1Hi a new chapter once again...I love the feed back and would like to thank my reviewers for such well...lovely reviews. I mean honestly I never thought I would get so much feed back.

Me-Oh and I would like to say to Xenta that sadly I only have a small dagger...but ladywolf Terri sharpened it for me...

Melody-Hi Xenta...Kick her ass!

Me-Hey...support much...

Melody- nope

Me- Oh yes and I do know about how cutters take pills and other things...my friend died of suicide just last year and I'm dedicating what Yugi went through to her...I want someone to get the happy ending she didn't no matter what they have to go through to get it...

Melody-yep

Me- and I love it when I get questions to answer so when you review feel free to leave one and any stories that you've written and would like me to read AND review I will kindly do.

Melody-yeah, well since she let go of Ryou who used to do the review along with others. I will. Maria does not own Yugioh...I mean honestly it would be a yaoi show if she did...smirks

Me- ditto..I know people don't want the hikaris to get hurt but there will be MAJOR angst with them BUT in the end it will turn out ok...in the end that is...all of the sudden thinks of Linkin Park...

Song lyrics if I decided to put in any...

Masked Emotions

Chapter9...The Party

The music was extremely loud and Yugi was having time just thinking never mind trying to understand what Yami was saying.

"LET"S GO OUTSIDE FOR A MINUTE" Yami shouted over the music as if it was completely normal.

"WHAT" Yugi asked shouting back.

"I SAID LETS GO OUTSIDE" Yami motioned to the door and Yugi quickly followed. The music wasn't as loud outside and Yugi rubbed his hands together against the cold.

"So what did you want" he asked leaning against the house slowly sliding down to a sitting position.

"Nothing much but I could tell it was a tad bit loud in there for a new comer" Yami explained.

"Oh, Thanks" Yugi smiled gratefully and his heart leapt when Yami smiled back.

"No problem..." Yami said trailing off. He couldn't believe it. Him, The King Of Games, One of the hottest guys in school, was having trouble with how to kiss Yugi. Should he ask or not. 'Great, I didn't have trouble last time and now I'm going through one of those inner turmoil type things' he thought sarcastically.

"Whatever" he said softly and then took Yugi's face and pressed their lips together. It was better than the last time as they started another game of 'the tongue battle' (don't ask). The kiss was filled with need on both parts as Yugi gripped Yami's shirt and slowly leaned over so he was now straddling the other. Breaking apart the two locked eyes breathing heavily.

(Bet you hate that don't you)

Ryou stood amazed at the amount of people at the party. 'A massive amount of bodies pouring with sweat...my favorite' with even more sarcasm than Yami. Bakura went off to get them something to drink. Though he tried to convince Ryou to have at least one beer and had no success at all. Ryou jumped slightly as arms wrapped around his waste.

"Everything is spiked...Melody's looking for water right now" Bakura said in Ryou's ear. Ryou nodded and was startled as Bakura slowly led him out to the dance floor.

"Bakura I can't dance" he said embarrassed.

"Don't worry about it" he responded looking down with a smirk.

Me- this is just a little bit of humor before the HUGE angst comes up.

As the pair slowly began to dance Ryou couldn't help but stare at his feet.

"Ryou look at me" Bakura demanded softly in the other's ear.

"Bakura I can't I'll step on your feet" Ryou said back.

"No you won't now look up" He said pushing the other's face up by his chin. They danced quietly for a second and Ryou sighed in bliss. "See now you're doing" "Bakura don't say it"" Nonsense you're doing fine" Crack.

"OW...fuck that hurt" Bakura cried stopping for a minute.

"Told you so"

"Really...I will get you to dance tonight" Bakura said now feeling a challenge rise up in him as he wrapped his arms around the smaller one. Ryou sighed again though this time in self-pity. 'I'll probably never get home now...Well I suppose that's alright so long Bakura's arms hold me like this'

"Hey Bakura" Ryou whispered.

"Yeah" he whispered back.

"I really like you" Ryou said softly blushing. Bakura's heart broke staring at the tenshi before him. 'He would hate me if he knew the truth' Bakura thought.

"I really like you to" he answered back and was rewarded when Ryou gave him a huge smile and kissed him on the lips.

Malik sat outside leaning against the pool deck.. He sighed and his hair swayed in the breeze framing his beautiful face. Marik was drinking and it didn't look like he planned on stopping any time soon. 'Guess I just can't hold his attention long enough now can I' he thought miserably.

"Hey Maliky.." Marik said not yet drunk just teasing. Malik slightly turned his head.

"What's wrong"

"Listen I don't get involved with any more drunks than needed" Malik answered coldly

"Yeah..I won't get drunk okay. I have a high tolerance for alcohol" Marik said and shot him a small smile which was returned.

"Okay" Malik stood there unsure of what to do.

"Let's go dance" Marik said grabbing the other's arm. Malik smirked.

"Are you sure you can handle me" he taunted.

Maliky..you're lucky if you can keep up with me" the other retorted. Marik grabbed Malik and pulled him close so their bodies were right up against each other and grinded into him. Malik moaned and then grabbed Marik's hips pushing them impossibly close while they danced. The whole song they ravished each other until it slowly came to a stop. When it did Marik went to retrieve his beer he left on the counter (now come on everyone knows not to leave your drink sitting unattended). He never noticed the hand that slipped something in it while he was dancing. After taking a drink he felt a change in his body instantly. It was like he saw Malik in a different view. A much hornier view.

Malik made his way to Marik smiling.

