Introduction to my first story: Knife Called Lust

"…I look alive, I'm dead inside"

Strawberry gashes line my wrist. I stare at the new cut, dark from the blood that has just poured out. I glance back at the scissors, the ones that tore thru my skin a few minutes ago. The cuts were deep, but never deep enough to kill me.

I sigh, both a sigh of relief and of disappointment. Why did he have to go out with her? Why? He knew I likedloved him. It was a game we played since I first came here 4 years ago, when we were 13. The first time, girls were allowed at PCA.

We played the game of hate. I yelled at him, he insulted me. He flirts with me, I stomp on his foot. It's been this way for a while until he stopped talking to me. And I wouldn't see him for days at a time.

Next time I see him, there's a girl on his arm, playing flirtatiously with his hair. I envy her.

I envy every girl with the cliché of a perfect life; a girl with friends, a boy who swoons over her, her parents acceptance, just everything.

Everything I'm not, everything that I don't have.

I hate feeling this way. And lately it's been getting worse. At any sign of sadness, I begin to want to scratch myself, my face, my wrists, my ankles. I need to take the pain, the stress; I need it to go away. And this is my only way, the only way to release.

I just wish I had someone to understand, before, well… it's too late….

So how was that? I hope you enjoyed that Introduction.

Why didn't I post a REAL chapter? Because I want to see if anyone will even comment on this so I can find out if this is even worth creating.

Anyway, I will update as often as I can which will more then likely be every Friday, Saturday and Sunday, prior to that I actually get replies. I will also update during the week unless I am completely swamped with homework. My Social life, friends, boys, etc will also effect how much I update but I will update ASAP, if I get a lot of replies because I know what it's like to want to read more to a story and have to wait up to a week at a time for that person to actually post a new chapter.

Before I bore you to death withall my rambling,I'm off.

Please comment and give your opinions on this, whether it be a compliment or constructive criticism, I don't care, just review, please! Oh and let me know if you think I should continue with this story.

Thanks Guys!

♥ Shorty (Thats my nicknamenot my real name haha)