Wow, I apologies for leaving this fanfic. I totally forgot it existed… No really I did ^_^; my mind left me to wonder and never came back. Anyway I hope this new chapter since I really haven't written anything decent in days .Again, I am sorry for leaving this fanfic to dry. Also POV stands for Point of View.
Disclaimer: You know the drill, Story is mine, and Characters are borrowed. Same rules people, nothing changes.
"Hidden Thoughts"
By: Nyago
~Axl POV~
Things had not gone well; even I could see that. And to be honest, I really didn't like how things were looking in the future. I wasn't sure whether to tell X or not. He probably get angry at me for keeping this secret to myself.. but as things stand, I didn't have much of a choice. Why was include into this little situation? What do I have that he wants? My power? My ability to transform? Have it, I don't care any more about this cursed body... He promise me that if I gave him what he wanted he would tell me of my past... But for what? Be disappointed at my creator for bringing me alive? Is not that I wanted to run, I just wasn't sure whether I wanted the truth or not.
Wonder what he meant when he said "Revenge is like an uncontrolled flame; it burns more than what was intended, or wanted." What Revenge? I wasn't angry at any one, Or was any one costing me pain... Unless he meant about my past. Zero always told me never to trust on other reploids too much, and after that fight with him. It may me realize...I was just a monster. Disliked my human looks and emotions, It was just a mask to cover my true form...Maybe I should, truth him. As long as X doesn't know, I am safe; for a while at least. His dislike for me; as Alia prefers to call it, has grown over the past 2 weeks. He annoys me, trying ways to bring my spirits down but I don't let him get to me. Not anymore...
Rather chilly tonight, wind blows, not a care in the world. *Sigh* Peace...Is this how it feels? Have the wind blow away softly against my face... Is a nice feeling.
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Zero was also currently out back of Headquarters, reaching into his pocket, and brought out the items he took with him. A lighter and a whole pack of cigarettes. Zero opened the pack, took on of the white cylinders out, placed it in his mouth, and lit it. Zero placed his lighter back into his pocket, and glanced around only to notice he wasn't alone. "What brings you outside?" Zero asked as he inhaling the smoke deeply.
"I didn't know you smoke..." The red-orange hair reploid spoke.
Zero muttered as he blew excess smoke out of his mouth. "Been smoking for 6 years now." He took a long inhaled from the cigarette.
"I guess there are things I still don't know about you guys..." He sighed.
"Don't feel bad, is not like you are getting a award for finding out things anyway" again he inhaling the smoke deeply.
Young reploid sighed again, Zero was right, worrying over something like that wasn't his concern. "Something bothering you?" Red reploid ask.
"Well you could say that..." Axl took a deep breath, he wasn't sure if Zero was the right person to speak with when it came to a situations such as these. But it was worth a try. "Do you ever question...the reason to your existence?"
Zero excess smoke out of his mouth, "Yeah, so?"
That was a relief to Axl, He though he was the only one who questioned his purpose of existence... "What would you do if you ever found out the truth about your past?"
Zero took the cigar out of his mouth and place it between his two fingers, he turn to face Axl just for a minute before answering the question. "I regret many things I done in the past, as thing stand I do regret been created...I always though that the world would be better if didn't exist. None of those reploids would had died, none of them would have... gone Maverick. However, when I think about the chances X could had die or HQ been destroy because some how some one created something more powerful than Maverick virus then I really do enjoy the fact that I was created...maybe for the wrong reasons at times but others...I don't" The Blonde sighed, dropping his cigarette, grinding it into the ground and waving away the smoke.
"I see..."
"What's in your mind?"
"Few doubts about myself..." More like a few thousand.
"Never doubt yourself because there are other reploids out there depending on you, me and X to defeat our enemies." Axl cracked a small laugh, is not what Zero had told him, rather thinking of someone. "What's so funny?" Blonde ask.
"Just funny...The way everyone says, depending of me...doesn't sound that way to X. His hatred toward me just keeps getting worst..." Axl put one of his hand on his hair, smoothing it with his fingers.
"X doesn't hate you... Just has a hard time expressing himself these days."