"You're good" he complimented, "I didn't think anyone could dance like that"

"Your not bad yourself" he whispered in Malik's ear. His hands had a mind of their own as they skidded up and down the others body. Malik breathed in. 'I like him a lot but why is he moving so fast. I'm not ready for this' he thought. (This is gonna be trouble)

"Marik stop let's have fun" Malik said laughing it off. Marik didn't stop though. He didn't want to hurt Malik but right now that wasn't what was on his mind. Malik's body was though and only that(1).

"Marik I said stop" Malik said more forcefully.

"But Malik you're so beautiful" he whispered holding him tighter. Malik froze.

'Malik you're so beautiful'

'Daddy Stop'

'So beautiful'

Malik stared at Marik trying to force the other one off who was now trying to unbutton the his pants. He never noticed being pulled into another room until now.

"Please...Stop" he said with tears in his eyes.

"Shut up" Marik said back handing him and then all of the thoughts he had about thinking of only Malik's body fled as the other one fell to the floor.

"Malik...I'm" "Leave me the fuck alone" Malik said running out the door. He didn't pay attention to anything as he made his way through tons of bodies banging into random people.Making his way to the door he tripped and fell. Tears threatened to spill as the surrounding people laughed. Getting up he ran out the door passing Yugi and Yami.

(two to go)

Yami and Yugi had stopped teasing each other for a few minutes breathing heavily when Yugi saw Malik out of the corner of his eye.

"Was that Malik. I'm really sorry Yami but I have to go find out what's wrong" Yugi said seeing his friend run down the street. He was tripping all over the place and had tears in his eyes. Getting up Yugi went to run after him.

"Yugi wait" Yami said and grabbed his wrist stopping him. The other winced in pain and yanked his wrist out of the others grasp. In the process his wristband unsnapped and fell off revealing scars and cut marks all over it. Yugi looked like a deer in head lights while Yami lightly touched the marks.

"Yami what the fuck is going on" a voice said and Yami turned to see Jeb standing there."What are you doing with that little cutter. I thought you said you were using him for a good fuck and that was it. He said with a smirk.

"What" Yugi said looking at Yami for an answer. Yami let go of Yugi's wrist. He knew exactly what Jeb was doing but he couldn't. Now it was a choice. It was either this or let Yugi know the truth. He couldn't let that happen either.

"Yeah but he was running off. Stupid cutter. What a waste. Didn't even get a chance for a nice fuck" Yami said. His heart tightened as Yugi stared at him. Unlike Malik he let the tears fall out and run down his face. Yami felt like crying himself.

"Is this some type of sick joke" Yugi asked painfully.

"Yeah and the joke's in you" Yami said coldly with no emotion. Yugi stared at him. 'This is a joke..all of it...just a joke' he thought sadly. Turning around he ran down the driveway but instead of going in Malik's direction he ran for the game shop. Once he was out of sight Yami turned around and punched Jeb in the face.

"We wouldn't want what happened so long ago to happen with you now would we" he said quietly in an emotionless voice. Jeb nodded fear in his eyes. "Good then from now on you'll stay out of our way"

(counting down)

Ryou walked out of the bathroom relieved.(hope so) His eyes scanned over the crowd for Bakura and noticed him arguing with a girl he recognized but didn't like.

"Rachel I'm not going to fall for your stupid tricks" Bakura said.

"You can't say no. Out of the three of you guys, you Bakura, have done the worst." she said quietly in a threatening voice.

"Ryou will like me no matter what I have complete faith in him" Bakura said. Unfortunately that was the only part of the conversation Ryou heard when Rachel noticed him and pulled Bakura into a fierce kiss. Silently with out any tears in his eyes Ryou turned around calmly walking out of the party.

Slowly walking down the street he wrapped his coat tighter around him. No explanation was needed. He was just something for Bakura to pass the time.

"Ryou" Bakura called running to him. "It's not what it seems"

"It never is" Ryou said softly. A tear fell down his face and bakura went to wipe it away but Ryou stepped back. "I understand that I was just a thing to pass the time. I'd like it if you didn't talk to me anymore" He said. Out of all of this he couldn't let go of his feelings for Bakura. He couldn't be mad at anyone but himself. He continued walking leaving Bakura there.

"Ryou...I'm so sorry." he whispered.

(aftershock)

Malik wandered around aimlessly not knowing where to go. He didn't want to be a burden on Ryou or Yugi. He had nowhere to go. He came upon a park and sat down on a bench hidden by the bushes. Looking around he slowly laid his head down and curled up into a ball. Blackness closed in on him quickly.

(Couldn't forget Yugi)

Yugi sat in his room staring at the walls. His room was trashed and in the process he broke his cd player. Nothing could keep out the loneliness now. He rocked back and forth trying to clear his mind until he slowly came to a stop. Pulling out the razor he kept on his bureau he stared at his forearms. Looking at the scars he chocked back a sob and more tears fell down his face.

'I hate myself. I 'm of no use and I never really was good at anything. So why don't I kill myself. End it all. Why am I still here. Ryou and Malik. That's right. I'll take care of them tomorrow' slowly he sliced over an old scar. One after another he dug deeper and deeper over every scar he'd ever made.

'I'll tel them why I can't live'

Me- I think this chapter kinda sucked too. But I think that about all of my chapters.

(1) oh yeah the thing slipped into Marik's drink was a thing that makes you really horny. I got it from white chicks.

Melody- HOW COULD YOU...STOP MAKING MY HIKARIS MISERABLE

Me- Yes well angst is going to be a lot of the next chapter as the weekend passes and they have to go to school.

Me- please REVIEW...tell me what you think...I'm still in a Tala/Bryan story mood so if you know any good ones tell me.