She
whipped her id out of her purse and waved it in front of the
guard,
who waved her through without a second glance. She was never
more
thankful for her Russell contract than she was right now – it
ended
on Friday, and for that she was almost as thankful, but for
today,
this id, these last few hours as part of the staff for the out-
going
Vice-President had its perks.
She
wanted to be alone. Her roommate had been more than persistent
after
she got back from California. She wanted to hear about
everything
and wanted to spend all their time together. She knew
that
Linda had been lonely while she was gone and she really did like
her
roommate, but her roommate's favorite topic was Josh and she
couldn't
bear to talk about that, not right now.
DC
was crowded with tourists this time of year and she had no desire
to
deal with all the people milling around the Lincoln
Memorial,
besides,
it held to many memories… she knew that was out of
the
question.
The
Rose Garden had always been her solace, when she needed a
moment,
some
quiet. The smell of all the roses always got to him, so she
knew
that he would never bug her out there. It became her place, and
this
one last time, that was where she wanted to be.
And if you think I don't miss you everyday…
Those
words played over and over and over in her head as she auto-
piloted
her way through the halls. The staff, at this point, was
skeleton,
and that was putting it nicely. She was more than certain
that
she wouldn't run into Toby or CJ or Margaret. Especially now,
when
everyone was concentrating on the leak and finding whoever
that
person
was.
She
threw open the doors to the Rose Garden and took a deep breath.
The
roses were in full bloom. This was her favorite time of year,
here
in the White House, when the flowers were all in bloom. Her
eyes
watered again, as she thought that this was probably the last
time
she would stand here. It would have been one thing to have
been
beaten,
having put in all the work and losing a hard fought battle,
but
knowing that she wasn't… couldn't… be invited to the party
made
it
all that much harder to deal with and the tears that she had
been
fighting
back since walking out of his office started to run down her
face.
No amount of will power at this point could make them stop, so
she
collapsed on one of the benches and had herself a good cry.
She
didn't realize that she could be seen, or that anyone would
even
notice
her out there, so she didn't even hear the doors open. She
didn't
even realize she was no longer alone until she heard her
name.
"Donna?"
She
knew she was a mess as she looked up at the youngest
Bartlet
daughter,
but at this point, she didn't care. She tried to smile at
Zoey,
but the tears started again. She covered her eyes with the
used
tissue and felt Zoey put her arms around her shoulders and pull
her
onto her shoulder. It had been so long… since any of them, the
old
crew, had been together, had tried to take care of each
other,
really,
since any of them could really have called each
other
friends'…. Well, this just made the tears come harder. She
knew,
in the back of her head, she should have felt foolish, crying
like
a baby on the shoulder of one of the First Daughters, but she
just
didn't have the strength to fight anymore. So, she just cried.
She
didn't have any idea how long they sat there like that, Zoey
just
letting
her cry, but eventually, her tears subsided. She pulled her
head
up and looked at Zoey's tear stained shirt.
"Oh crap, Zoey, I'm so sorry…"
"Its fine, Donna, its fine. Nothing that can't be cleaned."
Donna sighed and looked down at her hands.
"Donna,
want to tell me why you are out here, in the Rose
Garden,
crying?"
She
looked at this young girl, who was much wiser than her 25
years.
"How did you know I was out here?"
"Charlie
called. He said he walked by and saw you out here. He said
he
would have stopped, but he was with Kate Harper and…"
She held up her hand. "It's fine. Tell him its fine."
"So…"
"Oh god, where to even start!"
"OK, so, let's try this… you back across the street?"
"Yeah,
I guess till Friday, at least. My contract runs out… Will
said
he would reup it for the remainder of the term, but I just… I
don't
think I can just sit on the sidelines and play Solitaire all
day,
you know?"
Zoey just shook her head. "So, what about the Santos…"
Just
the name Santos made the tears come back to her eyes and,
instantly,
Zoey understood.
"You've already been there, haven't you?"
Donna
just shook her head yes, unsure that she could get any words
out
at this point.
"Donna, what happened?"
Donna
took a couple of deep breaths, knowing she would need to be
able
to start telling this story. She knew Will was going to ask
the
minute
she saw him and she would much rather be a basket case in
front
of Zoey Bartlet than Will Bailey – at least Zoey could
understand…
Will didn't much care of Josh Lyman these days.
"I
went in, without an appointment, but I told them I had an
interview.
They all recognized me; they all looked kind of shocked I
was
there. That woman, Ronna… anyway, she grabbed me and told me
to
follow
her. She pulled Josh out of a meeting for me and we went into
his
office. Zoey, I was so nervous! I started my pitch – I
had
practiced
it like a thousand times over the last four days, so I just
plowed
ahead. He tried to stop me, but you know me, unstoppable
and
impervious,
so I just kept talking. Then, he pulled out this file
and
started repeating my words back to me. I swear, half of them, I
don't
even remember. Something about Kung Pau chicken, I think.
God,
Zoey, you know… it was my job, I had to do it, I had to
defend
Russell.