"Yeah, to me only, right? Stop been in his side Zero...take what I would feel?" I have feeling too, everyone just seems to take X side for some reason. Because he is powerful? Popular?
"But I do....The problem with X is that he doesn't know HOW to deal with you. You are the first reploid giving him so much trouble, you don't listen, pay attention, nor going to give up been a Maverick Hunter. It surprises him...you are still at it."
"So he is picking on me because I want to become someone? He has to learn to understand that I choose to be a Maverick Hunter, Is not up to him to tell me to quit."
"Don't tell me that, talk to him about it."
"I can't." is not like I don't have time...
"Why?" Here it comes...
"He just chooses not to listen to me" He just doesn't want anything to do with me period.
"That COULD be a problem.. However you have to catch X when he is alone, you may be able to get something out of him but if he is surrounded by people is not the best time. Trust me" Well there was some advice coming from all powerful Zero, quite helpful too.
Axl Sighed, it was worth giving it a try, after all Zero knew X more than anyone. More than even Alia...."I guess.."
"Good, start tomorrow. I am sure you are bound to catch him alone some time." Yeah when will that 'Sometime' ever be?
"Well I am heading back, coming?" Axl ask.
"I will be there in a few, Want to catch my air for a bit more" Axl just smile, walk away toward the screen doors. No word said, no word left behind...Even though Axl forgot to ask Zero about his BIGGER problem, some how he felt he shouldn't tell anyone yet. He hasn't made a decision, so he guessed it wasn't that right time.
Zero saw as Axl walk away further and further into HQ, soon as Axl was out of sight, Zero mumble to himself..."The only reason X dislike Axl because he reminds him so much like he use to be..." Zero stared at the dark starry night, how many reploids are there in heavens because of him? Is wrong to over think something already happen? To over think of the past too much? After years of fighting, It kind of makes you wonder what would other think of him.
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The next day had arrived, All of HQ was awake. Morning were always the most busiest time of the day. Everyone was heading to towards their regular schedules, without hesitating to work. X decide to switch class hours with some one, so he could have time to work on his paper work during the mornings and teach in the afternoons. So X was busy all day long, Unlike certain red reploid, who refuse to teach students about wars and peace. But who could blame him?
"I heard you disappeared on Graduation party.." Alia walk in X office. It was small and it only consist of a large wooden desk, a chair and a refrigerator which was all the way on the left side of the room. Tons of paper were lying on X Desk and a few inked pens next to him.
"And?" X continue to write.
"Is not like you to disappeared like that...some of your girl class mates were worry about, some came up to me asking for you. I can understand if Zero wasn't around but he isn't the type to actually party unless he is drunk..." Alia took the empty Seat next to X desk.
X stared for a minute at Alia and began to work again "Just have a lot of things in mind..." X mumble.
"Like? I can always help when it comes to paper work..." Alia took a pen and began to help him.
X sighed, there was no way in hell Alia would get out of his office unless she got what she wanted... She was pretty stubborn but then again that's why he probably like about her. "Is Axl..."
Here came the big question..." What about him?" Alia wanted an answer not a name.
"I told the general court about him, told them not to let him be a Maverick Hunter" Alia slap her hand down her desk, X eyes open wide as the noise echo around the room. He stared at her...
"How can you do that?! Kid is trying so hard! The least you could is stay out of his way!" Alia almost yell, getting out of her sit.
"I cannot allow him to be a Maverick Hunter, Simple as that!" X reply.
"X, you out of ALL people have grown to be stubborn!! More than Me! How can you request, No, Not ALLOW Axl becoming a Hunter!!?" Alia was almost red of anger, how can X take such a selfish decision...
"I am not doing this because I hate him Alia! I want to keep him away from HQ! Fighting out there!" X try to respond
"Well fuck, then take out ALL HQ if it makes you feel any damn better! EVERYONE going to keep risking their lives out there! Whether inside HQ or not!" Alia sat back down, breathing heavy and thinking over X words.
X sighed again,. Placing his hand over his head. He didn't really want to give his REAL reason, there was something about Axl that makes X angry. Then it hit Alia... that time, Zero and her talked about X dislike for Axl.
