I'm going to tell you what Dai did in chapter 4, now. Have fun with it

Chapter 6

Escape

When Dark switched back over to me, I knew what I wanted to do. I wasn't sure why it would make Dark unhappy, but I knew it would. I was going to kiss Satoshi.

((Satoshi's POV))

I finished drying myself off and got dressed. I started writing in my notebook.

He leaned up and opened his mouth. My heart was going a mile a minute. What was he doing? He wouldn't be trying…to kiss me? No, Daisuke wouldn't do that.

He licked my cheek. I stumbled backwards onto the bed. "Daisuke! What are you doing!"

"Satosi is bleeding. Daisuki wants to help." I could never get used to him calling himself Daisuki, or the strange habits he had picked up. It was as if he was part deer!

I sighed. He hung his head. "Gomen." Damn! I had forgotten how good at reading my moods he had become!

"Iie, it's okay. I was just surprised, is all."

"Daisuki is good?"

"Daisuke is good." He glomped me, and I almost laughed. He was so much like a puppy at times…

Why did he lick me? Maybe without his memories he is acting on instinct. I think he likes me more now than he did before he lost his memory. But I feel like I'm cheating. If I hadn't kissed him that first night, none of this would have happened. I mean, if He hadn't lost his memory, he wouldn't have become so attached to me over the past week.

So I really should call his mother and get her to help him, that way he'll be exactly the same as before. But I don't really want to. I know that I'm changing him, so that he likes me more than he would have, but is that really so bad? I don't know what to do. I really need to relax, but I can't stop thinking about him; I'm always bothered by my guilt. Even when his memories are back, he'll never be the same.

I don't write so that I'll remember. I don't write so that I can understand. I write as a confession of sorts. To clear my mind or a small portion of my guilt. Someday, I want Daisuke to read it. That would clear my conscience for real. I was going to get him to read it over the trip, but he's gone, now. Well, maybe by some miracle, his memories will come back. And then I can show him my very soul.

I was startled out of my thoughts by Daisuke. As soon as he saw me, he ran over and glomped me. I fell backwards, and my glasses slipped off. My vision swam a slight bit before I focused of Daisuke, who had a serious look in his eyes. He didn't seem like the new Daisuke, the one without memories. He seemed like the old Daisuke, the whole thing.

Then he kissed me. I didn't think. I kissed him back hungrily, craving more of the sweet lips that teased me in my dreams. Though I was quite sure he had no clue what he was doing, he was good. He tasted even better than the first time.

Finally, I broke off, so I wouldn't be tempted to go further. He smiled at me. "Daisuke!" I exclaimed. "Do you even know—" He got off of me and bowed his head.

"Gomen." he said. Damn! I wished he couldn't read me moods so well.

But I couldn't stay longer, if he acted like this. I had to get away, escape from myself. I could protect him from the world, but not from myself. I couldn't stay.

I left the room, saying nothing. If I said anything, he would come after me, and I couldn't have that. I had to keep him safe from me. Even if that meant that I could never be happy.

((Daisuke's POV))

I don't know how to describe it. I was so…happy, while we kissed. But Satoshi was angry at me. I apologized, but he left anyway.

"Kuso!" I cursed. It was followed by more. "I did that to upset Dark, but now Satoshi is mad at me, and I'm all alone. Alone. Again."

Baka! Of course he's mad at you! You friggin' kissed him!

"Datte…datte…"

Daisuke, I understand that you like Creepy Boy, but this is wrong. Go find ham and apologize.

"I can't."

Why the fuck not!

"Because he doesn't want me to. I could tell."

Dark took a deep breath and tried a different approach. Look, he's your only hope. You have to get him.

"Why do you care! I thought you hated him!"

…

"What aren't you telling me?"

He's got someone else inside him, too.

"…So?"

I don't give a damn about Creepy Boy! But the other one, Krad, will take advantage of Creepy Boy's weakness to come out, and he'd try to kill you! And if you die, I go with you!

"Then why don't you go?"

Because you're in control right now!

"…"

I looked at the notebook he had been writing in before I came. I opened it, and dark read it for me, as I didn't remember how.

"Last night, me and Daisuke were sleeping in out boxers, as it was a warm night. To see him lying there, so perfect, I hugged him, and he stiffened. But he did relax, soon. I was thoughtless. I kissed him. I thought he kissed back, but it must have been my imagination.

He ran off. I'll never be able to just share a friendly moment again. He'll be even more scared of me now, I guess. He'll never forgive me. I'll never forgive myself."

The memory of that night returned to me. How scared I had been, and the way his eyes had been so…hot. Hot with a lust I didn't understand. And the way I had kissed back without wanting to. He had been so different from the Satoshi I tried to defend.

Other memories came, too. But they were all terrible memories, and all of Satoshi. Hiwatari-kun. I felt my eyes widen.

"I can't believe I did that, Dark. How will I face him after I…"

You won't. He's gone for good. Gone forever…

"Dark? You sound sad."

I'm not! Why would I be? With him gone, that means Krad, my lifelong enemy is gone, too! I'm happy!

"Dark? You really need to work on that fake smile."

What? I'm happy! My enemy is gone!

"You…liked Krad, didn't you?"

WHAT! Why would you say something like that?

"…"

((Satoshi's POV))

As the plane touched down in Italy, I tried my best not to think abut who would take care of Niwa-kun. I tried not to think his first name. I wished that Krad was back, just so I wouldn't have to be all alone.

But I was alone. Krad had been gone for just under a month, now. At the end of the month, I might not even be alive. I was seriously considering jumping. The shallow canals of Venice would be a great way to die. Even if the jump didn't kill you, even if the water didn't kill you, the stone under the canals would.

But I had to wait. I wanted to see if I could get to the end of the month. If I couldn't, I would jump, but I wanted to try. I felt as if…something important would happen. It was only three days. Three days, alone, in a hotel, without even Krad's invasive presence.

I unpacked in the five star hotel. I might as well live in luxury for the last few days of my life.

There was a huge feather bed, a mahogany wardrobe, a large plasma TV, a matching stand with a mirror, and a bed stand with an alarm clock and a plant in the bedroom. It was all in burgundy, deep brown, and cream.

In the bathroom was a Jacuzzi, a luxury shower, a nice toilet, and a sink. It was all a soft yellow and white.

In the dining area was a fridge, a stove, a dishwasher, a double sink, various cupboards, and a table with two chairs and a vase with flowers in the middle. It was all white and pine green. I think that the table and chairs were pine wood, by the smell of them.

When I was done unpacking, I soaked in the Jacuzzi for a few hours. Various thoughts ran through my head. None were about Niwa-kun.

Finally, I decided to go get my notebook. I checked the side table, the kitchen table, and many other places.

Kuso! I left it there! I punched the wall, venting my anger. Why did I have to be so stupid! Damn! I need a strong drink!

I opened the fridge irritably, and to my surprise, there were a few coolers. I drank them.

About two hours later, the room spun in a few circles. I yelled at it to stop, to be still. I started walked towards the bed, but hit a wall in the process. I yelled at it for being there. By the time I got to the bed, I passed out.

O.o That turned out way more serious than I thought it would. It's so… sad.

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