Chapter 7

                                              "The Truth Hurts"

Inu's Dream 3

He stood there watching Kagome. He was once again invisible to everyone. And he could do nothing but watch. He was glued to his place, he tried to move, to run to her, to protect her, but somehow he was chained to his place. Something was keeping him from moving, it was like invisible ropes binding him from escaping.

He could see her pain, he could smell her blood. He saw Kagome as she was trapped between Kagura, and the cliff. The determination to protect her broke the binds that kept him from moving. Finally he was free. He quickly ran to her, reaching his hands out, but it was too late she had fallen.

" KAGOMEEEEEE" he screamed, as he jumped after her, trying to reach her. He tried to reach his hands to her. His hands was an inch away from her.

Then he heard it, it was Kagome's voice….

*Even if I die, at least I had died protecting the jewel*

*Inuyasha I know I will never be like Kikyo but if there's something that you can truly compare between us, is that we both loved you.. that I loved you till the very end.*

" Noo I won't let you die" he yelled praying that she might hear him, forgetting that this was only a dream, only an image.

Then she started to fade, she was slowly fading into darkness.

" KAGOMEE" he screamed watching her fade, and soon he found himself alone, falling in darkness.

In every dream he found himself falling in darkness.

*This is how Kagome felt when she was falling in darkness… Alone, she had felt alone.*

" Kagome…. Please come back I need you… I.. I… Love you" his words echoed in the never ending darkness.

End of Dream…

He awoke once again with sweat all over his face. *Inuyasha I know I will never be like Kikyo but if there's something that you can truly compare between us, is that we both loved you.. that I loved you till the very end.* her words echoed through his head refusing to stop.

*his Kagome had chosen to die, she was so kind so selfless. That even after what she saw and heard, even in death she held no bitter thought towards him, or Kikyo. How could he have done that to her. It was his fault, it was his fault why she suffered. If he hadn't been with Kikyo that night, he could have protected her. He failed her, he failed to protect her, he had let her die*

He realized how important Kagome was to him. He realized how much he loved her.

       ( Poem does not belong to me…. I just loved it)

Love is a jealous game between your mind and your heart often you….

Don't know what you feel… and it can tear you apart.

It can be you your worst enemy, or your very close friend.

But you'll never really know till you've lost someone in the end…

Don't make a special person wait to long cause they might not be there

When you want them to be…

It was late in the night and everyone was already asleep. He found Kikyo asleep beside him, and everyone else was at the farthest corner of the hut. Pain shot through his body, he found his arm and shoulder covered with a mix of herbs, bandages, and blood.

Wanting to be alone he made his way outside. And jumped on one of the branches of the Goshinboku tree, he always loved this tree, it was here were he met his eternal sleep, here is where he had first met Kagome. Tears began to fall freely down his eyes. He felt no shame to cry. For years he acted, and yet this was the hardest thing he had to go through. He would never be the same again, a big portion of his soul died with kagome.

*Kagome.. I've fooled myself in believing I loved Kikyo, I was so blind to see how much I cared for you, if I could take back everything I said … I would. I would take it all back*

 ~ If Your Not The One~  By: Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
 
I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
 
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?




If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true




We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with




I hope I love you all my life
I dont want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
 
'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side
 
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms

He took out Kagome's bloodied cloth and held it close to him, memories of Kagome ran through his mind like a movie clip playing over and over.

Flashback:

They were fighting a centipede demon, and it was after Kagome and the jewel. He was suppose to be there to protect her. But when Kikyo came he had left Kagome's side thinking Kikyo needed protection thus leaving Kagome unprotected.

She stood there looking down the village, the same spot where Kikyo use to sit. Her hair swayed with the wind, how she looked so peaceful, so carefree, so beautiful. She noticed my presence and slowly looked back and smiled how I loved that smile. For a moment I stood there just watching her, portraying every detail. Her figure, her smile, her eyes, the sunset that played behind her making the picture more perfect. How beautiful she looked, she called me to join her, as she returned to watching the sunset. I slowly walked forward taking baby steps at a time. The scent of her wound was strong now, I could smell her blood, guilt consumed me, I was not able to protect her earlier that day I was to preoccupied thinking about Kikyo's sake that I had forgotten kagome was there and she had gotten hurt. And still she never blamed me for her injuries, she merely understood.

Still I could not forgive myself. I had stood there and watched her get hurt. What if she had died because of my carelessness. Tears streamed down my face as I hugged her from behind, I couldn't believe that I was crying for this girl when I had never cried for anyone besides my mother. How she makes me feel weak, but at the same time making me stronger.

" I'm sorry I'm so sorry" and I truly meant it

My actions surprised her as she turned around and found me crying, her eyes they showed so much emotions. She was surprised to find the great inuyasha crying because she was hurt. She whipped my tears away, and smiled.

"Why are you sorry you didn't do anything wrong"

I hugged her harder, but lessened my grip when I realized her wounds.

" Kagome I thought I was going to loose you"

"I don't know what I would do if I lost you"

"I lost Kikyo before, and I don't want to loose you to" fear was in his voice

"inuyasha...." guilt was in her voice she felt guilty seeing him cry.

"didn't I say I'll always be by your side"

"kagome....I..I...I lo..ve you" I couldn't believe what I had said. I told her how I felt.

End of Flashback…

More tears began to fall. * if only he wasn't so blinded she might still be here with him* How he wishes that in the morning when he wakes, Kagome would be there preparing breakfast. She had always made him feel better. He knew before that Kikyo is Kikyo and Kagome is Kagome. That they may look alike, but they were different in so many ways. When he was with Kikyo he had to be perfect, he always had to act serious. Yet when he was around Kagome he could act like himself, he didn't have to pretend. He felt free in Kagome's presence.

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