~Flash back~
Zero & Alia were currently working on a new set of paper work, that just came early from Signas, of course to Zero dislike he was force to work on it and Alia was suppose to keep her eyes on him. Although She was curious enough to ask Zero few questions...that's why she wanted to stick around Zero.
"Zero...You know X for a while now right?"
"About 15 years...Why?"
"I was wondering...has X ever hated anyone in particular?"
"Come think of it, yeah, Bald ugly face." Alia laughed. "But if it's not him then... No."
Alia stared at her paper work, she was almost finish but when she notice Zero paper, he was no where near complete.. 'He must really hate his job...' she giggle inside. "I will make you a deal!"
"Hmm?"
"I will do whatever is left of your paper work if you tell me about X a bit..."
"That's all I need to do?" Zero was doubtful.
"Yes, I just want to know why X hates Axl so much..." Alia wonder but never really got the answer straight from X, although she has thought it over it still didn't click. Sure he dislike Axl been in the battle but there was more of a reason....
Zero sighed, Alia guessed he was asked this questioned before. ..."X doesn't hate Axl...he just dislike him because he reminds him so much like he use to be..." Alia gasped, 'So much like he use to be?'
"How so?" She had to ask.
"Axl is carefree, Happy, and find the way around his problems without facing them head on... X hates that BECAUSE he use to be that way until he notice that it wasn't going to go away and it just got into X heart, breaking him apart. He realize to those who he killed won't come back..." Zero replied.
~End of Flashback~
Alia stared back down again to her work before she began to speak, "You hate him because he reminds you so much of yourself..." X eyes were widen, how did she know that? He stared at her but she made no cooperation to make eye contact with him. Before X could even open his mouth to say something, a huge explosion was heard.
"We will finish this later!" X dash out of the room, leaving Alia there to think. She cried, X was hurt...just by seeing Axl. I guess there was something that could take time to understand...With that though in mind Alia rush out of the room and headed towards the control room.
~End of Chapter~
O.o I WROTE! I FINISH chapter...I am quite proud the way I typed this...hehehe Emotion are so easy to write. Again I am sorry for my lack of Grammar, English isn't my best subject. Even though I like to write, Ironic isn't it?
Like? Hate? Comment please =)
Disclaimer: You know the drill, Story is mine, and Characters are borrowed. Same rules people, nothing changes.
"Hidden Thoughts"
By: Nyago
~Axl POV~
Things had not gone well; even I could see that. And to be honest, I really didn't like how things were looking in the future. I wasn't sure whether to tell X or not. He probably get angry at me for keeping this secret to myself.. but as things stand, I didn't have much of a choice. Why was include into this little situation? What do I have that he wants? My power? My ability to transform? Have it, I don't care any more about this cursed body... He promise me that if I gave him what he wanted he would tell me of my past... But for what? Be disappointed at my creator for bringing me alive? Is not that I wanted to run, I just wasn't sure whether I wanted the truth or not.
Wonder what he meant when he said "Revenge is like an uncontrolled flame; it burns more than what was intended, or wanted." What Revenge? I wasn't angry at any one, Or was any one costing me pain... Unless he meant about my past. Zero always told me never to trust on other reploids too much, and after that fight with him. It may me realize...I was just a monster. Disliked my human looks and emotions, It was just a mask to cover my true form...Maybe I should, truth him. As long as X doesn't know, I am safe; for a while at least. His dislike for me; as Alia prefers to call it, has grown over the past 2 weeks. He annoys me, trying ways to bring my spirits down but I don't let him get to me. Not anymore...
Rather chilly tonight, wind blows, not a care in the world. *Sigh* Peace...Is this how it feels? Have the wind blow away softly against my face... Is a nice feeling.
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Zero was also currently out back of Headquarters, reaching into his pocket, and brought out the items he took with him. A lighter and a whole pack of cigarettes. Zero opened the pack, took on of the white cylinders out, placed it in his mouth, and lit it. Zero placed his lighter back into his pocket, and glanced around only to notice he wasn't alone. "What brings you outside?" Zero asked as he inhaling the smoke deeply.
"I didn't know you smoke..." The red-orange hair reploid spoke.
