I am so sorry I left this fanfic for so long but I was busy ; Anyway, Chapter 4! Please forgive me for not writing the actual fighting part from the last chapter. Remember, you fight, Zero and X win No need to go over it.

Disclaimer: ; Borrow characters Expect Shina.

"Nightmares of a forgotten Past"

By: Nyago

"What lies for you?"

My past...the reason why I was created.

"Do you honestly think you are wanted?"

No.

"Why fight it?"

Because...I can only rely on myself.

Cold sweats came straight down my face, like as if I just cried. Past couple of days only memory kept flowing in my dream,. asking me, who I was or why did I exist? It wasn't until much later that I realize it was the beginning. I'm not sure how it happened. I never was able to process it, to rationally find out when or how exactly it all began... but for some reason I never really care.

It wasn't that I hated anyone, no, it was more like…I felt...I felt that I was abandon. Left alone in this world to suffer or see myself feel miserable every time I was around him. The reason, why I wanted to become a Maverick Hinter, it was all because...of him. It was only a matter of time before I lost control of myself. Darkness that had surrounds me... has become part of me. Getting off my bed, I began to notice, how dark and lonely my own room can look. Without bothering to turn the light on, I change my shirt and walk out of my room. Destination...Well, whatever my mind wonder...

Even during the night, HQ can look like a grave yard....Worst, since there are no lights on. Well expect maybe a few rooms but they were kept shut tight. Only light came out from the windows. I sighed, this was probably the worst trip I ever been on. Depressing part, no one was around when you needed to talk. Unless..."I can always go get late night visits..." last time I check, Zero was one of those people. I hope he wasn't asleep. I swallow my breath, hoping Zero wouldn't kill me for knocking on his door late at night. It was after all fairly late...I say 2 AM wasn't the best time. So there I was, found myself in front of his door. Now the question was, either to get killed or not to get killed by knocking at this hour.

Just when I was ready to knock, I began to hear voices...putting my hear to the door (Curious as I was) I say it sounded like a young woman was in Zero room. Wait a minute...this WAS Zero room right? The sign DOES say it's room of Captain of Zero unit, So...Why am I hearing a girl? Unless...Could, could Zero have someone in his room?!! I can feel myself go blushing red at the thought.

I knew he was classified as 'gorgeous' and 'fine' but.... last time I check Zero wasn't into any relationship at the moment, beside one he had long ago with some girl, her name wasn't given. Not much details on her or Zero relationship. All I was told she died in Zero arms during Maverick wars about 4 years ago and that she was very pretty. I wonder...how it feels to lose someone right under your arms. I mean, I know how it feels to lose someone period...but to watch them die?

I stared blankly at the door. Was it wise to knock on his door? No, I will leave for the morning. I rather like for him to explain than me asking the questions because then he would ask me a million back like 'Why was I awake at 2 in the morning?' Well... rumor will spread, they always do, guess I will wait until then. Without a second though, I began to walk again. I can see this was going to be a long night.

X turn again, and again, and again. It was happening again... Why do this scream keep haunting him? Darkness surround him, and someone calling him, telling him he had abandon them. But who, was the question.

"Why did abandon me...?"

"Who's there?" X ask.

"Why did you leave me?" Voice spoke again.

"I never leave anyone! Where are you?!" X yell, only to hear his own echo.

"You could had just told me you hated me...."

"I don't hate anyone!!" X was despaired, he wanted so bad to help that person whom he had abandon...but it never gave him a clue to who it was. Until, figure was showed: Bleeding, beat up, torn from bottom down completely....it was: "AXL!" X yell, running towards him. No matter how much he ran, he couldn't reach him. "Axl!!" X yell again, wanting him to hear him, but the faster he ran, the further Axl emotionless body got ahead. Before he knew it, he was falling into an endless pit on darkness. Without further dreaming, X woken up scared nearly to death.

