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Not letting you go
I was walking trough the green forest, down the road I knew to well. Two years have past since I left, and now for the first time in those past two years I realized how much I actually missed this place that I use to call home, that I use to share with...with her.
Anna.
She is the only thing I can think about since I came here from the ball. When I first stepped in the house memories came hunting me, memories of our childhood and the time we spend together. Now I can only laugh at those times but I now that if I could turn time back I now I would do it without thinking but I know it's impossible and that there is no way of doing that.
I can handle the lust and sadness I am feeling but the thing that brake me down when I saw her was the fact that she was fiancée of my brother, the fact that she is not mine anymore...Oh Anna...
The small road ended and I continue walking up to the hill and when I finally got to the top I saw someone I thought I never will, at least not at this place.
The blonde beauty sat on the grass and stared at the sunset, she was so occupied with her own thoughts that she hadn't heard when I came.
"Do you remember when we were kids and we use to come here and play?" I said calmly felling the wind in my hair.
A blonde turned and looked sadly at me "I don think I could ever forget that, but just, it seems so far away..."
"Yeah, I know... and I wish we can change it but..."
"...but its impossible "she finishes my sentence.
I nodded and tried to smile.
"Anna...?"
"Hm?"
"What happened with us?" I looked at her from the corner of my eye.
"I don't think I understand your question Yoh"
I sighed and looked at the grass.
"I mean...what happened with that cute blonde girl who uses to slap me whenever I approached her, and what happened with that boy who followed you everywhere, what happened with Yoh and Anna we knew, it seems like we are not they anymore." I tried to explain and I think she understood me because after some time she answered calmly...
"I know what happened with them Yoh, they simply grooved up and realized that their feelings for each other have changed, and we still are Yoh and Anna just a little changed, okay? People are changing Yoh, that's what happened with us..."
...but that was the answer I was afraid of.
I looked at her onyx eyes and in my surprise she met my gaze. And at the moment I just had to ask her something I wanted since the ball but I never got the chance to.
"Anna, do you...do you still love me?" I somehow manage to ask.
"What? Yoh!"
"Please Anna I need to know the truth, please..." I begged.
I could swear I saw tears in the corner of her eyes but she turned her had and answered.
"I...I don't know. If I said I don't it would be a lie and again I am not sure in what I truly feel so I don't know, okay?" She finished in a low tone.
"And beside it's to late for that now...we both have fiancées and we cant hurt them cause it wouldn't be fair to them Yoh and maybe we just aren't meant to be..." She lifted her head and I could clearly see tears in her dark eyes.
"No Anna maybe we can still fix things or something..." I was desperate.
"Can we Yoh?"
I could feel my tears coming but I tried to keep them back. Somehow I knew she was right but I just didn't want to admit that to myself. I didn't want to admit that it was all over, forever. And it was then when it hit me, I was the one that had left her, it's all y fault, I hated myself so much at this moment.
And then I couldn't hold myself anymore, I pressed my lips on her red cherry lips, I could taste her, I needed her, I loved her…
'I am sorry Anna...' I thought.
"No Yoh!" she said pushing me off "you have Sakura and I won't let you hurt her, and I …I have Hao, who loves me and I can't hurt him either…" she looked at me
"Anna…" I muttered
And then I got surprised when Anna kissed me again…before running away…
"It's too late…" was the last thing I heard
I felt hot tears on my cheek…
Demit, Anna I'm not letting you go again, I need you…I sighed and got up…I'll get you back…
"Everything will wok out somehow…"
I smiled at stars one last time, before leaving…
But I knew that this time I was wrong but I just wanted to believe that this all is just a nightmare and that I am going to wake up with her by my side...but as Anna said, it was impossible.
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I am sorry for spelling and grammar mistakes and I know that there is a lot of them but I am already late for school(I hate going to school) and my friends are going to kill me for being late so bear with me please...
Oh and this chapter is wrote with apologies to Silver Blossom and HAO-SAMA-ROX! I know you like Hana as a couple but I need to put Yona into the story...
Ok, thanks to: candee, Silver Blossom, Shaman Queen, HAO-SAMA-ROX, pendulumxswing, Holy Girl...
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