Zero muttered as he blew excess smoke out of his mouth. "Been smoking for 6 years now." He took a long inhaled from the cigarette.
"I guess there are things I still don't know about you guys..." He sighed.
"Don't feel bad, is not like you are getting a award for finding out things anyway" again he inhaling the smoke deeply.
Young reploid sighed again, Zero was right, worrying over something like that wasn't his concern. "Something bothering you?" Red reploid ask.
"Well you could say that..." Axl took a deep breath, he wasn't sure if Zero was the right person to speak with when it came to a situations such as these. But it was worth a try. "Do you ever question...the reason to your existence?"
Zero excess smoke out of his mouth, "Yeah, so?"
That was a relief to Axl, He though he was the only one who questioned his purpose of existence... "What would you do if you ever found out the truth about your past?"
Zero took the cigar out of his mouth and place it between his two fingers, he turn to face Axl just for a minute before answering the question. "I regret many things I done in the past, as thing stand I do regret been created...I always though that the world would be better if didn't exist. None of those reploids would had died, none of them would have... gone Maverick. However, when I think about the chances X could had die or HQ been destroy because some how some one created something more powerful than Maverick virus then I really do enjoy the fact that I was created...maybe for the wrong reasons at times but others...I don't" The Blonde sighed, dropping his cigarette, grinding it into the ground and waving away the smoke.
"I see..."
"What's in your mind?"
"Few doubts about myself..." More like a few thousand.
"Never doubt yourself because there are other reploids out there depending on you, me and X to defeat our enemies." Axl cracked a small laugh, is not what Zero had told him, rather thinking of someone. "What's so funny?" Blonde ask.
"Just funny...The way everyone says, depending of me...doesn't sound that way to X. His hatred toward me just keeps getting worst..." Axl put one of his hand on his hair, smoothing it with his fingers.
"X doesn't hate you... Just has a hard time expressing himself these days."
"Yeah, to me only, right? Stop been in his side Zero...take what I would feel?" I have feeling too, everyone just seems to take X side for some reason. Because he is powerful? Popular?
"But I do....The problem with X is that he doesn't know HOW to deal with you. You are the first reploid giving him so much trouble, you don't listen, pay attention, nor going to give up been a Maverick Hunter. It surprises him...you are still at it."
"So he is picking on me because I want to become someone? He has to learn to understand that I choose to be a Maverick Hunter, Is not up to him to tell me to quit."
"Don't tell me that, talk to him about it."
"I can't." is not like I don't have time...
"Why?" Here it comes...
"He just chooses not to listen to me" He just doesn't want anything to do with me period.
"That COULD be a problem.. However you have to catch X when he is alone, you may be able to get something out of him but if he is surrounded by people is not the best time. Trust me" Well there was some advice coming from all powerful Zero, quite helpful too.
Axl Sighed, it was worth giving it a try, after all Zero knew X more than anyone. More than even Alia...."I guess.."
"Good, start tomorrow. I am sure you are bound to catch him alone some time." Yeah when will that 'Sometime' ever be?
"Well I am heading back, coming?" Axl ask.
"I will be there in a few, Want to catch my air for a bit more" Axl just smile, walk away toward the screen doors. No word said, no word left behind...Even though Axl forgot to ask Zero about his BIGGER problem, some how he felt he shouldn't tell anyone yet. He hasn't made a decision, so he guessed it wasn't that right time.
Zero saw as Axl walk away further and further into HQ, soon as Axl was out of sight, Zero mumble to himself..."The only reason X dislike Axl because he reminds him so much like he use to be..." Zero stared at the dark starry night, how many reploids are there in heavens because of him? Is wrong to over think something already happen? To over think of the past too much? After years of fighting, It kind of makes you wonder what would other think of him.
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The next day had arrived, All of HQ was awake. Morning were always the most busiest time of the day. Everyone was heading to towards their regular schedules, without hesitating to work. X decide to switch class hours with some one, so he could have time to work on his paper work during the mornings and teach in the afternoons. So X was busy all day long, Unlike certain red reploid, who refuse to teach students about wars and peace. But who could blame him?