Taking deep breaths, X notice he wasn't dreaming anymore. Instead he lay on his bed cover in his own sweat. 'That was a dream wasn't it?' X wonder on his mind. "Axl..." Why was he in X dream? Could the spiked haired reploid worry him that much? X sighed, allowing his brow hair fall on his face. This was really freaking him out, and there was so many question X had in mind. Why do they keep haunting like this? Even if they are alive. "Argh!" X allow his head to hit the side of his pillow. He was just so frustrated and he hate it. X hated to have these tormenting thoughts. Without a care in the world, X got out of his bed and headed toward Axl room. He just wanted to make sure Axl was sound asleep.

Walking out quietly without the lights on, X headed to the stair case, where he began to go further down to the floor below him, where Axl room was assign. Upon getting to Axl door, X hesitated and just stared at the door. It wasn't that X wasn't properly cover, since he was not wearing a T-shirt of his own size. He used Zero T-shirt, that Zero had left on his room and he had washed it, since then he kept it and is not like he was planning to give it back. With a sigh, X open Axl door slowly, making sure not to disturb Axl sleeping form. Instead he found Axl wasn't even in his room. X panic, and worry got over him. Taking a quick slash he hurry to Zero room to ask him if Axl had come by.

Without bothering to knock on the door, X found himself face to face with Alia, who was currently sitting on Zero bed, while Zero lead his back on the wall. X took a deep breath, and try to sound normal, "Have you guys seen Axl?" X had other questions in mind but...there was no time to ask.

"No" Zero flatly answered.

"Damn..." X cursed.

"What's wrong X?" Alia ask, noticing X was worry. There was not a thing X could hide in front of her, maybe to Zero but that's because he was just as clueless as X. Sometimes she cursed her woman intuition...

"I when to check on Axl just now because I wanted to make sure he was alright since lately I have been getting well strange feelings but when I got there, Axl was gone!"

"More like missing you think?" Zero smirked.

"Where was the last time you saw him?" X asked.

"This morning, near the cafeteria. Blushing madly as he saw Shina..." Zero tried not to chuckle. It was just that obvious that Axl liked the girl. I mean he couldn't even keep his eyes straight to look at her let alone talk to her properly.

"Never mind that, just help me look for him" Without taking any other time to think, X hurry down stairs. Alia when up stairs while Zero asked a few night walkers if they seen the orange haired kid.

After a few running a rounds, X met up with Zero who had actual luck into finding out about Axl hiding place. Without a second lost, X quickly dashes there. He found himself, stare at a beautiful garden at the back of HQ. Who had grown quite nicely...

Noticing orange hair sticking up, X walked faster to almost scream at him. "What do you think you are doing?!" X yelled. Axl scared to death, felt on his butt, making a huge loud noise as his butt landed on the ground. Rubbing his fallen butt chick, Axl stared up to look at an angry X.

"What?!" Axl looked at X who only stared at him coldly. While Zero just stared into space, not wanting to get involve.

"Do you know what time it is?!" X spoke again.

"Yes" Axl roll his eyes. What did it matter to him anyway? Axl was just calmly looking at the stars in silence, there was no need to disturb him, let alone scream at him.

"Just the night I was going to check on you, you had to go missing!" X stated. If it wasn't his dream that haunted him, it was his fatherly hood he had for Axl. Even Alia told him, he behaved like a father to him than a friend.

"Why do you care anyway?" Axl gave his own angry grin.

"Because, if we were under attack you wouldn't able to protect yourself much less know about what hit you."

"I don't care much for life..." Axl only whisper, making it sound as a mumble to X.

"Huh?"

"Nothing..." Axl sighed.

"Just get back to HQ and get so sleep, you are going to be the first on my list to wake up tomorrow. If you are late to class that is" With that said, X walked away.

"What?! I don't even go to your classes!"

"You are now!" X kept walking, ignore Axl protest.

"ARGH!" Axl kick the rock near him. "He HATES ME!!" Angrily Axl, stump his feet to the floor. He stare at it, more calmly now. Unaware, Zero was still around.

"He doesn't hate you..." Zero said.

"Yes he does, makes my life a living hell."

"Just he is over protective."

"Yeah, you could say that again. Why annoy me of all people?"

"Because you are careless of your actions."

"I am not!" Axl yell angry, Zero raise his hand as if telling him to cool off.

