Chapter 18: Painful Memories
"Solitude"
How many times have you told me you love her
As many times as I've wanted to tell you the truth
How long have I stood here beside you
I live through you
You looked through me
Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me
Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night
Your secret admirer
Who could it be
Ooh, Can't you see
All along it was me
How can you be so blind
As to see right through me
Chapter 18… Painful Memories
Kagome felt her heart shatter into millions of pieces.
'Why… why is this happening to me' Kagome thought.
There inside Kaeda's hut laid Kikyo, asleep beside Inuyasha. He… also asleep, sat next to his beloved Kikyo, his hands wrapped around the mikos hands.
Once again Kaguras words invaded her train of thoughts…
"There is no one here to return to"
"Do you wish to know... what your dear Inuyasha has been doing, while you we're away?"
"While you we're away, he has spent his entire time at Kikyo's side."
"You we're but an instrument to him, now that he has Kikyo, you have become worthless, even your friends abandoned you. I can't blame them, after all Kikyo is far more superior than you. You are just a forgotten memory."
She backed away from the huts entrance. Tears falling from her eyes like an endless river, as it mixed with the rain.
She didn't know if she could take this anymore, the pain was too great.
All her hopes, everything she had left was taken away from her.
She had only her friends left, she had no home to return to, and she had no where else to go.
Now, even her friends, the only thing that she held on to for hope would be gone.
How would she survive alone, she had nothing left.
"Breathe No More" Evanescence
I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.
So I bleed,
I bleed,
She couldn't take it anymore.
Kagome ran swiftly away from Kaedas hut, wanting to be as far away from them as possible.
She didn't know where she was going, but she just wanted to get away, get away from everything.
As darkness quickly steals the light, that shined within her eyes…
She slowly swallows all her fears and sooths her mind with lies…
Well nothing hurts and nothing bleeds, when covers tucked in tight…
Funny how the bottom drops and she forgets to fight…
"Paradise" Vanessa Carlton
Kikyo's eyes fluttered open, as she sensed the all too familiar aura.
She could sense her soul, calling out to hers.
She must have them… now.
She knew Inuyasha would never kill the girl, and she knew if he ever found out that her reincarnate was still alive, he would run to her, and leave her behind again.
'I knew that wench was still alive. If she had truly died my soul would have returned to me.' Kikyo thought.
She eyed the sleeping hanyou, and slowly removed her hands from the hanyous grasp.
She picked up her bow and arrow, and silently strolled out of the hut, being careful as not to wake the hanyou and his companions.
She walked to the direction of the well, knowing that Kagome would head there.
Kagome's POV
She disregarded the excruciating pain in her body.
It was nothing, nothing compared to the pain she was feeling in her heart.
'You once told me you loved me. How could I have been so stupid to believe you could ever forget Kikyo for me?'
Running, she kept on running, as if somebody was chasing her.
She abruptly stopped, as she spotted a familiar object.
'The well…'
Her hasty run has led her to the well.
She stood before it, not knowing what to do.
More tears came, as she realized that no one would be waiting for her on the other side.
She would be returning to an empty home, filled with nothing but painful memories.
'But where else could I go' she thought.
For once in her life she truly felt alone… she was lost in her own emotions.
And for once in her life she understood how true betrayal felt…
Kagome clutched the edge of the well, contemplating if she should leave or not.
'If I leave, I could never go back… is that what I truly want' she thought.
Too lost in thought, Kagome did not notice the figure that crept behind her.
"I will not allow you to escape with my soul…" Kikyo stated.
Kagome quickly turned to face the tragic Miko.
"what do you want from me" Kagome weakly asked. Her loss of blood was really taking the toll on her now.
"…" Kikyo said nothing, but she had a smirk on her face that made Kagome nervous.
"You have outlived your usefulness, thus he had you replaced… for me" Kikyo spoke, her tone icy, and emotionless.
Kagome couldn't say anything to defend herself, because she knew… Kikyo was right.
"You were there we're you not… You had seen everything. You had heard Inuyasha state his undying love for me, and still you return…" Kikyo asked… she was curious to know why this wench chooses to return after all that Inuyasha had done.
Kagome couldn't answer her… because she didn't know the answer… herself.
Kikyo's POV
Kikyo sensed Inuyasha close by; she had to destroy this wench… now.
Slowly… Kikyo raised her bow and arrow, and aimed it at Kagome.
She would not hesitate to kill the girl. She would do anything… if she had to lower herself to this level. To kill an unarmed girl, who was in bad condition, and could not even fight… she would.