"I heard you disappeared on Graduation party.." Alia walk in X office. It was small and it only consist of a large wooden desk, a chair and a refrigerator which was all the way on the left side of the room. Tons of paper were lying on X Desk and a few inked pens next to him.
"And?" X continue to write.
"Is not like you to disappeared like that...some of your girl class mates were worry about, some came up to me asking for you. I can understand if Zero wasn't around but he isn't the type to actually party unless he is drunk..." Alia took the empty Seat next to X desk.
X stared for a minute at Alia and began to work again "Just have a lot of things in mind..." X mumble.
"Like? I can always help when it comes to paper work..." Alia took a pen and began to help him.
X sighed, there was no way in hell Alia would get out of his office unless she got what she wanted... She was pretty stubborn but then again that's why he probably like about her. "Is Axl..."
Here came the big question..." What about him?" Alia wanted an answer not a name.
"I told the general court about him, told them not to let him be a Maverick Hunter" Alia slap her hand down her desk, X eyes open wide as the noise echo around the room. He stared at her...
"How can you do that?! Kid is trying so hard! The least you could is stay out of his way!" Alia almost yell, getting out of her sit.
"I cannot allow him to be a Maverick Hunter, Simple as that!" X reply.
"X, you out of ALL people have grown to be stubborn!! More than Me! How can you request, No, Not ALLOW Axl becoming a Hunter!!?" Alia was almost red of anger, how can X take such a selfish decision...
"I am not doing this because I hate him Alia! I want to keep him away from HQ! Fighting out there!" X try to respond
"Well fuck, then take out ALL HQ if it makes you feel any damn better! EVERYONE going to keep risking their lives out there! Whether inside HQ or not!" Alia sat back down, breathing heavy and thinking over X words.
X sighed again,. Placing his hand over his head. He didn't really want to give his REAL reason, there was something about Axl that makes X angry. Then it hit Alia... that time, Zero and her talked about X dislike for Axl.
~Flash back~
Zero & Alia were currently working on a new set of paper work, that just came early from Signas, of course to Zero dislike he was force to work on it and Alia was suppose to keep her eyes on him. Although She was curious enough to ask Zero few questions...that's why she wanted to stick around Zero.
"Zero...You know X for a while now right?"
"About 15 years...Why?"
"I was wondering...has X ever hated anyone in particular?"
"Come think of it, yeah, Bald ugly face." Alia laughed. "But if it's not him then... No."
Alia stared at her paper work, she was almost finish but when she notice Zero paper, he was no where near complete.. 'He must really hate his job...' she giggle inside. "I will make you a deal!"
"Hmm?"
"I will do whatever is left of your paper work if you tell me about X a bit..."
"That's all I need to do?" Zero was doubtful.
"Yes, I just want to know why X hates Axl so much..." Alia wonder but never really got the answer straight from X, although she has thought it over it still didn't click. Sure he dislike Axl been in the battle but there was more of a reason....
Zero sighed, Alia guessed he was asked this questioned before. ..."X doesn't hate Axl...he just dislike him because he reminds him so much like he use to be..." Alia gasped, 'So much like he use to be?'
"How so?" She had to ask.
"Axl is carefree, Happy, and find the way around his problems without facing them head on... X hates that BECAUSE he use to be that way until he notice that it wasn't going to go away and it just got into X heart, breaking him apart. He realize to those who he killed won't come back..." Zero replied.
~End of Flashback~
Alia stared back down again to her work before she began to speak, "You hate him because he reminds you so much of yourself..." X eyes were widen, how did she know that? He stared at her but she made no cooperation to make eye contact with him. Before X could even open his mouth to say something, a huge explosion was heard.
"We will finish this later!" X dash out of the room, leaving Alia there to think. She cried, X was hurt...just by seeing Axl. I guess there was something that could take time to understand...With that though in mind Alia rush out of the room and headed towards the control room.
~End of Chapter~
O.o I WROTE! I FINISH chapter...I am quite proud the way I typed this...hehehe Emotion are so easy to write. Again I am sorry for my lack of Grammar, English isn't my best subject. Even though I like to write, Ironic isn't it?
Like? Hate? Comment please =)