Disclaimer: FMP does not belong to me however this little tale does.
Title: Kashim
Author: Fuji S. Yuki
Pairing: Sousuke/Kaname
Sousuke really hated being called Kashim. To him it was a past that he did not want to think about. One field with heartache and massive memories of those that died on the battlefield especially comrades especially in gorilla warfare, nevertheless it was a past that he did not want to remember.
All the painful thoughts of people he loves treading the grounds of death. Life is such a precious commodity. Sagara Sousuke could never find peace and without war there was something missing. To be not on alert and looking behind his back felt wrong and without his weapons he felt even naked.
Since the age of five Sousuke never had a moments of peace. Being train by those around him sitting in a squad of what the military back in Saudi Arabia would call terrorist he was only a part of small group of children and young adults fighting to survive.
The concept when he grew older of sex didn't even faze him and when those died he had bestow kisses to calm and send those that are near death in peace. This was a life he led and if a little school girl like Kaname Chidori knew she possibly would feel disgust.
Surely those in combat did try to take their comforts in whatever times and place. Some men he noticed take it upon themselves to have lovers with other men. However, for him he never felt the urge for if one was distracted by such activities they might find themselves on the edge of death in a mere second when a grenade pop into their hiding spots.
However, Gaul used to be within his squad and always he called him Kashim. All the time the word that silly stupid name since his Japanese name was so hard to refer too in the trenches. So they gave him another name and that was Kashim.
And every time Gaul kept on saying that name especially the part of 'I love you, Kashim.' The more he hated that name with a passion. That part of him had died in the battlefield every since he joined Mithal and guarded Chidori.
Yes the sapphire hair angel that he guarded was a precious gem. Whenever he found himself in her presence he felt invincible and confused. She was an enigmatic tale one that he couldn't seem to decode let alone figure out the theme of the story.
She was the place where he found refuge in. A place where his heart could calm down at its most painful extent Chidori was a being that he felt his salvation in one that could possible understand him to his deepest and darkest existence.
A beautiful lady that she was and a part to where he finally buried that name Kashim for whenever she call his name softly that part of him that use to be nickname as Kashim disappear and he felt clean and not so dirtied or weary as before.
To Chidori there never existed a Kashim but only a Sousuke and that was just fine.