Epilogue
Saturday 10th June 1978
I'm in love with James! How come I never realised it before? I think I was looking so hard at what he isn't that I didn't notice what he is. I've been doing the girly thing – the thing I despise. I've been looking for a knight in shining armour to rush in on his white steed and save the day. Looking so far into the distance I couldn't see what was in front of me.
James disappeared in the afternoon. No one knew where he was which is unusual. Turned out he'd been to see Dumbledore. There's this group, he told us afterwards, this group that is dedicated to fighting Voldemort. He's asked Dumbledore if he can join. It was when he told us that I realised. It made sense what Jenny had said to me last year. Love comes in all shapes and sizes, and so do heroes. James may not be the tragic hero of legend, he may laugh and joke about but he knows. He knows what is right and he is going to fight for it.
I told him I loved him. Right there and then in the middle of the common room and in front of his friends. I told him. When he held me and kissed me tonight it was different. Because I love this man with my whole being and now I'm finally admitting it. Tomorrow I'm going to talk to Dumbledore and ask if I can join the group too. Because I am one of the good people and I am not going to let evil triumph while I sit and watch. And when I said goodnight to James before coming up to bed tonight, I saw a glint of shining armour and I'd almost swear I heard a horse whinny in the background. I guess I do believe in fairy tales still. And I am never ever going to tell anyone that.
Friday 12th January 1979
I can't believe I'm getting married tomorrow! How nervous should I be right now? Weird I'm not nervous at all. I just wish my mother were here. She was so excited about her youngest daughter getting married. I wish she could be alive to see it. I know it seems quick, we are only 18 and just finished school last year but I love James and he loves me. There is a war on and we are not going to wait.
It's going to be a quiet wedding. We don't feel much like celebrating really. My parents death just a couple of months ago, the constant danger we are in.
I wish Jenny could be here but Dumbledore said he didn't know where to find her. I think she knew this day was coming before I did. I hope she is all right, wherever she is, and that she is happy and safe with Harvey.
The wedding party is made up of old Gryffindors and Order of the Phoenix members. I must try not to giggle when I see Moody in his dress robes – as incongruous as that sounds. This is a serious occasion. But not, as James so rightly pointed out earlier, a Sirius occasion, he may be best man but it's our day! Alice is my maid of honour and in a few months I' serving as her matron of honour because she and Frank are getting married as soon as she has finished with NEWTS. Carly has stated her intention of seducing Sirius after the ceremony – I'm sure she'll be successful but why? Oh I don't mean that in a bad way, I've had my difficulties with Sirius true, but we've kind of become friends now. It's just that a one-night stand is, to Sirius, just that and if she really wanted anything long term she'd have to go about it a completely different way.
My wedding dress is fantastic; I know I've said that before. It's kind of a combination between dress robes and a Muggle wedding dress. James is going to die when he sees me. Oh God I'm excited! I don't think I can sleep but I suppose I'd better try – don't want to walk down the aisle with dark circles under my eyes!
Monday 29th December 1979
That's three times now. Three times James and I have faced down Voldemort and said "No!" I'm sure that there is something significant in that but I don't know what. So now we are both in St Mungo's again. We are getting to be regular visitors – I know almost all the healers by name. Speaking of which, one is coming now so I better stop writing and pay attention.
Oh my God! I'm pregnant! The healer just told me. James, I've got to tell James but they've given him some dreamless sleep potion and he's not going to be awake for a while. Pregnant. A baby, I'm going to have a baby. I'm thinking back on dates and wondering why I haven't noticed until now – I guess being in a war makes you lose track of these things but I must be two months along now. A baby! Alice just told me yesterday that she was pregnant and now I am too! Well, OK I was pregnant yesterday too but I didn't know it so that doesn't count. Alice and I are going to have babies together – I wonder if they'll be friends?
Wow, a baby.
Tuesday 4th August 1980
I was watching Harry sleep today. Just sitting there watching him. Five days old and not a care in the world. My baby. Our baby. I'd give anything I could to make the world safe for him. Anything. He's so tiny. Such a tiny little bundle of potential. He woke up and looked straight at me. I picked him up and held him close and wondered; what kind of man was he going to grow up to be? Then I looked at him, no question. "You are going to be a hero little Harry, just like your Daddy."