WARNING This chapter contains unpleasent subject matter, i have toned it down to keep within the R rating but if you are sensitive please skip this chapter I promise the story will make sense without it.

"Hey baby" He whispered "Did you miss me?"

She cringed he was the last person in the world she wanted to see right now.

"Go away" she sobbed trying to pull away from him but he held her tight " You've ruined by life" She screamed still sobbing and half hysterical.

The hairs on the back of her neck began to stand on end, she had a horrible feeling that she had been here before but she couldn't place its origin. Mikey began to walk backward towards the door leading into the building and she tried her best to push him away and drag her feet but it was no good she was too weak now to put up a proper fight.

A cold ran down her spine as her back pressed against something cold and the memory of a dream that had haunted her since before the explosion came rushing back to her.

Her fears were confirmed as she felt him pin her and his lips gently nibble at her neck.

Flashback

She opened her eyes and the wind was gone something cold was against her back, she was pressed against a cold alley wall. It took her a moment before her senses caught up and she realized her plight, someone was attacking her. She fought back eyes still unfocused but to no avail her attacker pinned her easily with one hand she felt lips on her neck

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"No" She screamed forcefully trying to squirm away from him, she cried and screamed but he didn't seem to notice her , he just kept about his business licking the rain water from her neck.

"Why" He asked her in a gruff tone, he had asked that before in the dream.

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"Why?" He asked in a gruff tone "I'm not good enough for you anymore now that you've had him?" He spat forcing her legs apart with his knee "I used to be" He continued pinning her to the wall with his weight while he used his now free hand to reach up under her skirt and rip her panties off.


"You used to scream for me" He said pinning her once more "You remember that " He whispered in her ear in the same tone she used to find so seductive. She sobbed tears streaming down her face as she felt him brush her thigh.

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She struggled harder sobbing and squirming against him , she knew what would happen to her if she didn't break free and soon.

"Am I not good enough for you anymore Jules, not now that you've had him" He questioned.

She was horrified her dream was coming true and she knew how it would end , sobbed hysterically screaming and begging for him to stop. She had thought since her more recent dreams that he had been referring to Raph, but she was wrong.

"He doesn't appreciate you" He whispered in her ear " He just left you here to cry in the rain"

She mind tried to comprehend the sentence, he was jealous of himself? Angry that she had come back and fallen in love with him…. The other him! He thoughts we shattered as he ripped the front of her shirt open throwing the torn patch over his shoulder and burying his face between her breasts.

It hurt, his touch. It stung and burned despite the fact that her traitorous body was trying to help things along.

"No" She sobbed as rubbed her gently whispering things in her ear in a tone she knew he thought was soothing.

Somewhere between the rush of air that signified the removal of her pants and the horrible feeling of him brushing against her thigh her mind shut down leaving her body and preparing for the worst.

But the worst never came. A moment later she realized she was on the ground her pants around her ankles her bear ass resting in a pool of icy rain water. In the distance she can see two figures fighting.

Her mind snapped back into place in an instant and she began to struggle with her wet pants eventually wrestling them back up over her hips, there was little she could do about her shirt.

She couldn't make out the fight they were too far away in the dark raining night but after a short time one figure ran off leaving her alone with the other, she prayed in wasn't Mikey.

It wasn't. She was shocked to find that she wasn't afraid when the one eyed incarnation of Raphael emerged from the night walking towards her with quick strides, after all what could he do to her that had already been done.

"It ok baby" He said as he reached her and pulled her into his arms " He's gone" She numbly accepted the embrace shocked at how calm and detached she had become.

"What went on between us" She said shocking even herself , she hadn't felt the words coming.

He pulled back from her a questioning look on his face, he too seemed to think that she should be more upset right now too. She would be , later but now she couldn't take anymore surprises she had had enough.

"Tell me" She said her voice harsh.

"We were lovers" He said softly "You didn't know that?" He looked hurt but she didn't care.

"No!" She answered " I have to interest in you"

"You did" He said a half chuckle of irony in his voice " We were in love"

He then launched into a full explanation right there in the cold wet night.

"I loved you so much, I begged you to leave Mikey but you wouldn't…… I begged you not to marry him but you did"

He explained that for a short time she had turned to drugs to relieve the stress, after an incident which rung similar with one of her dreams he had stopped asked her to leave Mikey, shortly after words she got clean.

"You killed me" She said coldly hoping the words stung.

They did, tears began to run down his face.

"I'm sorry" He sobbed " I….I…" He stumbled looking destroyed.

That brought her back to herself, she had looked down upon herself in the dreams for treating people the way she did and now she was acting that way herself.

She looked at the turtle in front of her and felt sorry for him, even in the face of what had just happened to her. She pushed away her feelings about that bottled them she would deal with them when she was ready right now she had to be strong.

"I'm sorry" He whispered again with sincerity .

" I know " She said allowing him to hug her again, he was destroyed and she was the one who had destroyed him.