"I hate him..." Axl mind stated.

"Do you want to get rid of him?" Someone spoke, Axl turn around and around, only to find himself alone. The voice giggle and continue to haunted him, that was until....he remember it was the same voice.

"It's you! The one that came to me when I was in a comma!" Axl yell.

It laughed. "So you do remember me...How sweet." Axl got ready to fight but instead found himself surrounded by darkness, everything that once stood there with him was gone, including Zero. It was just pitch dark....like his heart has grown to be.

"Do you want to become someone better?"

"Better?" Axl began to think, to be better than X? It would be a dream come true. How long has be waited to be better than him at anything so he doesn't have to hear X yell on him all the time. "How can I be better?!"

"Such a young and innocent child....You have powers not even X possesses."

"But to be better than him?!" Axl couldn't believe it's words. It was too good. As if he was about to wake up from a dream and face reality.

"You can....you have the power my dear child. You can become indivisible..."

"But...." Axl had his own doubts.

"Don't worry my child...I promise to show you true power. The one that sleeps within you...the past in which you seek so much."

Axl gasped and open his eyes "My past?! How do you know about it?!" Axl yell.

"Tsk tsk... my child, all in time due, call me in this very place at anytime, and I will tell you of the truth...But promise me, do not tell your friends, not even that girl you like so much. She may tell on our little blue boy."

Axl hesitated for a minute. "Alright....I won't tell but, promise me, you will tell me!"

It laughed. "Don't forget, our promise and my lips will speak only but the truth." With those few words spoke, Axl return to reality.

"Axl!" Zero yell.

"Huh?" Axl look around, to find himself back at the garden.

"You spaced out for a minute there...you better get to sleep, because knowing you, you would probably want to sleep in the morning." With that hitting Axl mind, he hurry to his dorm, yelling his good night to Zero. "Geez, such a kid" Zero smirked. Rubbing the back of his head.

'What was that?' Axl thought...He wasn't going crazy. Last time he checked he was pretty normal still. 'It knows about my past, the one thing I seek so much to know.' Axl took the elevator to the 4 floor, in which his dorm lay. He lean against the glass and stare into space. 'To know the real me...' Was it wise to meet someone who just mentally spoke to him. It wasn't the first time, Axl hasn't done anything weird but to listen to a voice inside of him? Curiosity was really killing him... 'to meet it before tomorrow?' Axl stare into space once again, waiting as the elevators finally came to a stop. Stepping out he became face to face with Nikki, one of Shina best friend.

She blush madly as she saw Axl standing there, with only a lose t-shirt and orange pants.

"Hi...." She mumble.

"Hey" Axl said, not putting much effort into his words. He walk right pass her, leaving her blushing madly , but soon to notice he was heading toward his room.

"Ano..." Axl turn to see her before stepping into his room, she blush again "Good night"

Axl could only find myself smiling, "Good night" Within seconds he was in his room. Leaving the door behind him close.

Nikki stare into space, did Axl just smile at her? She felt herself deep red, and ready to blow up. Such a calm and sweet smile. If Axl were to smile as offend more, the girls around him would go crazy! Even Shina would actually notice him. but Axl was always hiding his face either by anger or just blushing. He didn't really show much emotions toward people, not even Zero or Alia and worst...X. But just that one smile, made her heart giggle.

Morning had arrive, without a second minute late, Axl rush out of his room and into the school grounds of HQ. He was late, he knew it. He had over slept, just like Zero told him. Curse him for been right on the fact... He ran to a few people here and there but apologies after each incident. Hurrying into X classroom in which was completely fill with students, already working on their assignments. Axl cursed under his breath, He was going to get the speech if he walks in there. He had to avoid it, he couldn't get another harassment from X anymore.

Slowly walking away, he found himself stop in mid-way. It was Signas.

"Heh, good morning" Axl greed it.

"You are late" Signas said.

"I know, so then I will be going since I miss half the class already." Axl tried to giggle instead he found himself grad on the heck collar and into X class room. Shit.. This wasn't good. Everyone stare at the door, to find a very amusing scene. Signas hand on Axl neck collar and X giving away a huge sigh.