I threw Josh's actions back at him, you know, the humming
of
"These Boots are Made for Walking" and what-not and then
he
says
"Yeah, but I won", like I'm just some idiot trying to jump
ships
or
something. Then he…" Just thinking about it put her stomach
in
knots.
"What Donna?"
"He
started in on how he's got all these people looking at him
for
direction
and how Santos doesn't trust any of them. Then, he
says
and if you think I don't miss you everyday…'".
Zoey
was riveted. Everyone had waited for this moment, when they
finally
acted, realized, or whatever it was that these two would
do.
"What! What did he say?"
"Nothing.
I stopped him. He offered to make some calls on my
behalf,
but I just had to get out of there before I lost it."
Zoey
just sighed and gave Donna a hug. She knew, she had seen it
from
day one, from the minute Donna joined the campaign all those
years
ago. Zoey was about to open her mouth when Donna started
talking
again.
"Misses
me, huh? What, he can't find another sounding board, can't
learn
another assistant's name to scream at through the door, can't
do
his own typing!"
Then,
Zoey did something that she had seen her mother and CJ do more
time
than she could count, but something she had never done herself,
no
matter how mad Charlie made her. She slapped Donna up the back of
the
head.
"OW!"
Donna yelled as she rubbed her hand on the back of her
head.
"What the hell, Zoey!"
"God,
Donna, aren't you tired? I would be, after 9 years of
misdirection
and other men and things that have been left unsaid for
way
too long. You really think that's what he meant when he said
he
missed
you everyday? Are you really that dense, are you really
that
willing to ignore it, to NOT see it!"
The
fight was on the top of Donna's tongue. It was so rehearsed it
was
like second nature at this point – "I have no idea what you
are
talking
about", "Yeah, right, him and that ego – please, give me
some
credit",
"He's my best friend", "He's a busy man with no time
to
shower,
much less have a relationship", etc, etc, etc. Her brain
was
trying
to process which line to use, to start with, when she noticed
the
look on Zoey's face, that look of awe and irritation. As the
years
had passed, she was very used to those looks. Suddenly, the
fight
was gone.
"I'm exhausted."
"Well,
thank the heavens! And just when we thought that you two
were
completely
hopeless…"
"But, Zoey, I'm sure he didn't…"
"He
did. He meant it exactly how you want to take it. If you
really
believe
that he doesn't miss you, you're a fool!"
"God,
I miss him too! I still cry, and it's been almost a year since
I
left, but I miss him, seeing him, talking to him…"
The
tears started to well up in her eyes again. She didn't even know
how
she still had tears left to shed, but there they were. Zoey put
an
arm around her shoulder again.
"I
know you do, Donna, I know you do, but, perhaps, just perhaps,
this
is for the best."
Donna was confused. "What?"
"Just
hear me out – you are going to be in high demand. There are
100
senators and a bazillion Representatives that would love to have
you
as part of their staff. You are going to get a job, that's for
sure.
I mean, think about, no taboo, no stress, you can finally be
Josh
and Donna – not Deputy Chief of Staff and his assistant,
or
Campaign
Manager and whatever you where applying for. Either way, in
November,
he's going to be a LOT more stable than he is right now.
Just
do me a favor and think about the possibilities, just for
a
second."
Donna
just stared at this young woman, who was voicing every thought
she
had over the last four days – finally being able to be
together,
with
no restrictions, no lines that couldn't be crossed. She had
convinced
herself that it wasn't possible, which is why she went
looking
for the job in the first place, but now, sitting here,
listening
to the words of wisdom coming out of the mouth of Zoey
Bartlet,
she began to see again.
"Ok, so, suppose your right…"
"Donna…"
"OK,
OK, OK, just don't smack me again. So, I guess my question is…
now
what?"
Zoey
smiled and stood up. "That's where two pints of Rocky Road and
a
phone come in. Let's go."
Zoey
took off toward the doors that lead to the Residence before
Donna
had a chance to stand up.
"What are you talking about?"
"Well,
I know where Dad hides the Rocky Road, and I think that
this
afternoon
that you've had calls for a good pint of ice cream. Then
we
call my sister."
"Ellie?"
"Liz.
She's always been the crafty one, the one to come up with
the
elaborate
plans. She'll be able to help."
Donna
just smiled at Zoey. She was so determined, so convinced that
Donna
had no choice but to feel her spirits rise up just a little
bit.
Maybe things weren't as bleak as she thought they were just a
few
minutes ago.
Donna walked over and Zoey linked her right arm through Donna's left.
"Rocky Road, huh?"
"Yeah.
He thinks it's well hidden, but Dad always did suck at hiding
things.
We always found our Christmas presents well before
Christmas
Day."
"I would have taken the President for a Cookies and Cream man."
Zoey
just smiled at Donna, glad to hear her joking and not crying
anymore.
Zoey pulled her through the doors and up toward the
Residence
to fix something that should have never been broken in the
first
place.
The End
