

"She murdered you..." The amount of detest in my voice surprised me. She smiled that chilling grin.

"She allowed me to rest." She corrected me and I growled, boiling with rage for some reason.

"You can call it whatever you want, but it will always be murder." I left her room, not wanting to hear her response to my remark. I would always remember her eyes when she spoke about her sister. Those picturesque orchid tinged irises filled with nothing but pure affection. I couldn't help but feel... jealous.

Botan's POV

I watched Hiei leave my quarters, not allowing me to comment about what he said to me. I lied back on my bed, my mind tracing back to Ren. I never realized just how... messed up I really was. Nor did I realize how, sad I always was. So lonely, so cold. I thought about Hiei as well. He was right, she did killed me, but I really didn't mind. Like I said before, I loved her. I'm not sure why, it was just like that for as long as I can remember. Even when I ferried her soul. It was one of my first jobs, but I could recall my ningen past when I first became a ferry girl. I flew toward her, recognizing her immediately. By the look on her face, I could tell she recognized me too. But I didn't say a word, I just put on my cheery facade like I did with every other soul. I was happy in death, why couldn't they be? Plus, I think it gave them solace to know death wasn't all sad. She got on my oar and I flew to Reikai. She didn't say anything either, but she was always looking at me with those dazzling, aloof eyes. I dropped her off in front of Enma's office where she would be judge. She bowed a bit and thanked me. I hugged her tightly for the first time.

"Aishiteru, aneue." I whispered in her ear and released her, leaving her in complete shock. Before the doors closed on us, she smiled. Just like the night I died. I beamed to the darkness after thinking about her whimsical smile. It made me wonder if Hiei's smile would be like that too. I heard Yukina shriek and I bolted out of my bed.

"Yukina!" I slammed open her bedroom door, only to be contained by two bulky demons.

"Now, which one is the koorime?" One of them grinned menacingly. I noticed the fear in Yukina's eyes. She and I both knew if they took her, they would do the same thing Tarukane did. I growled at them and mentally thanked Enma for their stupidity.

"I am. Leave Yukina out of this, she's just a ningen!" Yukina stared at me in complete awe. The demons smirked and threw Yukina to the ground both she could tell them the truth. "Hey I said-" A sharp pain throbbed in my cheek.

"Shut up, you'll speak when told too." He growled at me and I glared at him venomously. "Take her to the lair." The other demon grunted and raised his club. Before I knew it, I was out cold.

(1) Aneue is a very respectful way to address your elder sister.

(Sob) I feel like I killed everything! I'm sorry if you think so too! Please review, and I'm still open for ideas on this fic.