Chapter 16: Don't Cry Out Loud
Don't cry out loud…
Just keep it inside…
Learn how to hide your feeling…
Fly high and proud…
And if you should fall…
Remember you almost had it all…
" Don't cry out Loud"
sigh "that is all I know of.... the villagers in the last village she came upon, had told me she had came there... and soon departed for the forest.... perhaps she reached her destination.... " Kinata quietly spoke, keeping her watchful eyes on the hanyou.
"she returned to our village months later......... yet.. I could sense something was amiss, the young maiden we had rescued months earlier was quiet different from the one... that returned. In appearance she was still the same. But when we gaze upon her eyes, we see nothing. Once she had such lively eyes, turned to eyes so cold, and emotionless." Kinata spoke; her tone was low, and regretful.
Flashback
It was a quiet, and peaceful night. The stars gleaming in the sky, over head the sleeping village.
Kinata prepared for bed, after a long days work.
Suddenly... an unusual aura filled the air. Assuming it was a demon; she grabbed her bow, and a set of arrows, and made her way outside.
Just as she exited the shrine... a familiar figure stood in before her.
"sigh you startled me... come you must be cold out here" Kinata spoke, her voice still shaky.
She led Kagome into the shrine, and served her a cup of tea.
She watched curiously at the quiet Miko sitting across her.
Her bangs hiding her eyes from view.
something is strangely wrong with her, she is quiet Kinata thought.
" so... have ye found your friends" Kinata spoke, trying to break the silence.
Kagome slowly placed the cup down... and revealed her eyes to Kinata.
Lady Kinata stared in shock...Kagome's eyes we're cold, and lifeless.
An image of the happy, outgoing Kagome appeared in her head.
this could not be the same girl she met months ago Kinata thought.
" would it be alright if I stay here" Kagome spoke, her voice detached of any emotion.
" yes... of course, you are always welcome here..." Lady Kinata replied, still troubled by Kagome's lack of emotion.
End of Flashback...
"I had never questioned her about her past, since that day 3 years ago..." sigh Every now and then she would smile, only in the presence of the children. Only I knew her real name.... and she had asked me never to speak it again. She created a knew name, that would match her knew life." Kinata told.
"she had told me… she wished to forget her old life, and start anew in our village… She had never told me anything else about her past." She went on.
" I know not why she had suddenly changed, you must ask her yourself…" Kinata quietly spoke.
" I believe your friend is still in there… amidst the hatred of Kinagi's heart…" she quietly uttered.
" Kinagi and your friend Kagome are but one person… she seeks revenge from those who wronged her in the past." Kinata said.
Inuyasha wishing to hear no more, excused himself from the hut.
He made his way to a nearby tree, and quietly sat on its branch.
He stared off in the starry night… obviously in deep thought…
He recalled all the memories he and Kagome had in the passed.
why… why did I have to leave her side, why did I have to run to Kikyo again. Why wasn't I there to protect her. Inuyasha thought.
He mentally punched himself for being so dumb, and stupid.
After what seemed like hours of feeling sorry for himself… Inuyasha caught a familiar scent, not far from where he sat.
He hurriedly followed the scent…
Inuyasha sped through the forest, hopping from tree to tree…
It's her… it's Kagome he thought.
He didn't know what to say, or what to do once he got there… but he wanted to see her, he wanted to ease all the pain he inflicted on her.
He wanted to tell her…. He loved her….
The closer and closer he got, the stronger her scent became…
Finally he made it….
Kagome/ Kinagi's POV…
Kagome stood before a lake, gazing at the reflection of herself. She had wandered off from the village seeking peace, and tranquility.
She gazed at the woman in the glassy water.
Is this what I've become. she thought as she gazed deeper into her reflection. Cold auburn eyes stared lifelessly back at her.
Suddenly her reflection changed into young girl dressed in green uniform. The girl smiled joyfully at her, before disappearing once again. Her reflection turned back to the lifeless auburn eyed woman.
Kagome clenched her chest, where her heart laid. Softly, she could feel her heart beating… It was low but she could feel it, it was beating. Now that she regained her soul, her cold heart was slowly melting. Yet her hatred was still present, and the thirst for revenge. Memories of her family's death, Inuyasha's betrayal, and her friends abandonment, made her anger rise.
Too deep in thought, Kagome did not sense the presence of the hanyou… silently gazing at her.
INU POV
There she stood as beautiful as ever, her back facing him
Inuyasha slowly advanced, wanting to be closer to her. .
Even from behind she was still beautiful. He watched with regretful eyes, at the woman he dearly loved.
Knowing that she would never forgive him for all the things he's done to her.
Something he wanted so much yet could not grasp… something he regretfully lost, years ago.
"ka..gome" he whispered.
Slowly but gracefully she turned her head towards him….
For a moment he thought he saw a flash of sadness in her eyes, as it immediately turned to lifeless eyes.
She stared at him for a moment before she turned her head back. He was once again facing the back of her head, watching her long raven black hair sway in the wind.
" have I not given you time to live… Hanyou" she spoke breaking the silence.
"ka..gome.." inuyasha stuttered, he did not know what to say… or what to do.
"Why have you come…" Kagome spoke coldly, suppressing any emotion from her voice.
"kagome… I.. I want to know what happened to you" he questioned.
"I want to know WHY you never came back? WHY you made us believe you we're dead?" Inuyasha shouted.
Kagome watched the glassy waters, as Inuyasha's questions entered her ears. why I never came back… why I wanted to stay dead The memories that his questions awakened sent her in rage. Her eyes flared with pain, and hatred, as she recalled those events.
She spun around facing the hanyou.
" YOU WISH TO KNOW THE TRUTH.. WHY INUYASHA, WHERE WE'RE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST…. WE'RE YOU NOT WITH KIKYO" kagome shouted in pain.
Inuyasha was taken aback. " kagome…. I.. I'm sorry" he uttered.
He stood there… unable to move…
" You told me you loved me, yet you betrayed me"
" I.. didn't mean to hurt you" he begged.
" you don't know how I felt watching you and Kikyo kiss, the moment I turn my back. How it felt watching your family die. How it felt to truly be alone."
" Tell me Inuyasha, do you know how true betrayal felt"
"…."
" You have no idea of the pain and suffering I went through" her tone becoming cold once again.
"the feeling of having everything taken from you, leaving you with only haunting memories." Her eyes flared violet red, as she concentrated her Miko powers on the hanyou.
Suddenly…. He was struck by an overwhelming pain.
"AHHH" he screamed.
Inuyasha clutched his head in pain. His vision grew blurry, as he fell on his knees.
He looked at Kagome's blurry form. " wh..at…did…yo..u..do"
"you wished to know the truth…thus I will show it to you." Her voice echoed through his head, as he fell into a deep sleep.
Kagome eyed the now sleeping hanyou, knowing he would soon experience her nightmares. HER HUANTING MEMORIES.
you will soon understand why a bare such hatred against you and Kikyo she thought.
Suddenly black fog began to approach them, and soon they were surrounded by it.
She turned, and glanced one last time at the unconscious hanyou, before disappearing through the fog.
Drain me of these memories…
And bleed me of this pain…
Cry for all the times I've hurt…
And shield me from the rain…
Take away the cloudy skies…
And turn the grey to blue…
Rid me of the suffering…
Caused by my love for you…
Poem by: Raven visit her sight at riven. ecau. net
End of Chapter 16…. Sorry peoples if I took too long to update. Like I explained my computer was broken for about 3 months. We have recently bought a new computer this month, but was too occupied in school work. Anywayz please review………….. Thank you for being so patient. I hope you liked this last chapter…
Chapter 17 My Haunting Memories…