Disclaimer: Ah, chapter 3. Those of you who wanted a cookie here ya go! And here's some milk! (yen splashes milk at everyone) I do not own or claim any legal rights to Fruits Basket nor its characters and such. Oreo…I got to try that sometime. You want some ice cream? I know you do. Oh YES! OH YESSSSSSSSSSSS! OH YESSSSSSSSSSS read and review my fic. SPOILERS EVERYONE. THERE ARE TONS OF SPOILERS IN THIS CHAPTER! EVERY PARAGRAPH HERE IS A SPOILER! And an excessive use of the b-word is here.

Rating T

Pairings: Shigure x Akito

Yen's ramblings of extreme thoughts part 2: So you made it to chapter 3 eh? I re read chapter 2 and it was GOOD but it wasn't as dark as I planned it to be. Maybe I should go on with more detail? I know right now I should be updating my other fic, but no one's reading it. Everyone's reading this new one so I am gonna update this one instead.

Note: Everyone says the Red hat belonged to Yuki, but in truth it originally belonged to Kyo, who dropped the hat and Yuki found it but Kyo wouldn't take it back since Yuki touched it and so Yuki kept it. In this fic, Kyo is wearing the hat but in volume 15 he wasn't, and Kyo wasn't really wearing the hat. You'll know what I am saying later on.

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Chapter 3: Loneliness

As the years go by, dark secrets came to lurk. Akito became… distant. Everyone noticed this. Even Shigure can't be himself around her anymore. Their relationship has become nothing, and soon, they had forgotten about their feelings for each other. However, Shigure persisted on.

Everyday, he would have a hope that Akito will be healed from her wounds and move on with her life. She will one day continue growing mentally. Sure, it was impossible, but Shigure couldn't help but dream. But for the meanwhile, he will have to keep up a happy façade.

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(Again, taken from Volume 15… Yuki's still a kid in here)

Yuki was lonely, he had nothing to do… Then he overheard a few women talk about a "cat child" staying outside in the cold winter night. Yuki decided to check this "cat child out". He left the house he was in to go to the front door where an orange-haired boy stood out in the cold, wearing winter clothes and a red hat. Yuki approached closer to the boy with curious eyes. This must be the cat child. His hair really stood out. Yuki remembered thinking, "Such a pretty orange color…"

"Excuse me," Yuki alluded to the kid with a smile on his face. He was really hoping to be friends with the cat child.

The orange-haired boy looked at him with sharp orange eyes with his pupil slit like a cat's eye. He said, "You're the rat aren't you?"

Yuki was confused but answered anyways. "Y-yeah…"

For some reason, Yuki could feel an angry and dark aura that suddenly surrounded the orange-haired boy who clenched his fists, looking down at the ground and started yelling, "I won't forgive you… I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU! IT'S ALL THE RAT'S FAULT! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! IT'S BECAUSE YOU'RE HERE THAT EVERYTHING…" His words suddenly died out. After that, he looked Yuki into the eye and said, "It would have been better…IF YOU EVER EXISTED!" Those strong words…confused Yuki a great deal. And it hurt him with a great deal. So this is what Akito was saying…

Yuki's eyes deepened in fear. Everyone hates the rat. Those words echoed by Akito in his mind. He was so afraid… and sad. His eyes… his existence… Everything… was so … cruel.

It wasn't long before the cat child turned around and ran off.

After what had transpired, Yuki ran back inside his house to find his mother.

"Mo… Mother!" he cried as he rubbed off his tears with his hands.

She turned around to face Yuki with glaring and cold eyes. He was so afraid that he didn't notice she was preparing to hit him.

His 'mother' hit him with the force of her hand. Her cold and hard skin sending a terrible force on his face.

Yuki found a swollen cheek on his face as he drew back in fear.

He looked at his mother as she uttered, "WHERE DID YOU WANDER OFF TO? HURRY UP AND GO BACK TO WHERE THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY IS! HURRY! WOULD YOU PLEASE MAKE ME NOT ASHAMED THAN I ALREADY AM?"

Those words…

(To Akito's room!)

"Don't be mistaken…" Akito murmured in front of Yuki as he sat out of melancholic emotions in the black room.

"Just listen, this whole world is pitch-black. You're whole life will be pitch-black."

Tears started to stream down Yuki's face. Everyone hates the rat.

Akito's face peered in his mind. Her expression was something devious and evil. Something frightening…

"There aren't any possibilities or hopes. You're going through life on a black road, so…Don't fool yourself and think, 'Someday, someone will save me'."

