Author's Note:

Okay. I'm going to be perfectly honest here. I'm considering discontinuing this story.

Wait just a second before going into some sort of freak out mode here. I was looking over the story and I'm like, God this sucks. What the hell was I thinking? I don't know. There are so many thing wrong with it, I just want to bash myself in the head after reading only one paragraph.

First off, the plot is going absolutely nowhere. I have done thirteen chapters, and all I've gotten to is this carnival thingy. This is like the first time I've mentioned anything about important parts of the story since the first posting. I know what I want to happen, but I just can't picture myself actually writing it and getting it up.

Second of all, Gayle is a Mary Sue. A very strange one, and not at all blonde in any way, but a Mary Sue all the same. It's definitely not how I wanted her to be, and I'm really disappointed in how she turned out. Her moods are erratic and confusing, and I'm really sick of it. She was originally supposed to be this witty, kind of laid back person, but I totally messed it up. I just couldn't help but make her entirely perfect in every way. It pisses me off to think about how different she was than how I'd pictured her in the first place. I totally ruined her character.

People have mentioned this to me many times, but I didn't really think about it too much. I was just like, Oh, suck it up. She's not that bad. But I can see where they're all coming from. She doesn't make mistakes, she's hilarious and intriguing, and there hasn't been one person who doesn't like her, excepting Gustav. I just can't take anymore of her.

I seriously want to apologize to those I told off, such as TrisakAminawn. I feel so bad about getting all ticked off at you when you're totally right about it. She's too perfect. And she has to have some serious psychological issues for anything to make sense.

And the biggest thing of all is the flow of the story itself. I mention things that never happen later on, and you're all, Huh? Example: I say, Oh, nobody loves her in her own world, but everyone in Tortall does. That makes absolutely no sense whatsoever. And that pond thing? I have no idea what I was thinking there. It doesn't even have anything to do with the rest of the story. It was just like her portal or something. I don't know! I think I was suffering from serious head trauma the day I started this story.

Okay, some parts are okay. Really, I kinda liked a couple of the chapters. And I don't mean to offend everybody reading it when saying it sucks, cuz then I'd be insulting your taste in literature. But I hate this thing. I ought to be shot for ever doing this. I dunno what I'll do. I might erase everything that's there now and start over again. Or maybe I'll just revise it a bit. Or I might, as I said earlier, delete it all together.

Yeah, well anyway, I'm done. You can scream at me or whatever, or agree with me. I don't really care. I'm still not sure what I'm going to do with this whole thing.

If you're interested in reading something else by me, you can go to if you want. I started a story over there. Same pen name as here. So that's it. Yeah, I guess I'll stop now. Later dudes.

-Eveiveneg