Let Me Go

By,

3 Doors Down

One more kiss could be the best thing

I watched as she surveyed the stars from her balcony, the wind ruffling her hair as I could see her eyes sparkling from here. I watched her lips move as she sighed, catching myself remembering their softness and the first kiss I stole of hers.

But one more lie could be the worst

She turns to go back inside, but stops when she's almost there. She looks back, and her lips move again, this time forming a word I know too well by now. Pervert. And I have to let her go on believing that for the Niwas' sake. But I wish I could tell her who I really am…what I really feel for her. And, unknowing, she turns her back on me and walks inside.


And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

I wait for a few minutes after her light goes out, before I fly to her balcony. As quiet as the phantom I am called, I slip into her room and see that she is asleep already. My feet make no sound as I make my way to her bedside to see her sleeping face.


In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

I brush a lock of her hair out of her face, and pause as her eyelids flutter. I wait until she settles, and then leave as quietly as I came in, making sure to shut and lock the doors to her balcony. Maybe I am a pervert, but I'm sure I'm not the only one around, either. I feel better when I hear the lock slide into place, and alight onto the railing. I give one glance back through the window at my sleeping angel before taking off into my namesake.


You love me but you don't know who I am

I land at the Niwas' house silently so as not to wake anyone, even though I know that Emiko might still be waiting up for me. But just in case, I sneak my way into Daisuke's room and allow him control once again. He doesn't complain that I "spied" on Riku, he just slips into bed; we've already talked about this.


I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am

So let me go

I feel a familiar tingle as Daisuke starts to lose control, and feel myself awaken. My grumpiness fades as I look through Daisuke's eyes. The focus of his gaze is on Riku, who just smiled at him without even knowing she was affecting him so much. Affecting us.


Let me go

Daisuke's heart slows as he feels my presence, and I feel a slight sadness in him as he realizes what I'm seeing now. He is far too honest, and he deserves her more than I do. He shouldn't feel so badly about it. He'll win, it's easy to see, and he has nothing to be guilty for.


I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you

It would be easier to forget…but somehow I don't want to. All I can do is go along with whatever happens and hope for the best. I know Daisuke has a future with her, their perfect for each other. I'm not even the only one who sees it. As far as I am concerned, this rivalry is over. But I'll always love her, I'll never wish to forget.


How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

It's perfect weather for a walk outside, so it's only natural that he asks her if he can walk her home. He's becoming bolder; I can see him growing up. He has more confidence, especially since they've been going out. As if to prove my point, he takes her hand. The sun shines on her smile.


In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

"Riku…" He has her full attention, and even though we've talked about this moment, I still can't seem to fathom it. This is the moment, his moment, and I know what her answer will be.


You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go

"Riku, I…"


Just Let me go...
Let me go

"…I've been meaning to tell you something." The tingle begins again, growing stronger when she squeezes his hand, and I almost can't stand it. I'm giving her away!


And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I know..

"I love you, Riku." Her beautiful chestnut eyes widen, and her other hand comes up to quickly wipe crystalline tears that have suddenly started falling from her eyes. But she's still smiling, while my heart is breaking.


When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

"Daisuke…I love you too Daisuke!" He's embracing her now, and her tears are soaking his shirt. I look down on her from his point of view, and despite myself I feel myself smile a little smile. She'll be happy, and that's enough for me.


You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am

I hold on a few seconds longer to watch her look up as Daisuke slips something into her hands. When she steps away, cradled there is a black feather. She fingers it for a second, eyes glazed over in thought as the sun lights up her face. Her contemplative frown turns into a look of wonder as she realizes what the feather means, but then a small smile cracks through.


So let me go
Just let me go

She falls back into his embrace, and he lifts her chin up for their kiss. And that's it, and I let myself drift away…still smiling despite the pain.


And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

'Who is Dark Mousy?'