Disclaimer: Do you REALLY think Red Dwarf would be any good if I was it's creator?

Right well the word FINALLY springs to mind, but here it is! Reflections Part 3 (Alex bounces up and down insanly in the background) Hope you like it though its really bad and I hate it and there's continuity problems...AHHHHH... well anyway read on and I'll go copy up the final part which is a bit better content wise - and less of the romanticy smeg...

Flash Back II: Camille

Cat walked confidently into the Medi Bay to find there on the table, the image of his perfect mate – himself!

"Hey Buddy!"

"You're me!"

"Who else?"

"I'm the object of my own desire?"

"Is there anyone more deserving?"

"Well, if you put it like that, I guess you're right – DAMN my vanity!"

The two Cats gave each other a hi-five and our Cat glided out, passing Lister who had obviously been waiting for him. Lister began to follow Cat excitedly, questioning him as they walked.

"What did you see?"

"Oh just some gorgeous chunk of loveliness!"
"Come on, what did you see?"

"Ohhhhh what a body!"

"What did you see?"

"My legs are still shaking!"

"CAT, what did you see?"

"Someone give me a brandy!"

Lister sighed and stopped following his friend, it was obvious he wasn't going to tell.

Cat continued his walk back to the supply decks in a daze, he eventually began to think of his plan for the immediate future – eat, nap, snack, maybe play some of his guitar…He stopped in mid step and thought deeply – If he was his own perfect mate, then what was Kira? He bit is lip as he said her name in his mind, it was like a door he had kept locked for so long was being opened and he needed to know why.

He spun on his heel and dashed back the way he had come.

He tentatively entered the Medi Bay and looked Camille – but she was nowhere to be seen. This confused Cat as her scent was reaching his nostrils easily… well his own – she was even able to recreate that!... But there was another scent – indescribable…

"Camille? Hey – where are you?" He called.

"I'm here." Came a reply in a female voice as a silhouette stepped forward from the shadows.

"What the smeg?..." Cat began in shock but trailed off, unable to make his emotions into words – or legible ones at least.

"I'm a pleasure GELF as you know, I was created to instantly become the perfect mate of your subconscious. Your desires are altering – Changing me, this should generally cause me to revert to my natural shape – A safety clause in case two or more different people are desired equally by someone. But this is different. Your deepest desire if for just one person you choose to forget – Something you are very adept at doing as my powers are highly complex, though your barriers are weakening." Camille finished her explanatory monologue and waited for a response.

Cat grinned cheekily. "I was with you all the way up to 'I'm'"

Camille sighed. "Your crewmates can be fooled but I can now see you as you are – Acting. You are vain, and self centred, but you are clever too, and caring and you choose to hide behind a veil and distance yourself. You say you don't care about them. You just don't want to care in case you loose them, just like you lost Kira.

Cat flinched at the sound of her name. "Don't you say all that psycho crap to me. - I don't care."

"But you do. – You always have." Cat closed his eyes as she spoke, her voice was becoming more like hers, and her scent! He couldn't have described the feeling it gave.

Eventually he opened his eyes, gasping in shock as he saw a pregnant Kira smiling at him softly.

"Hiya Cat." She cooed, stepping towards him, holding her swollen stomach.

"Get away – You're not her!" He screamed his voice raising dangerously in pitch.

"Babe it's me – I'm here!" She persisted gently.

"No… NO! You're not here – It's not you! You're saying what I want you to! You're lost… Dani's lost!" Cat sunk to his knees, forgetting the consequences the floor would have on his clothes.

"We're not lost – We're right here." She whispered, running a hand through Cat's hair, he moaned softly in response to her touch.

"You are. You are – And I can't save you! Your teachings were for nothing."

"No! – It wasn't – Can't you see? You'll save me – And Dani!" Cat felt his will against the illusion slipping as he took her hand stroking his hair and held it tightly.

"I loved… Love you I didn't know what love was… I had all these fantasies, and you changed them – made them all about you – You made me… better. I love you more… more than my suits!" Cat trailed off running his own free hand through his hair nervously.

"That's deep." Cat smiled at the response despite himself – It was exactly what Kira would say… Or was it? He didn't know anymore – He didn't know anything anymore. She leaned in to kiss him but Cat resisted.

"Cat we're meant to be together – We're soul mates!"

"You're not Kira and you don't know what she'd say – Neither do I! And that's all you are doing – Responding the way I want you to – You are not her!" Cat leapt to his feet and stormed out of the Medi Bay.

He ran down the corridors till he caught sight of himself in a mirror. Instead of checking his loveliness as he usually would, he just started at his reflection trying to see inside his own soul. He stared till his head ached and his mind hurt with all the thoughts and feelings swirling round. He raised his fist to smash the glass in desperation, but couldn't. Kira's words from long ago rang clear in his mind: "Myths and mythology… Are you going to listen to me or not? Ok then, well there are loads of kinds of myths – like superstitions – People believe that they can get bad luck from certain things… Like walking under a ladder or breaking a mirror – That's 7 years" She was guiding him – Even now. His arm fell limply by his side and he slowly tore himself away from the mirror, walking slowly towards Lister's quarters.

When he arrived the room was deserted – probably had all gone back to see Camille… Now he thought about it he did remember Lister passing him in the corridor when he was at the mirror.

Cat sighed and heaved himself onto the top bunk and closed his eyes, willing sleep to come and to dull the thoughts in his mind.

Eventually he managed to sleep, only to be awoken by the others coming in, wanting to chat about Camille. He tried to pay attention but his heart wasn't in it. Lister's statement about her not been able to control how she was seen made him think though.

He smelt her coming and bit her lip he wasn't sure how he'd react seeing her face again.

He blinked in shock as his own figure stepped through the doorway – How could Lister be right? He didn't care how Camille had done it but he was glad she had.

He watched as his own figure turned to him.

"Sorry Buddy." Cat felt his own features contort with anger.

"Heart breaker!" As Camille turned to Kryten and the two began to talk, the unfinished ending to the sentence swam uncomfortably round Cat's mind – "You broke my heart Kira…"