It was a lonely world. A lonely place… with a black road for you to follow.

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(Present)

Shigure was visiting Akito as usual. They talked, as usual. He schemed, as usual. And he left, as usual.

After a boring time, Akito decided to wander around in the Main House, thinking she can encounter one of the Junishi.

However, she was wrong…

As Akito peered in a hallway, a Shoji door was open, leading to the room… of that woman.

How can she possibly end up here? Akito knew this place very well. Why didn't she take note of the signs that she was lead towards this place?

A very dark feeling swept through her.

You're existence is meaningless. Your 'love' for the Junishi is a complete waste of time. They'd hate you and because of the 'bond' they'd hate you more.

The Junishi that you love so much, even Kureno and Shigure, will wish you were DEAD.

Akito maybe a "dark" figure of the world, but what is the person who caused her this pain?

In a moment, all that pain and fear was gone. But it was replaced by a stronger emotion. It was replaced by hate and anger. Akito's eyes burned with a passion of revulsion. She clenched her fists as all those memories come back.

It is such a pity, that Akira left me with a child who has no meaning to this world whatsoever. You're only a child that's useless garbage that is simply preventing everyone to live so normally.

"I am not…" Akito called out silently. Her head dropped to gawk at the ground out of shame. She closed her eyes trying to stifle her tears.

But at the same time, gentle words swam in the sea of her depressing thoughts. "You're not nothing…"

"I love you more than anything in the world."

She abruptly opened her eyes. A memory she had forgotten came back. Akito is loved. I am loved.

"I am loved," she muttered loudly.

"Who's there?" a hostile voice demanded.

Akito looked up to find that woman.

Ren grinned so cruelly. A dismal and sadistic look came through her pale features. "Well, if isn't Akito coming out from his dark world of nothingness."

Akito glowered at her especially at the "HIS dark world of nothingness" remark.

"Do you have anything to say Akito? Or maybe you're just SO pathetic!" She laughed sardonically, mocking Akito's very being.

Akito unexpectedly punched Ren in the eye, making her go back 4 steps, almost falling in the ground.

Ren brought herself back in balance and gritted her teeth with supreme rage. "WHY YOU LITTLE BITCH!" She countered a punch on Akito so hard, her gum bled. (If Akito wasn't so healthy, no blood would have come out)

Akito used all her strength and pushed Ren against a wall and grasped her 'mother's neck, choking her. "DON'T YOU DARE CALL ME A BITCH, BITCH!" (oooo)

Ren grabbed hold of Akito's wrists and started digging her nails into her own daughter's skin to inflict pain. Out of defiance, she stammered of what she could still breathe in, "D-…Do… you…really think…this will change a thing?"

Akito strangled her harder to shut her mouth up. "SHUT UP! I AM TIRED OF YOU! I HATE YOU! I'VE ALWAYS HATED YOU! I WISH YOU WERE DEAD! YOU ALWAYS SAID THAT THE JUNISHI HATED ME. BUT WOULD THAT HAVE HAPPENED IF YOU WEREN'T SUCH A CONCEITED BITCH? I'LL MAKE YOU PAY!" Akito strangled with a harder grasp until she could hear a crunch in the woman's neck. However, she was interrupted by a pair of hands holding her back, pulling her away from Ren.

"LET ME GO! THAT BITCH NEEDS A LESSON!" She defied against those arms and kicked, wailed, and waved her arms frantically to free herself. But they still continued locking her. Akito turned her head to see who it was. It was Kureno, he looked very worn out and struggling very hard. "LET ME GO KURENO!"

Akito turned back to stare icily at Ren disdainfully.

Ren coughed a little bit and felt her neck for some pain. Then she smirked at Akito and said, "Go ahead and kill me. It will really make me happy. However, my own child calling me a bitch…IS SOMETHING UNFORGIVABLE!" She raised her hand to strike Akito but instead, it hit someone else.

Shigure (who apparently is wearing a suit) blocked Akito by going in front of her, taking the hit himself. Shigure's head was forced to face sideways because of the strike, revealing a bruise.

Akito became wide-eyed at the turn of events.

Ren too was very surprised. She did not expect to Shigure to come here and absent-mindedly defy her for punishing Akito.

"Shigure?"

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A/N: A yes a cliff hanger for all of you. How nice of me. If you guys want to know why I post Yuki's past in here, it's simply to tell you of how much Akito can change because of Ren's bitchiness. I believe you can tell I love that word. Now click the button that says submit review.

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