"Late to class on the first day Axl..." X said seriously.

Axl stared at his class but soon to be aware that Signas had allow him to stand on his feet again. He was been watched...many stares were directly at him. Even...'Shina!?' Axl yell mentally. Curses, he just had to go to a class she was in!! I swear, X made it on purpose to torture him.

"Sit down Mister Axl, we will have the chat after class is over." Everyone giggle at X comment and Axl proceed to sit down near the back door. As far from Shina as he could. Again the class began, Axl was bored out of his mind. God did he hated X class...it was so BORING. All they talk about was peace....something Axl wasn't too familiar with. Almost ready to fall asleep, He felt a light tap on his arm, as everyone stare at him.

Axl blush, everyone else had began to giggle. X only gave him the cold stare. "So Axl, do tell us, what is Peace for you?" X questioned. It was a test... X was testing Axl, to see how much he manage to learn that day.

"Peace?" Axl repeat. He thought for a minute, to notice the entire class was again their attention was toward him. "Peace is...a place where there is no wars, nor hating. A place everyone can finally be free and live among each other." Well at least Axl was honest.

"But how can we achieve this peace?" X ask.

"Talking won't do...Got to kick them to earn it." Axl said, everyone stared to whisper and exchange looks on each other.

"And have you realize your violent ways have cost the lives of others?"

'Things like that are meant to happen...some day you will die, might as well die with a caused" By now the entire class was out of control. X told them to settle down but was un-expected to hear the rings go off.

"Everyone remember to go over your chapters, and Axl I would like to see you after.." Well crap, Axl knew that meant trouble. Picking up his stuff from his chair, he look up to see Shina look at him with sad eyes before walking out. What was that all about?

The class was now empty, only Axl and X stood in the room. X began.." Do you realize you were late and that you are incorrect with your answers."

"Well damn excuse me for not knowing about peace, just my first time here"

X remained calm. "That is why you are in the class, because you are unaware of it."

"Then Zero should be in here too" Axl reply back.

"Zero has nothing to do with you Axl! He is a lot more older and experience than you! He knows what it means to have peace, he just keep fighting because he just doesn't find any other meaning! Even if I did teach him, he wouldn't see it my way!" X lost control.

"Well shit, like I would myself!"

"You are still young!"

"I am not that young as I look! For all we know I could be 100 year old! For damn sakes, I don't even know of my own past!" Axl also lost control.

"You don't need a past to know what's in store for you in the future!"

"Maybe I don't want to believe in your pacific ways!" It was the last straw, X told Axl to get out of his room. Without a second though to think over, Axl dashed out of the room getting as many people staring at possible. They probably heard it all, since they were yelling.

"Axl!' Nikki tried to wave hello, instead to see a very angry Axl headed out of HQ "Axl...." She whisper.

Axl couldn't think straight, he had to get his mind off things, and there was one thing that could. 'That person deal...' Axl thought. Maybe they could help him? It was all worth a try. Dashing to the garden he ahead, but only to find himself alone with the wind. He look around and spoke "Hey you...whatever you are....care to help?" Axl said. Taking a sit near the flower garden, a soft long wind came rushing in. Axl turn to see a young woman. She was pretty, with long brown hair and blue eyes. She looked worry...

"So would you like to know the truth?" She ask. That was the person that haunted him?! A girl?!

"Yes....I want to know why I was created! Why do I exist!" Axl tried to hold his anger. Making his fit turn into claps.

"My dear child..." She hugged him. "There is just so much for you to know..." She whisper. "But I can't tell you here....Oh no, the truth goes where you were first found." She said, allowing Axl to look at her. She was taller than he was.

Axl again hesitated...."Alright...I will come, just tell me who are you before we go?"

She smirked but not enough for Axl to see. "I am Iris" She smile.

To be Continue..

BWHAH! Ok, I am done. This fanfic just sounding stupid now. Shoot me if you want.... I wrote. and it sounded stupid. Blah, I hate writing fanfics sometimes. Feel free to comment, they do the author some good.