thanx so much 4 the reviews! heres the next chapter

Ryan was sitting in the kitchen eating a cinnamon and raison bagel left over from breakfast.

"hey Ryan, it's 5 o'clock don't you think that's a little late to be eating bagels?" Seth said entering the kitchen.

"Seth, shut up."

"No can do buddy! You know I was thinking about how me and..." Ryan didn't hear anything after that as he had walked out of the kitchen with half of his bagel in hand. Once inside the poolside he decided to put on a CD. It wasn't hard to choose which one as he only had one that Marissa had given him called 'the pool house mix,' but he didn't need any more CD's he loved this one (probably just because it was from Marissa he realised.)

The first song that came on was Blink 182 I'm lost without. O god, Ryan thought, Ryan had always thought that this song had to of been written about Marissa and him. It just described his feelings for her so well.

"I swear that I can go on forever, again

please let me know that my one bad day will end,

I will go down as your lover, your friend

Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin."

Ryan hummed along slowly with the song. God how perfect were these lyrics? 'Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin' how right were those words? If he could just give Marissa that one kiss. ONE kiss is all it would take just one, tiny kiss could start the most wonderful thing in his life. Wow thought Ryan, I cant believe I'm thinking this, she really has turned me soft!

"are you afraid of being alone?

Cause I am, I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of leaving tonight?

Cause I am, im lost without you"

Yeah Ryan thought I guess I am lost without you Marissa. What would he do if he never saw her again? He didn't think he could live without knowing that he would see her tomorrow, he would be lost without her.

"I'll keep my room open till sunrise for you

I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you

Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming

And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this"

O god Ryan thought as he slammed the off button on his CD player Ryan Atwood was the tough guy from Chino, he didn't think of girls like this!

He laid back on his bed and closed his eyes thinking about all the good things that had happened to him since he moved to Newport. This place really was his home, with Seth, Sandy, Seth and most of all Marissa.