Prologue

You think you know me but you don't, and that means you don't know what I can do. You see me as someone who's popular and has all the answers; that's not true. I may not always know what I'm doing, but I'll try make things better.

Brooke Davis

It's true, people think they know me. Everytime I walk trough the halls of Tree Hill High, I see people stare at me and try to spread another rumor about me. But hey, I'm used to it. I don't care anymore. Well, that's what I tell myself everyday. But I do care, actually I care a lot. I mean, I'm also just a person who makes mistakes and try to solve her problems. But I guess that are the consequences of being a rich, popular cheerleader. Being the topic of rumors and hear everybody around you gossip about you.

Yesterday I heard another rumor about me being pregnant with some 30 year old guy. I mean come on guys! Can't you think about something more realistic? Even people with a low IQ don't believe such a thing anymore. Some things make me laugh out loud, and some things make me cry at night. It's hard you know, wake up everyday and double check your peformance; your hair, your make-up, your clothes, your smile and your attitude. It's hard to try to pretend your 'cheery', especially when your absolutly not.

Speeking of Cheery. I remember it, once that was my nickname. Just one person called me that, Lucas Scott. Wow, even when I think about his name I get butterflies in my stomach. He's so gorgeous. His piercing blue eyes, his muscular arms, his six pack. He's not like any other guy. He's gentle and sweet, caring and very kind. I don't think there are many guys like that in the world.. God you have no idea how much I missed him, still miss him. I thought we were ment to be. We were 'Cheery and Broody', the perfect couple. All the guys wanted to be Lucas and all the girls wanted to be me. Or they just wanted somebody to find who made him or her feel like the way we felt about eachother. Still following me? I know, I'm rambling. I do that, a lot. Trust me, if your not a talker than we aren't ment to be friends. Well, exept for one guy; of course it's Lucas. At first, when I met him, he was very shy. It was the cutest thing I have ever seen. We started dating and I felt like I was in heaven, everyting was too good to be true.

And I was right, cause then 'it' happened (that's how I like to call it). He.. He cheated on me, with my best friend Peyton Sawyer. It happened a long time ago and I'm finally over it. I forgave Peyton and I forgave Lucas. But everytime I think about it I get this weird feeling trough my body. It's not anger, it's not fear, I guess it's some kind of lonelyness. You see, when Lucas and I were dating, I thought he really loved me. Just because I loved him. And when I caught them it was like my world explode. In the beginning I felt nothing, absolutly nothing. But the longer I thougt about it the more I felt lonely. I thought he wasn't like all the other guys, and I thougt she was my best friend. And then I put on my fake cheerleader smile and pretend like I don't care what happened. The only time when I was angry was in the pressence of Lucas and Peyton. Oh god you have no idea how angry I was. But all that drama is over now. At least, I think. I mean in Tree Hill, the place I call my home, where everybody know's everybody and eachothers secrets and problems, there's always drama. So I'm kind of waiting for it to happen.

And I know when it's coming, it's coming know or any moment. The whole summer I was in California. It's beautiful there, don't get me wrong but, it's not home. I missed my friends, especially Lucas. We were friends after the whole love triangle, and then suddenly he tells me he want to be with me. He told me that when my cab was waiting for me to give me a ride to the airport. So I just left him there, I mean I was stunned. I couldn't believe that he finally told me that. I waited for so long. But when he kissed me and the words came out of his mouth it sounded so unrealistic. It was like a fairy tail; girl wants boy, boy wants girl. But they are both to subborn to admit there love to eachother. And finally when the boy say the words to the girl, the girl doesn't know how to react. So I left him there, stunned and heartbroken.

During the summer, after a few days I told myself that I should call him. So I did, and whe had a long conversation. To make a long story short, we decided that we should stay friends till I come home and then we see what's going to happen. Well, the only thing I can hope for is us getting back together. So I guess this is the moment where I waited for so long. The day I come home and pick up my life the way I left it.

Okay, wow. I just typed this whole thing. I just want to say that I'm from The Netherlands so my English can suck sometimes. If there are any spelling or grammar mistakes then please forgive me cause this is my first fanfic in English so it's really hard for me. I don't know where this story is going cause I made this up just an hour ago. But I try to make it to a realistic, good story (so this is not just one chapter thingy). Ideas are welcome and reviews are even more so please please review and tell me if I should go on or just forget this whole thing.

Xoxox Helen