Kikyo would do anything to take back her soul, and win back Inuyasha's heart.
'This girl is all that stands in my way, she must be destroyed.' Kikyo thought.
Without any form of regret, Kikyo released the arrow, and watched blankly as the arrow pierced Kagomes abdomen.
"ahh" She heard Kagome's silent shout of pain.
She watched in satisfaction at Kagome suffer. Every pain that Kagome expressed sent waves of pleasure through her.
She watched with glee as little balls of light flew out from Kagome's body and entered her.
Soon… she would be whole again.
She would feel love more than hatred. She would be Kikyo, and more.
Kikyo summoned her soul stealers, and gazed as they lifted Kagome's empty body of the ground.
With one last glance, she watched in content as they dropped her body over the well.
Silently… she waited for Inuyasha, knowing he would arrive soon.
Inu POV
He awoke from his nightmare…
This was his second dream of Kagome, and he grew worried.
Yet he could not do anything if the well refuses to let him pass. His body ached.
Soon he realized something was wrong……..
Kikyo was missing she was not in the hut anymore……
She's still injured, she can't be out here in this weather he thought
His worry grew and grew as he quickly ran out the hut to search for the injured priestess. He could not sense her scent for the rain was washing away the smell, and he could not see her in the darkness of the night. So he ran where ever his feet went.
Minutes pass as he wandered around the forest, his whole body was soaked in rain, nothing was left dry.
Soon he found her. She stood there back towards him. At first he stood there watching her back, trying to piece together the reason why she was there. Why she was standing near the well.
Sensing him she turned towards him
"Inuyasha..... do you truly love me" she asked..
She slowly turned around to face the hanyou.
He stood there staring at her eyes, they were different, even her voice has changed. Her voice was no longer cold, it has become more gentle and sweet. Her eyes they showed emotion. He realized that he was seeing the real Kikyo, the old Kikyo he knew, she has changed back to his Kikyo. He didn't question how or why, he was happy.
She stared at the hanyou as tears began to fall, waking the hanyou from his thoughts.
" Kikyo..... you know the answer to that question" answered the hanyou, as he ran and hugged her.
" Kikyo I want you to join us.... I... I ... want ..y..ou to ta..ke Kagome's place" Those words were one of the hardest things he had to say, yet he had no choice, Kagome was never coming back after what he did.
" If it would bring me closer to you, then I would gladly take her place." replied Kikyo.
Then he remembered the question he was etching to ask.
" Kikyo why did you come to this place, at this time, you shouldn't be walking walking around, your still injured" asked the curios hanyou.
For a moment her eyes darkened , then became gentle again.
" I came here because I sensed something." she pulled away from the hug, as she stared at the hanyou. her eyes became more serious.
"Is this the well that my reincarnation had come from" She asked curiously.
" Odd I sense no spiritual energy" said the priestess.
" How did you know about Kagome and the well" said the surprised hanyou.
" Kaeda had told me of the girl, and where she had come from"
" So where has she gone, does she not journey with you"
" No... not anymore.... lets go back you still need rest." abruptly changing the subject.
They walked back together.
Kagome's POV
She awoke in the well house… Her body covered in blood, and dirt.
An arrow still attached to her abdomen…
She gazed at the arrow recalling the events that led her to the bottom of the well.
She gripped the arrow's tilt, and pulled it out.
She grunted as the pain ran through her body.
Kagome crawled to the wells ladder, and hoisted herself up.
Each time she went higher, the more painful it became.
Finally she reached the edge of the well, and stumbled out.
Kagome couldn't find the strength to move, she was just too tired and too weak.
Slowly she succumbed to sleep, and embraced the darkness that awaited her.
Inuyasha awoke from his nightmare, and found it difficult to breath.
His whole body ached, and he could still feel the burning pain the arrow had brought to his abdomen.
It wasn't him that the arrow had shot, but he felt it, he felt it as a human would have.
He felt the pain as Kagome felt it.
For a moment the pain lingered, and disappeared, as if it was it was never there.
Inuyasha rubbed his stomach feeling for any wound or scar, but there was none.
He stood up, and slowly made his way to the Kinata's hut.
There he would confront the reason Kagome did not return.
"Kikyo"
Well that's chapter 18 people sorry it took so long I had so many project for school. Well if you have any question Please don't hesitate to ask. Oh and don't forget to review…
Chapter 19: Truth Unveiled
"Missing" Evanescence
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"
You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Chorus:
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?
Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"
Chorus
And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
isn't something missing?
Isn't something...